consider me the luckiest man alive

waking up to you & that face

bringing joy to my world

still finding it hard to believe

you're here living life along with me

& I were to lose you

I'd lose the greatest part of me

I share my scars
I share my fears
my most deep dark confessions
of the person drowning in tears

He’s a slave
to the pain that he suffers from before
with the damage endured
& the aftermath that’ll last forevermore

It’s more than a struggle
it’s more than a war
it’s like putting the shattered pieces
to an already broken puzzle

I’ve been at war with him for the longest
proving that I’m the strongest
but he’s got this hold on me
that continues to drag me thru his darkest
thoughts & I can’t find my escape
so I deal with the defeat as I find more things about me to hate

- Poetic Venom

We drifted far apart from each other but the feelings still reside
I can say that you don’t have an effect still but why lie?
It’s not the experiences that live, just the memories that remain
& every love song that comes on has you dancing on my brain
I still display this smile because of you
I still believe in love because of you
I still feel like a King because of you
I still feel like i can fly, because of you
Waves never die, they just crash for the moment
And you’ve made me feel almighty when I fell to my lowest
Even in a dark world, the sun still shines
Even when the world stops, your heart I’ll still find
And when those waves crash to shore, you’ll then see
how much you’ll always mean to me
☆ Poetic Venxm ☆

I’m sorry I can’t be your man baby although you think of me daily
Sending messages to my phone saying how much you love me crazy
We used to speak every day but now I call you sporadically
Just to see how you’ve been doing or to create love cinematically
I tell you not to fall for me when a part of me only wants to lay with you
Kiss you from head to toe right before I get up & proceed to leaving you
I’m expecting you to tell me that you’re done with the mind games
Done with the ***** calling & acting like I have no shame
You always tell me to live my life but to keep my privates on a leash
Cause to you, it’s all yours & you’d rather not share the heat
You tell me that deep down, I only wanna hit it when I’m lonely but I agree
Cause I’m not ready to settle for love which is why I can’t let you love me
*** became easier to find but only when the bond is strong
And sexing you is what I’ll never leave cause it’s where my temporary attachment belongs
I keep telling myself that it’s not all about the *** between us but what else is there?
For us to conquer when it’s clear that the love we want isn’t meant to be shared?
I know I’m wrong for loving you this way but my ego won’t let me let go
Knowing that once I find what I need, I’ll be forced to let you go
The truth within it all is that I can’t be your man & I can’t be seen with you
I’m only supposed to come through whenever we miss each other to make love to you
No strings attached but someway somehow, you’ve grown to fall in love with me
Ignoring the fact that you’ll never be the one to be with me
My only objective was to please you like I’m supposed to then pull off
But here we mixed in confusion of mixed signals but still I can’t even cut you off

Whatever happened to us?
We went from love to lust to lost of trust
now my heart's crushed

Whatever happened to our love?
Hurting each other by holding on to pride
& me loving you with a grudge

We changed & I miss the old us
But no one told us that this storm would end us
now I'm lost within the shadows seeking your touch

I miss your kiss, I miss your soul
I lost it all before I could enjoy it
the stubbornness of two lovers destroyed us

You told me I could confide in you
but what’s the use when I can’t get comfort from you
Every time I bring tears your way, you turn your back on me
yet whenever you vent, you can always depend on me
The fact that I’m shut off from the world & you’re the one I chose
to reveal the pain inside that world doesn’t yet know
I’m different from you but maybe that’s the issue
cause you see the hell in me & mad cause I can’t be like you
If you’re your brothers keeper, why make me feel like a burden
why make me feel like the hell I’ve felt, I deserved it
With all the depression that I suffer, what would you do
if you woke up one day & I’m no longer there with you
like I finally decided to call it quits & take matters in my own hands
You see my soul flying away with my blood buried in the sands
So I ask you this, if I’m really your “brother” then why make me feel alone
especially if you told me that your arms is like another home
What are Brothers For? Funny I keep asking myself the same question
when the brotherhood that I honor causes more misery than a blessing
It hurts like hell cause you’re the one I trust more than most
& it’s a shame that when I need to seek comfort, my pain is better off as a death note
- Poetic Venom

