It’s funny to me how people wanna tell me how to deal with my depression
knowing that if they were on the same side of the fence, they’d fear my depression
They believe it’s all in the mind & in a way it is
but when you think about it, it’s more of how life really is
They claim to understand your battle when we’re in 2 different wars
trying to tell you how to heal yourself when they don’t relate to your scars
You can’t tell me how to save myself when the same thing isn’t killing you
can’t tell me your methods work for me because your remedy is only healing you
We all have our demons  & devils on different levels
some only have a few, some may have several
Put yourself in my shoes & I’ll see if you can survive that dark world to which I reside
would you give up too quick or **** yourself knowing you tried
You can see what I’m going thru but could you really handle it
you feel my rage within my soul, but could you bare to manage it
Now let’s switch back sides & tell me again how to win my fight
How to keep from tearing myself apart to understand this thing called life
From the outside looking in, you’d probably think it’s a walk in the park
but when you put on my shoes, I guarantee you wouldn’t know where to start
☆ Poetic Venom ☆

2018 was one of the most emotional years from me
trying to cope with friends leaving me
Anxiety & depression got the best of me
but still God sees the best in me
I had my brother visit me in my sleep
but I don’t even know what it means
I could see his face but I couldn’t touch em
& it broke me to see em fade away after I tried to hug me
I woke in tears, feeling like I let em down
cause I’m trying to be with him even though it’s not my time go
So much anger & sadness inside of me but no one to express to
with my anxiety tells me “Dre no one cares for you”
So I spend most of my nights pacing back & forth in my room
closing my eyes hoping I’ll get that next phase soon
Mental meds & pain pills lay next to my bed so I contemplate an overdose
but who I am to take myself away from those who love me most
I see that man I’m supposed to be but becoming him is what scares me
cause the person I’m leaving just doesn’t compare to me
Some tell me to go back to my roots but those roots don’t exist me
& the family that I used to know aren’t the same folks to me
Truth is, I’m not happy but I don’t think I ever was
I’m just a sadder version of the person that the old me was
I tell my mom I’m okay cause I can’t tell her I wanna die sometimes
knowing that my heart can’t take seeing her cry
I can’t make her bury her baby boy, I’m supposed to be the soldier
I’m supposed to be the angel bringing us closer
But how can one be the one if the one is shattered
barely hanging on by a thread, feeling life ending faster
I’m a blessing to many but not even a blessing to oneself
loving everyone else more than I could ever love myself
Trying to be everyone’s hero while neglecting myself
Saving everyone else from their storms & slowly killing myself
I lost myself helping others now I’m losing everyone finding myself
I guess when it all boils down, all you ever have is yourself
If crying is the closest thing to Godliness, will it be the key to my happiness?
If I come to terms with my demons, will it cure my paranoia & sleeplessness?
I’m tired of the frustration, tired of the depression
Tired of the struggle, tired of the aggression
Tired of fake smiling, tired of not being to cry
Tired of having all the questions but no one can tell me why
Tell me why I’m eager to fly. Tell me why I’m eager to die
Tell me why I can’t find peace. Tell me why I’m act happy when it’s all a lie
A lot of enemies surround me & I can’t tell who’s actually an ally
I’m losing myself, I can no longer lie
All I ever do is fail, why must I continue to try
My tears will set me free but my pride won’t let it go
-Poetic Venom

We used to be very close but somewhere down the road, we parted ways
You fell for someone & the day he came around, things haven’t been the same
Haven’t been happy in a long time but you started showing me it doesn’t matter
Tried talking about it but the discussion we had only made me sadder
I faked a smile until I couldn’t fake it anymore so now I exist in silence
We’ll never be a happy family if there’s no sign for an alliance
You always tell me to speak how I feel but in the end, what’s the use?
When you’re just gonna give me that “I’m living my life” excuse?
You don’t understand the heartbreak I feel within
It’s deja vu & here you are walking away from me all over again
Although I’m all grown up, I’m still your baby boy struggling to share the love
That I used to have growing up & it gave me the faith to never give up
I get it that you wanna be happy but you forgot about your family
I thought it was all a dream until I woke up & saw it was true reality
You don’t know the tears I’ve cried knowing that my mom is no longer present
It’s the same pain I felt when I was living as an adolescent
I lost my dad when I was younger & the last thing I needed was to lose you
And I can’t talk to God being so angry that it won’t bring peace or get thru to you
I lost my best friend, the Queen of the Kingdom, & my Dear Mother
It feels like you know I’m not happy but it’s my pain you won’t bother to discover
It’s pure jealousy of my part because I still can’t accept someone else being around
To take away all of your time leaving me feeling like maybe I let you down
Never thought it would come to this but I can no longer carry these tears
I can no longer live in this home knowing that I’m fading away due to the fears
Fearing that the day will come & you’ve completed forgotten about me
Leaving me alone for you to live forever after without me
This wasn’t my idea for a Mother’s Day gift but this is my poem’s cry
As I cry thru this confession asking myself why
Why did I have to lose my mom? Why am I feeling like I don’t have anything left inside?
Telling myself & you that I’m okay knowing that I’m lying
I’m sorry if I’m feeling like I’m losing you but things are truly changing
Maybe I’m stopping us from being a family but maybe there’s still time for saving
Every rose needs the rain sometimes but this rose is dying out
Struggling to stay alive a bit longer but the petals have officially cried out
                                                   - Pencasso

