that
Bone chipping
Heart throbbing
Teeth grinding
fingernail biting
Mind racing
Toe tapping
Kind of anxiety

If I ever get over you will I still have a muse?
If I stop thinking about you every day will things feel like they used to?
If you stopped coming to visit my dreams
Would I stop missing you?

Do you think she is wondering what you are doing?
As you lay on my chest
She is posting on Facebook about her man.
Where is her man?
The guilt soaks into my skin leaving a permanent tattoo
But I am so excited to see you
I try to wash it off
But it lingers
You have the same tattoo
Are you excited to see me?

We make music when we walk
Shoes laced with guitar strings
Hearts beating to the metronome in my head
When you speak violin comes out
The flowers embedded in your heart are dying
The light in your eyes have burned out
The optimism has drifted from your voice
And left you with hollow bones
The music we played went flat
The waves stopped coming
The sun stopped shining
And my heart stopped beating.

Your fingertips on my lips
Something that no man has done
Is make me feel safe
I love you but that's besides the point
I am a blissful fool
Radiating in my own ignorance
Meditating on lust
Drowning in your touch
I've never made love
But I want to with you
I am a fool
Who is easily blinded by love