I’ve been doing laps in my head trying to figure out this mystery
Trying to figure out the meaning behind the misery
I’m lost as to what women want or what they desire
What makes them happy & what their hearts require
Most would say that they want a real man but is that the case?
Some get the heart of a real man & still get it misplaced
Help me understand the logic. Women wanting something real is kinda ironic
Ignoring a real man but fall in the arms of the male ******
You hear it all the time, “All Guys are the Same”
Blaming us all for their mistakes falling for different players of the same game
What Do Women Want? Is it happiness or heartbreak?
Will they truly appreciate a King or forever preach how love is fake
They say we all hunt for *** & I ask myself how is that true
When there’s tons of Kings that are willing to marry you
Some dig thru the same trash hoping for a different conclusion
Fighting for something that won’t bring a real solution
What Do Women Want? To be loved or just used for the time being
Fall for the same fool or exist within a fantasy world dreaming
What Do Women Want? To be treated like a Queen or look like a fool
Try telling them about their poor taste in men & they choose to dispute
What Do Women Want? An unsolved mystery that’ll never see a solution
Just many women making poor decisions & stating the same claim that can never be proven

For the words I can’t say
to make your day
For the way I feel
the feelings I can’t reveal
To see you smile, to see you laugh
to request your hugs but unable to grasp
The sound of your voice that makes me warm
when I’m on your stage, you make my heart perform
My heart sings & you’re the perfect melody
if loving you is such a crime, I’m your smoothest criminal

- Poetic Venom

What it means to be King coming from a broken home
raised by a single back Queen with no Kingly role model on the throne
showing me how to be a man or what’s right or wrong
Mama keeping my head in the books although the street life looked more appealing
from the nice cars & flashy jewelry, but the limelight is deceiving

What it means to be King to turn 26 without selling dope or dying in the streets
no babies running around & blessed to never have a rap sheet
Never touched a brick or even a gram of ****
I ain’t even gotta shine for you to see the star in me
Trying to live life faithfully without having to watch my back
knowing that America isn’t safe for me or those that plot to stab me in the back

What it means to be King, to be a young black man brought up from nothing
growing up into greatness but still feeling like he’s missing something
It’s not the crown nor the throne or the scars developed from home
but the will to be something special that’s worth more than money can buy
No flaws or imperfections, that pure Black Boy Fly
This is what it feels like to be King, still I rise above all that aim to disrupt the quest
Black Excellence in the Flesh, yes indeed I’m beyond Blessed

What you know about growing up being a disgrace to your family
What you know about hiding in your bedroom cause you’re scared of the reality
knowing your dad never gave a **** about you & left you behind
but as a youngin’ in this cold world, you’re naive to the signs
So you watch thru the window or checking thru the mail for a letter or birthday card
from the one person who never said goodbye or even gave you his best regards
What you know about feeling like the laughing stock of the high school
trying to act tough like your friends but you do nothing but make yourself look like a fool
being called names everyday so at night, you think about bringing that tool
to school & unleash madness on all of those fools
who made your days hell all because they thought it was cool
to pick on the kid wearing bummy clothes & those same run down shoes
& wanting to stand up for himself but in a fight, he’ll lose
when he stands toe to toe with the bullies only to be knocked out & talked about in the news
What you know about having a razor in the right hand & a gun in the left
looking for that shoulder to lean on but you ain’t got nobody else
who gives a **** about you enough to watch your back
& although God granted you life, you beg him to take it back
so you’re on your knees every night hoping to die in your sleep
just to wake up the next morning mad because you’re able to rise to your feet
confused as to why you’re still here & not deceased
just because the good Lord didn’t end your journey even if you did say please
What you know about depression?
What you know about built aggression?
What you know about looking at your mother to realize you’re her blessing
cause you’ve never been arrested or been out late & had her stressing
not knowing if she’ll get that call to hear you’re locked up or dead
from being in the streets, mixed up with the wrong crowd, & shot in the head
by another brother filled with rage but you weren’t involved
in yet another cold case that’ll probably never be solved
What you know about looking at every other guy & wishing you was him
just because he gets attention from the ladies & they’re attracted to him
then you ask yourself, how can I be like him
dress like him or even get the ladies to like me just like him
how wear my clothes a certain way just make them smile like him
& it makes you even more jealous when you know that you’ll never be like him
What you know about writing your life in these poems
just to see if someone can feel it like they feel those heartfelt songs
to the point where they shed a tear over your words & your voice
then you think about quitting all because you don’t have that voice
to bring your writings to life so they’ll have a deeper meaning
but you know your work to serve so you keep me believing
that one day you’ll be the one to bring change
to the next soul that you’re meant to save
- Poetic Venxm