I used to think it was my biggest loss in the world
to lose the one person that brought me into this world
but going back to think about it, you're the loser here
for walking away from a blessing with the pain being severe
never mind the issues with you & my mom, I'm not apart of that
you owe me enough to guide me thru life but avoided that
I can't understand the idea of not raising my seed
grooming him perfectly to be fit respectfully as a king
with some lessons being better taught by men
"I gave birth to you so it's my job to help you win"
not a single birthday card or phone call to be sent
just that $80 a week on child support spent
you loss out on a miracle, a blessing to be exact
making him grow to disliking you, you gotta live with that
used to be sorry for being your son but it's not me
to tell a dad about his responsibilities
you created a monster that turned into a gem
that soon a monster & slowly becoming HIM
hope you're proud of me dad cause I made it
I now love the creation that spent my life hating

When I didn’t believe in myself
you made me believe
What I thought was a joke
your support made it feel like a dream

If not for you, I would’ve given up long ago
It’s because of you, I still have faith to go
Turned a hobby into a passion, now look at me
touching & impacting lives just like me

I used to write to free me from myself
& you made me believe in myself
The cure for depression, I may never find
but I thank you to keep me inspired in writing

Thank you for the love & the support,
for you’re the reason I’m still here

With Love;
Not Poetic Venxm, just Dre

Man in the mirror, what can I say?
You knew it would come to this day
Feeling like a ***** up for the things you did
Out here wildin’ but somehow, still without a kid
Looking for love in all the wrong places
Trying to replace someone in all the wrong faces
You had the best thing you could ask for & blew it
How could you be so selfish & stupid
Too busy feeding your ego as well as your pride
Convincing these women you love em when it’s all lies
Funny how you despise your father but became just like him
Willing to lust over any woman that seemed to like him
You let a woman gas you up when she’s blushing from you flirting
The right one came & left but let’s be honest, you deserved it
That’s what you get when you listen to your head & not your heart
Trying to win bragging rights instead of playing the right card
But I get it tho, you ain’t used to that lust attention
Making women feel good like you’re what they’re missing
You truly went from being a King to a ******
from the perfect lover to just another man *****
You're supposed to be her Peace but her became like her past
Messing her head up just to *** her crazy then put her last
Amazing how you hurt the one woman who wasn’t full of games
then continue with your miserable life like you have no shame
The amazing Mr f up & your pride won’t let you take the blame
just giving her another reason to believe y’all are all the same
- Poetic Venom

The Beauty of Me goes deep but most men wouldn’t know where to begin
to them, I’m only a prize that they feel like they have to win
They look at the clothes I wear & the pride in my stride
or the presence so dominant & the confidence it has to provide

The Beauty of Me is more than just a cute face or curvy waist
more than just nice round hips or my physical attraction
more than just how my presence causes such a distraction
but to them, I’m mainly looked at as a one time experience of satisfaction

The Beauty of Me would be magical to the perfect King
he’ll take a look within the windows of my soul
he’ll see a Queen of Excellence whose not afraid to be alone
a Queen of a rare stature that’s strong enough to stand on her own

It’s more than the love I’m able to give or the heart I have to offer
it’s the vibe that can’t be found anywhere else
a woman who’s fearless & confident within herself
when the beauty enhancements fade, beauty will still exist
the Beauty of Me, can only come true to the perfect wish
-Poetic Venom

Sometimes I was the one responsible for your tears
Sometimes you were responsible for my tears
Sometimes I was the blame for the pain you suffered
Sometimes you were the blame for the love that was never discovered
I wish you were the one losing sleep over the love you lost
I wish you were the one losing focus to what was more than a thought
I’m the one who’s supposed to cry, I’m the one who’s supposed to be broken
You wanted Foreverness, I gave you eternality
Tried building us up but you pulled us down like gravity
You’re bringing up mistakes I made to tarnish what we established
Trying to perfect a game plan that was never practiced
We put each other in this space to which we don’t wanna be
I was hoping to marry your love but you didn’t see a future with me
From blowing each other up to missed calls & unread texts
Pushing you away due to a broken heart that I’m trying to protect
You didn’t trust someone like me, I was too good to be true
I’m watching you walk away while falling deeper in love with you
I wish you could believe me when I say crying isn’t easy to do
Especially when the tears I shed are because of you

