Did you ever feel guilty at night for hurting me?

I heard my pillow say something
"Did he do that again?
I nodded
"And you forgive him that easy?"
"It's easier to forgive than to let him go" i said.
*"Well, i know he's a toxic but sometime we crave drugs in case we want to be high. And I feel like i'm flying when im with him."

Honest souls
Dishonest lives
Gracious hearts
Calculating minds
Fractured families
Love unwinds

a scribe without a story
a ship without a sea
a love without a lover
an "us" without a "me"

why couldn't
you see
what i saw
in you...
the eyes of
fidelity
or perhaps
i was choosing
to see what
i wanted
- nay -
needed
and you were
but a reflection
casting a
wayward
glance

I get it now
Those were the hard realities
I could never understand
How you could be so cold

No please
I don't like hugs...

You were right
I wouldn't let go
Of all the loss
Oh what a load

But one day
I realized
I was either going to live
And be happy
Or **** myself


So I just shut it all off
My feeling's
Like a light switch

Ya I heard he died
I don't go to funerals...