Every I try walking away from what we have, your voice pulls me in closer
& I can never tell you how I feel without staying sober
Keep telling myself that I’m no good for you but I’m hopeless when my feelings take over
causing me to always lose my composure

I can’t have you, you can’t have me yet I’ve fallen in love with you
just by the ways you’re always there for me & make me feel like I’m right next to you
I know you hate it when I let someone else in my life to love me when you’re here
but you’re not here so I attempt self harm to avoid those tears

You’re like my Guardian Angel that came outta nowhere to love me dearly
but I don’t deserve your love & I mean this sincerely
Your voice sends chills thru me, your love makes me feel like I’m lost within the mind
that makes me never want to wake up to live within the times
I don’t want you to save me cause I’ll eventually break you down with your every attempt
which mainly proves that it’s my heart that you’re trying to protect
So when my butterflies cry, it’s just the feeling in my stomach that make me love you
more than I did the last time we spoke & my last dying wish is see you one last time to hold you

Poetic Venom

When I’m Alone;
I shed tears because of the pain within
feeling lost without hope or a friend
thru all the adversity, trails, & tribulations
I fight as much as possible although I’m out of patience
but I refuse to break down or shed tears
cause I don’t want the sympathy or pity of my peers

When I’m Alone;
I feel the inside of me dying every day
so when the sun says good night, I drop down & pray
hoping that when tomorrow comes, I’ll be stronger
than I was the day before & I can fight a little longer
with a frozen heart, numb feelings, & deceased interest
I tend to keep many from knowing the real me so I become distant

I’m Alone;
even with a few people standing behind me
I fight this war by myself, not letting the defeats define me
Alone but not Lonely, with many who relate but don’t know me
whether it’s a friend, a female companion, or one of my homies
I shed tears in the dark but I smile when the light hits me
to hide what I’m feeling within knowing that internally, the pain & hurt is defeating me

- Poetic Venom

I hear the music playing
matching the rain on the window
with thunder adding suspense
depression in the making

The feeling in my soul
when I'm in the dark
feeling for an escape
but I'm empty & lose control

Silence becomes a melody
as I listen to the sorrows
of me suffering
a familiar symphony

When Jae Cries, my heart breaks
I feel the affects when her heart shakes
Face red when she falls to her knees
Open my arms to hold her as she begs me please

When Jae Cries, it’s a sight I can’t bare to watch
And it’s frightening to see how it was caused
I look as she smiles when I wipe away the tears
Feeling secured in my arms & free from all fears

When Jae Cries, I feel her world crashing down
And I try to be her hero, it’s her I can’t live without
She gives me this feeling of being superhuman & complete
From the way she loves me to the way she sweeps me off my feet

But the beauty of Jae’s Cry
Is not the resemblance of a southern morning sky
How it speaks without even saying a word or making a sound
But the art created by nature & the inspiration that it surrounds