These past few months have been the most devastating thing to watch
fighting for a legacy that nearly came to a life ending cost
Sometimes I blame myself for allowing this distraction to fool me once
until one conversation filled me in on the blueprints of the upcoming stunts
Buried in silence, I observed as my household was turning into the pits of hell
as a demon was on its rise of his plan with the motivation to see it excel
Went from living in happiness to now fearing the lives of my own as well as the Queen
& the Princess, what’s a man to do to protect the castle
Numbing the pain to try to cure my sleepless nights, I nearly fall into that addiction capsule
that snatches my soul from me while I fall deeper in anger
Contemplating on ****** to risk it all for my loved ones, heading closer to danger
I’ve done a great job of holding in the rage but it’s soon to erupt
as the Queen’s heart falls to the floor & the world around me glows up
into flames as my eyes go from pure blackness to blood shot red, all I see is destruction
throwing me off my focus, unable to concentrate or function
I left my castle only to soon return as I face the Devil for the battle of our well being
asking God to keep me sane when it’s pure evil that’s all I’m seeing

- Poetic Venom

I knew this kid named Jason who spent his afternoons locked in the basement
no father present & his mom an alcoholic, afraid of the light & hell feeling adjacent
been attached to many individuals but always ending up as a backup to a replacement
with death calling his name every day & he’s so eager to chase it
The only time his moms shows em attention is when she wants to beat him
because she’s still scarred from an abusive father so like trash is how she treats him
& numb her pain, she either fills her body with substance or brings hell to her seed
locked in this hell we call life, Jason just wants to be free
What his mom doesn’t know is that Jason gets bullied at school
for being gay & a nerd, the punishment he takes is just cruel
alone he sits in the corner with the music blasting in his ears
watching the world spend around him as he exist in fears
not knowing when someone will push him around or throw his books in the trash
or the next time he’s made of in front of the class
especially when the teachers see this horrific events play out but they don’t intervene
to help him & I’m there looking from across the room in disbelief of what I’m seeing
One day we walk in class before everyone else & I notice something different
that caught my eye without even paying attention
I see scars on his arms & a bruise located on his neck
so I approach him to question the damage he’s trying to hide
“I was jumped at home & my mom abused me last night” he replied
He begins to cry right before me & I break down as I hear the pain in the voice
so I walked him to the restroom as I’m left without a choice
I asked him “Why do you get bullied so much? What’s the reason you’re being targeted”
he tells me that it’s because he’s gay & the abuse is pain he mother feels from what his father did
he used to beat her whenever she came home late from work or if he felt like she was cheating.
And he **** near killed her on her 45th birthday after hearing she was leaving.”
So I asked how she managed to escape that experience & his response brought tears
He said “She shot him while he was trying to **** her, she finally got tired of the fears
but something inside of her hasn’t healed yet so she gets drunk every day
to numb the pain but every day I pray that she finds herself & escape
the prisoner within herself that still haunts her since that night
then I looked at him & told him, I’m about to change your life
He then looks at me & says “What do you mean?”
I said, “Just stick with me from now on & I promise you’ll be safe while you’re here”
I hate bullies & as long as you’re with me, you have nothing to fear
Why do you even care about me? What makes you any different
I said “We’re in a bathroom alone & you’re not screaming help within the distance”
“So you don’t see me as a “******” or just some nerd with cuts his skin?”
No, I see you as a gift from God with a bright future who’s trying to win
Someone trapped in the wrong world with no friends nearby
An angel flying solo but terrified while sorrowing thru a dark thundering sky
So a month goes by, my phone rings, & I hear Jason crying
I’m calling his name but he’s not replying
crying Jason crying Jason pill bottle drops JASON as I yell out
Whatever you do, just relax & put the pill bottle down
Dre …. I can’t do this anymore, I don’t wanna live anymore … I’m sorry
He gasps for air with 15 pills swimming in his body
I rushed to his house, kicked open the door, & sprint downstairs to the basement
JASON … JASON … JASON … dead silence as I make my way through the room
& there I find him, passed out & bleeding from his arm in a pool of blood in the bathroom
“911 … yes, I’d like to report an emergency. My friend isn’t breathing”
I give them the address then Jason opens his eyes … Dre don’t go, “I ain’t leaving”
5 mins later, the paramedics show up, Jason overdosed on sleeping pills
“Was he suicidal?” they asked, “Yea, he’s going through a lot & you know depression tries to ****
us with the mind tricks it plays on us trying to convince us that we’re better off dead
And there I am, crying & praying as I sit next to his hospital bed
Jason wakes up at 8:15 pm, “Dre, what happened to me?”
I blacked out & all I remember is seeing my dad molesting me
“You tried to **** yourself”, I said. “You called me crying & I rushed over to your house”
Raced down to the basement to see all over the walls, the floor, & your couch
“You know when I took those pills, I wasn’t expecting you to save me”
“Why would you think that?” I replied. “Because I thought you’d leave after seeing my darkside
& the thought of you doing the opposite, I thought I was crazy”
With your back against the wall & the whole world against you, I’ll be there to have your back
& I don’t call you my brother cause it sounds cool or because I want something back
You’re a good kid Jason, you’re just mixed up in a cold world trying to survive
but as long as I’m alive, I’ll make sure you never need a reason to be revived
As the Lord is my witness, you’ll always have a brother in me
& I have so much faith in you because you remind me of a younger me
At war with yourself trying to be better & inspire others to be great
so I’ll always love you for having a massive heart regardless of suffering from the hate
- Poetic Venom

When reading my poems, always keep in mind
That I have a gift with words to tell stories & motivate
Those who’ve lost hope as well as those who drown in self hate
All of my writings aren’t about me, some are confessions or stories
From those who can’t speak for themselves but want to share their story
The ability to connect with many just with words is beyond amazing
To save someone from their own personal demons that they’re facing
My mission isn’t to only tell stories but to educate & inspire strength
Just to prevent another young blessing from seeking an early death
For those who cry at night, afraid of life, or even those who feel underappreciated
I create art of perfection & their inspiration of life is my most beautiful dedication
Sometimes I take trips to different minds to get a glimpse from their perspective
Of the pain they’re dealing with & creating happiness is my only objective
I’m just a poet & motivator using a gift to bring together the lost ones
Giving up on themselves feeling as though life is over & they’ve ran outta options
So if you read a few writings & it’s based around depression or sadness
I’m only writing from what I see every day in the midst of all the madness
Doing my best to bring peace to such a cold hearted world of savages
And heartless pretenders who bring down the innocent with huge hearts but unable to manage
it. Traveling thru various journeys as I learn about a world that I’ve been apart of for so long
Being the glue that holds together my fellow torn hearts who lost inspiration to be strong

- Poetic Venom

Love isn’t just the thought that remains in mind
but the memories that still exist overtime
It’s the reason you stay up at night thinking of that one
who’s always there with open arms when there’s nowhere else to run
The touch of relief that caresses your heart with a simple rush
the thought of that special one that makes you endlessly blush
Drowning in the idea of building something with this new breath of energy
someone who’s gonna love you beyond your dreams & not become another enemy
For every second you’re in their presence, you fall 10x deeper
sweeping you off your feet, making you even weaker
For the love you’re experiencing that’s keeping your heart screaming loud
making that dream feel more like reality & keeping you in the clouds
It’s the arms wrapped around your body, the lips kissing you good night
the hand grasping your soul, the presence that’s making your glow shine bright
You can never see it coming or brace yourself fast enough to prepare
in fact it’s so real to where it may even cause an unexpected scare
The Love You Can’t Prepare For is something you can’t describe & something you’re afraid to accept
not knowing if it’s truly meant to be & a little nervous from not knowing what to expect
☆ Poetic Venxm ☆

The mind of a poet is an interesting place
where emotions & words run wild
Some words tell a story, some emotions sing a melody
the inspiration shares the glory & often used as the source of therapeutic remedy

If you travel thru a poetic mind long enough, you’ll begin to see
a new universe that the normal eye won’t see

You can easily get attached but it’s hard to walk away
from a world full of imagination & creativity

Words aren’t just words anymore, it’s a written emotion
from a heart experience various feelings but remains unspoken

The mind of a poet, that’s a world like no other
either a beautiful disaster or the soundtrack of many untold stories

☆ Poetic Venxm ☆

I may not be The One to make you a wife

I just happen to be unfortunate enough to be apart of your life

- Poetic Venom

The Power of Your Happiness
you underestimate its effect
for the power of its essence
could uplift of a heart depressed

The Power of Your Love
you nevermind its abilities
for it could turn a dark world to light
making the belief felt of its realities

The Power of Your Joy
you overlook its undying light
to outshine the darkness of fright
to which excites the flame of hearts that it ignites

☆ P e n c a s s o ☆

You’re constantly used to disguise the truth
behind the inspiration of something that’s often the result of abuse
& although some see you to think you’re true
your true colors are only noticed by a few
who’ve done the same so your fraud becomes see thru
with the realness behind it all dancing on ones face
that’ll eventually worship the current grounds being walked upon

Sadly enough, the more you’re falsely portrayed
the more the need for your departure is delayed
but saying goodbye for now causes them to be afraid
thanks to the broken record of hurt that continuously plays
so you’re used as a form of emotional expression
that’s revealed in ones reflection showing a true sign of depression

☆ P e n c a s s o ☆

In adversity & hardships
the test of strength becomes greater
When happiness is the destination
terror becomes the focus in the process
Vision remains clear thru dark clouds
the path remains intact despite the carnage
Still I fly thru turbulence
& come out stronger than before

When the sunsets;
I lock you up in my arms & start to pray
for one day
when we say hello to tomorrow & goodbye to yesterday

Sunsets with you;
give me this feeling that I’ve never felt before
a feeling that I can’t ignore
a feeling that I cherish forevermore

When the sunsets;
I shed tears when I realize
what God’s blessed me with
as your presence brings me more alive

The Sunset of You;
brings my dreams to life
& for those short minutes of the day
you make me feel like I can actually fly

- Poetic Venom

It can hurt you, it can break you
Abandon & Forsake you
Feeling like a dream before you get departed
leaving you frustrated & cold hearted

Love is just a word that comes & goes
but who really knows
what it means to love truly
thru the madness & the beauty

It’ll make you laugh, it’ll make you cry
leave you always asking why
Why must I have to always kiss love goodbye
it only brings pain so why even try

It can make you or break you
make you feel whole or like you’re not good enough
That’s the Thing About Love
- Poetic Venxm

I want more than just a pretty face
I want more than just a curvy waist
I want more than just some pretty eyes
I want a heart that can’t be replaced
I don’t want what every other man has been inside
I don’t want something just to be pushed to the side
I need that type of woman who carries pride in her stride
The type of woman that i can eventually turn into a bride
I don’t need that love that begins good but turns toxic
Don’t need that love that’s mainly involved around arguments
Want that type of love where she’s rooting for my accomplishments
The love where i build an empire with the same love i started wit
Want a woman with intelligence
Want a woman with class & integrity in her inheritance
I want more than just a freak in the sheets
Give me something to admire besides your lips or your cheeks
Be the woman that i can cuddle next to & be at peace
Rub my back or play with my hair, be my source for a stress relief
Be the woman that i can spoil with time, affection, & loyalty
Be the one thing that keeps me leveled when I’m rushing with anxiety
Be the guidance i need to stay on the right path & not break the sobriety
Be the sunshine of my life & grace me with that smile that i anticipate to see
Impress me with your mentality & the rareness in your individuality

Poetic Venom

I’m a woman of many flaws & imperfections
often silent but never short of verbal or physical expressions
Some may tell me that I ignore my self worth
but they don’t understand how hard it is when you’ve been so hurt
To give your heart to so many, only to feel like a piece of meat
wanting to be loved, to feel secured, yet all I’ve felt was defeat
I smile to hide the pain that I’m battling inside
always left beside the road for those that I offer a ride
The Woman I am, many wouldn’t understand the storm overhead
that causes me to lose sleep when I’m tossing & turning in bed
I lose faith within myself, blaming the pain on myself
feeling unworthy & not good enough to love anyone including myself
Many say my heart is a treasure, many say my heart is gold
but I take it with a grain of salt cause that’s been the greatest lie I’ve been told
I’m a Woman of great pain, a woman who’s cry dances with the rain
a woman whose been left heart broken & played but somehow still sane
I’m a Woman of a thousand tears & each tear has its own story to tell
with a heart that’s brutally shattered from all the destruction of mans hell
-Poetic Venom

I had this dream where I met this woman whose smile told me a tale
of someone who’s out of my league & if I tried to pursue her soul then I was most likely to fail
It’s something about her that made me want to explore her inner essence
to understand the uprising of a Queen from the beginning of her adolescent

Now in my dream, she loves my poetry, in fact I’ve inspired her to smile sometimes
but still I’m desiring one dance to possibly commit the perfect crime.
What’s that crime, you ask? Well, she has a heart like no other that I’d like to discover
& even if I fail, I can move on with my day knowing that I did my best to love her

This Woman; she possesses this presence so strong. a demeanor of independence
a heart of pure gold, & a soul of many treasures whose quality of love is endless.
Who am I? I’m just a guy who never requires a reply from the confessions of my heart
that doesn’t mind expressing itself yet still confused on where to start.
I’m that smile on your face, trying to become the rhythm & blues within your soul
to share the sweet symphony of romance & I pray your collaborations won’t behold

There’s a woman hidden within;
a woman who exist full of happiness & joy
she learned to loved even after being destroyed
she’s been hurt a few times but it never stopped her
although the ones she loved only seemed to mock her

There’s a woman hidden within;
a woman living within your heart who’s locked inside
a woman behind the smile that you always hide
a woman who’s waiting to show her presence
a woman that’s awaiting your acceptance

The woman you’re afraid to be;
she’s happy without any fear
she’s proud of the woman she’s become
through all the pain, she’s grown stronger
no longer living within the essence of her horror
she smiles brighter than ever before
& for the 1st time, she loves herself forevermore

Poetic Venom

You question me as to why I care so much
for someone who’s broken & afraid
someone who’s lost too many wars
someone that I can’t save
or a heart that others tend to ignore

You search for the person I see but
you always point out something to inspire a dislike
something that’ll turn me away from you
telling it’s impossible to impact your life
fearing that sooner or later, I’m gonna turn my back on you

The You That You Fail to Love
within her eyes, I see someone who’s more than amazing
someone who’s heart is everything you could ever ask for
someone who’s never really been loved properly
& someone that only a fool would be crazy not to adore

- Poetic Venom

This Heart of Mine;
has been thru the worst
from being shattered to crushed
as if each occurrence were rehearsed
which is why I have no trust
for those who claim to have interest in me
but are usually stragglers with no destination
never surprising how we go from friends to enemies
& I end up moving on with hesitation

But This Heart of Mine;
is made of Gold & twice the size of me
yet suffering from the damages of love
still a trapped object looking to be free
to be healed & unconditionally love
it grew to be stone cold but warm for the deserving
never loving with the attachments of a past love
while healing from it even when it’s still burning

- Poetic Venom

This is the poem where I appear ecstatic
only to distract you from the truth
trying to keep my head clear but still there's static
trying to bring back my youth

This is the poem where I tell you I'm fine
but I'm lying, I'm down on my knees
begging please to the highest power above
that I'm relived from this hell & grant me love

This is the poem where I tell you I've won
the battle with my demons but I still hold the plug
in hand, just waiting for the moment to say F**k it,
take the head jack & unplug it

This is the poem where I tell you I'll be okay
when in fact, I won't be & I give my ending a delay
cause although I want it to end, the guilt kills me
of making my family bury me but I hope they forgive me

I accept that I’ll never understand the pain, sacrifice, & patience
the sadness, the drive, or the strength to keep going
whether it’s the gift of life or the damage of a toxic love
without the fathers’ help but she manages to be all she can be
I feel it’s my duty to appreciate the magic in her presence
the endless crying tears, the endless sleepless nights
the feeling of being let down yet she still hangs on to her crown
I pray to the powers above that her heart is one day admired
her wounded existence & her will to never give up
is such a beautiful thing to witness
the pain or the beautiful madness of this Woman’s Work

They say time heals all wounds
I find it hard to be true
when the main thing on my mind is you
& I can’t fall in love when I’m still attached to you
but what if time isn’t the issue
on why I still miss you
what if it’s the memories that still exist
that make me miss the good times like this
how our lips kissed & our last dance
that alone is the story of a bad romance

- Poetic Venom

they fear what they don’t understand
& i only aim to be a better man
than i was yesterday
so every night on bending knees i pray
for closure of the past
so the future will last
& as i look back on who i was prior
my only desire is to inspire
those who may look up to me
as the inspiration to which i don’t see
but when that day comes
when all my tears no longer run
the pieces of my heart finally come together
to make me whole again, then I’ll be better
better for myself, my family, to finally love thee
I’ll soon be home, i will be free one day indeed
- Pencasso

Tomorrow Might Be Too Late for you to say that I mean the world to you
Spent almost all of my days being completely see though
Tomorrow Might Be Too Late to tell me how much you love me
But it feels like all you ever do is ignore me
Tomorrow Might Be Too Late to tell me that you care about me
Constantly making me feel like you’re better off without me
Tomorrow Might Be Too Late to start confessing your true feelings
Don’t waste time trying to give my spirit its proper healing
Tomorrow Might Be Too Late & I’ll be gone outta your life for good
Feelings were well painted but I remain highly misunderstood

I see you cry all the time & it’s always over a man
Over him only thinking of himself & how he doesn’t understand
A man will be a man & he’ll do whatever he chooses to
If you allow him to mistreat & underappreciates you
You’re Too Beautiful to Cry over a man won’t wipe away the tears
Too Precious to chase after a fool that’ll only reestablish your fears
What I’m saying may go over your head & that’s perfectly fine
Just trying to bring out the smile that you want instead of seeing you cry
You’re Too Beautiful to Cry, you gotta realize that you’re a Blessing
To the right King whose love will truly be worth sharing
Sometimes we face more heart breaks before we meet our Dream Come True
And that moment will make us realize that it was worth what we’ve been through
You’re Too Beautiful to Cry, everyone we meet isn’t always meant to be
Can’t force a fool to see our worth when it’s already obvious to see
I can tell you that you’re a Queen but inside, I know you must feel like a fool
Giving it all you got just to see the love you want conclude
You’re Too Beautiful to Cry, dry your eyes & never let a boy **** your spirit
Trying to fall in love with a fool who mainly wanted to get explicit
You’re Too Beautiful to Cry & one day, every heartbreak will reform its pieces
And that day you’ll experience true happiness & your True Love will burn those traumatizing bridges

This book has suffered the worst wounds;
been through more storms than man can count
cried enough tears to drown you
yet this book has yet to be found

This book has many damaged pages;
each page details a storm that occurred
which changed its condition
& most would judge without reading the words

This book walks amongst many but remains ignored;
carrying the scars of her pasts’ torture
as she awaits the perfect reader
that’ll still admire her worth through her life’s horror

If you’re shattered & torn
bring me the pieces that remain
If your cries have drowned you
bring me the tears inspired by pain
For the troubles & sleepless nights
let me create the peace
so you’ll can finally rest
no more fighting with the sheets
If all these & more I should save
I’ll be sure to make you whole again

- Poetic Venom

it's the days with just us 2

nobody to invade our vibe

me being goofy & you laughing by my side

either cuddling on the couch or in the bed

the whole world blanked out

just you & me, nothing else matters

I have a message for you but it’s really nothing new
just trying to paint a picture from my view
of a picture perfect canvas & what i see is true
Not intended for who you call pretty but for girls like you
who question why any man would pursue
their world when there’s others better than you
but fail to see that they don’t have the same qualities of you
To make a long story short, the term ugly is all you
but the true meaning is Under Greatness Lies You

- Poetic Venom

I try so hard to be the man that I was raised to be
But it’s the efforts that go unnoticed & it amazes me
I used to question myself like I was the one who wasn’t doing right
Trying to please the one I love but all she wants to do is fight
If I’m loyal to you, why feel jealous of those around me?
Why feel some type of way of the females that surrounds me?
It’s clear what my intentions yet you ignore the obvious
But if I walk away then you’ll feel just like the previous
You can’t be so used to a fraud that you can’t appreciate the real
Then get mad at me once I begin to tell you how I feel
My back against the wall, I’m frustrated, & can’t even think straight
Stressed out & you’re just adding more unwanted stress on my plate
Giving you everything any female would want but how much more can I give?
And being that I don’t wanna leave, I move on & forgive
I can’t win for losing, can’t move forward without being bumped back
Either the ending is near or we’ll get better, I refuse to go back
What would you do if I decide to walk away & find better?
How would you react if you saw another female treating me better?
I can’t be your Dream Come True if you’re too treating me like your past lovers
Feeling like I’m about to lose it & the only person I can talk to is my brother
I’m trying to move up but you bring me back down like gravity
This so called thing we have is slowly becoming another tragedy
If you wanna love me then let it beautiful, not another regret
You should be making me smile every chance you get, not making me upset
Where are we headed? What lies at the end of this destination?
Is it gonna be sunshine & dandelions or will it lead to our separation?

Ladies, help me understand why y’all give us so much power over you
Getting mad at us for doing all the wrong things but ignore what we’re allowed to do
I understand that Love is Powerful Drug & it’s not easy leaving someone you’re attached to
but that doesn’t mean that you should justify the disrespect that we show you
You ride so hard for a man who’s giving his attention to everything but you
We tell you that we love you but we treat you as if we can’t stand you
Love has become slavery & seeing what y’all tolerate, makes me question many things
Like why do y’all put up with so much pain that makes your heartbreak sing
Is loving someone worth withstanding all the hell you go through
versus being with someone who’s desired to give the world to you
What’s the reward for being miserably in love & growing into self hate?
If he’s not being your Peace then he’s bringing more stress to your plate
He’s demanding more ****** attention but never an intimate conversation
Never on the same level mentally & headed to a roller coaster destination
You let us walk all over you because you love us, ain’t that much love in the world
For you to allow us to make you a side chick when you’re supposed to be the main girl
Why do you give us your world when we’re barely giving you land to settle on
but so quick to give you a saddle for you ride on?
Your mind is racing with thoughts of us daily but you’re barely on our mind
for the exception for a piece of meat, we’re doing nothing but wasting your time
A lot of you won’t like me saying it but it’s true & deep down, I know it hurts
to give your everything to us only to feel like you’re either unworthy or your love is cursed
You feel obligated to put up with us because you’re afraid to be lonely
but why continue to love us when we ignore you for hoes & the homies
We make you fall in love with us, make you develop a soft spot for us
just to use you against yourself & inspire you to hate yourself because of us
We take your love for granted, so quick to replace you & make you cry
yet you still help us fly which makes me wonder why
being confused, lead on, & torn by the lies
riding hard for the same ones who will eventually inspire your love to die

It’s unfair for me to need your love but I want something else
& I believe it’s mainly because I’m still trying to love myself
Stuck with the childish mind but I’m running outta time
trying to heal a broken heart before it’s no longer mine
but how can I keep her from crying
when she’s gonna leave in a matter of time
It’s unfair for me to love you when I’m only loyal to me
& I’m trying to love the man you love but that man I don’t see
I don’t want us to fight no more, don’t want us to cry no more
but I don’t want this although it’s the main thing I was dying for
I need this love forever, I can’t do this if we don’t make a change
I want us complete but you gotta want the same thing
☆ Poetic Venom ☆

U N I T Y

When I turn on my TV, I only see one thing
Marches & rants from people as they let their voices sang
A world growing separately & divided by what’s right & wrong
A nation no longer united & a home where some feel others don’t belong
They want to make America Great Again but how can they achieve it?
Some think this country is theirs & they actually believe it
Feel like the world’s coming to an end & we’re at war with ourselves
A president full of himself, having a fit with the plans he’s trying to excel
Are we the United States of America or the Divided States, I’m confused
I’m seeing whites going on rants & cops pursuing the laws that they abuse
How is it Justice for All if cops aren’t punished for their wrong doing?
Worried about “*******” but not terrorism shootings
If we’re United as One, why do some of us hold on the past?
Trying to create a better future but too busy reliving the past
World’s falling apart within society due to racial tension
Debates about the protests’ but most fail to realize the meaning
Refer to the Black Lives Matter movement as “terrorist” or “thugs”
When all they see is groups of people of different races seeking justice
If practicing our rights as Americans is wrong, show us what’s right
I guess it’s only acceptable if your skin is indeed white
Taking offense to Colin Kaepernick all for taking a knee
Just because he’s voicing his right in the Land of the Free
All I wanna see is Unity for All, regardless of the race
A country with love for each other, not a country divided by hate
Unity for All, skin color shouldn’t matter
I wanna see a Nation growing stronger instead a Nation dying faster

If I was stripped of everything I had except for you
that’ll be all I need, the only thing keeping me sane is you
With so much darkness in my world, baby you are that light
no need to fear when it comes to loving you for there is no price
Feel pain no more, fear me not
cause I can do without many things but you, I cannot
Hold on tight & don’t let go
for this love has the potential to grow
I’m a man of many mistakes but meeting you was a test
to see if I’d ruin a good thing before I could see if it’s blessed
I found all I needed the day your world collided into mine
& that’s the only thing I’ll ever need Until the End of Time
- Poetic Venom

Don’t let me fall from grace or the high clouds that I’ve worked so hard to get to & don’t let me parish before I know how much I mean to you for this life of ours isn’t guaranteed to see the sunny rays of tomorrow or forget the cloudy days of yesterday

Don’t let me cry if life gets hard & I see no further reason to live anymore cause I’m tired of the pain inside that I can’t seem to let go of or the happiness that I’m too in fear to reach because of the potential end that may come on the backend as a result to happiness not being forever

Don’t let me go to sleep existing in a nightmare that’s never ending when I’m looking for my dream that may seem to be lost within my fantasy world & when I look around, it’s only me alone looking up to the clouds waiting to wake up again

The next chapter won’t begin until I find the source of joy that I’ve been waiting to see but my own insecurities have blinded me from right in front of me & that’s the love of someone who truly wants to love me although she’s seen that diamond with the cracks but still appreciates the value

My wrongs have a list a mile long from where I’ve tried to correct my wrongs

in the many places of several hearts where a love like mine doesn’t belong

Broken many hearts that completely unintentional but what can you do

when we’re all playing games & their objective is to play you

Burned bridges along the way but they were already collapsing

& equipped with all the attachments that’s not everlasting

Focus on the past & you'll miss out on what you're missing
it's back there for a reason so let them stay there reminiscing
some people throw away gems when they don't see it's worth
easier said than done but move on, I know it hurts
but it's something better waiting for you in the days to come
you'll miss it if you're still looking back at what you're departing from
hurt people hurt people & most people don't heal from the hurt
they move from heart to heart only making wounds worse
PTSD from relationships & memories of the past play in a loop
causing you to punish the innocent for things your ex did to you
You can say you moved on but your mind has yet to depart
clouding your days so even your brightest days feel dark

“Us”was over when it became three
“Us” was over when you chose another love over me
“Us” was supposed to be my Dream turned Reality
“Us” was meant to be the better half of me
“Us” is no more, nothing more of a memory
“Us” is what I believed in, silly me
Poetic Venom

When you read this, I hope you feel my heart
& the things running thru my mind that’s tearing me apart
I’m beyond in love with you but not being able to have you
leads to me falling for lust in hopes of replacing you
Selfish of me to do such a thing to someone who loves me dearly
tried to paint the picture but I still can’t see obviously
I want us to make love like we used to
talk all night like we used to
& even with a million girls around me
with any love available, I’d still choose you
I’m not the perfect man but my intentions mean the best
I have a bad way of showing my love for you, I cause much stress
I’m always texting you when it’s late, that’s when I’m missing you most
cause you’re not laying in my arms where you’re needed most
More than a best friend but less than a lover
still carrying this broken heart that has yet to recover
I want us to love like we used to
I want us to be one like we used to
I want us to be that dream like we used to
Can we let go of the past so you can finally let me love you?

Poetic Venom

I get tired of the silent screams & mute cries
pacing in my room wishing I had an escape
but I must pretend like I'm okay
Search thru the dark silence surrounded by the voices thru the hall
& in the corner, you'll find me deep within the madness
Emotional, I may be but deep down I urge to see the light
but only with the right help or I won't bother to move
These tears are more than just tears, it's a testimony from the struggle
that I've been attached to tryna find my way to peace
you'll see the demons that bring the horror to make you believe I'm good
only for the kid in me to cry out before the terror contains me forever