When our kisses make love under the moonlight
I get this sudden rush of a feeling that i can’t explain
the stars begin to light up as the vibes sing this melody
& for that short moment of time, i feel free from any danger

But it goes deeper than a kiss when i close my eyes
& i dream of a feeling that’s finally come true
of being lost in your presence plus I feel immortal whenever I’m with you
With my heart having no further reason to cry
it’s because of this feeling i get when I’m next to you

Poetic Venom

It amazes me when those who’re guilty are quick to play victim
& it’s hard to walk away when they’re so lost in your system
We were supposed to be an item but all we do is argue
I’m trying to have patience with someone who’s broken but it’s a virtue
All the assumptions being thrown at me makes me question your stability
like you’re trying to make me out to be this monster so you can get rid of me
I get it you’ve been tarnished but why punish me for even trying
here I am working for your happiness but you insist on crying
I guess it’s always my fault, put the blame on me as always
although I’m the one pointing out the facts of your selfish ways
When I’m too busy to text you back, you assume I’m ignoring you
then you cry as if I’m the reason for the issues that I’m showing you
This could’ve been perfect, it would’ve been well worth it
but you took something amazing & treated it like a circus
I tried to help us fly but you wanted to crawl
I was there waiting for you but you refused my trust in catching your fall
You’re the one to blame for our separation, yet you can never accept your faults
I was willing to take that love but my heart deserve that cost
☆ Poetic Venom ☆

When the night stays awake, I’m usually lost within my mind
trying to place things together & living in the past of time
Thinking about my mistakes wishing I could go back
to redo my actions all over again cause I know karma comes back
full force & that effect weighs heavy on my mental
but reading minds or emotions isn’t exactly fundamental
I toss & turn in my bed getting up every 5 minutes to clear my head
with my music blasting thru the air & my phone full of messages unread
because I get into my feelings then write my emotions in my diary
then send em off to those who either motivated or inspired me
I’m more haunted by my thoughts & I’m running away from regrets
pacing back & forth giving thanks to God whenever I feel blessed
When the night stays awake, the morning tends to snooze longer
but I’m so eager for the next chapter so I become a stalker
Sleep can’t find me, my thoughts keep me hidden within my matrix
causing my anxiety to rush when my mind tends to play tricks
- Poetic Venom

Today has a frown upon its face
due to the world being destroyed by evil & hate
Beliefs from the past have came to present
causing the hell within the adolescent

Today sheds a tear
from a world driven by terror & inspiring fear
No real guidance for the youth except ***, pain, & drugs
& I fear all the destruction the world is bound to become

But if Tomorrow begins to smile
I’ll see a brighter day with all evil dying out
A change for the better & faith for a better tomorrow
no tears to wipe, no scars to heal, & we’ll leave the pain from today’s sorrow

P e n c a s ******>

You’ve been dealing with my antics for far too long
& sometimes it’s my ego that won’t allow us to get along
I come to you to confess my feelings only for you to reject me
then I go running off looking for a replacement selfishlessly
You’ve been so great to me only for me to ignore it
but anytime I’m in your presence or making love, I can’t help but enjoy it
It’s the way you hold me when I miss being around you
& the love that comes outta me when my heart surrounds you
I’ve fallen too hard in love with you, I just don’t get why you aren’t too
especially since the love we share is beyond magical
My foolish pride makes you cry & sometimes I
cry at night when I look for that one star that’s missing from the sky
then I picture your face with that tear falling from your eye
that makes me question why I became such an unworthy guy
trying to replace a Queen with the temptation that’s hard to deny
& it breaks my heart to know that I’m reason that inspires you to cry
Why haven’t you left me? I’ve proven that I’m no different than those other guys
who only come to you for comfort & kiss you gently as I stare into your eyes
right before I walk away for who knows how long then I say good night
I’m not the King I thought I was but your love made me realize how foolish I am
to overlook the love from an angel who cares deeply for the man that I am
☆ Poetic Venom ☆

As a man, I’ve never quite understood our logic
How we beg for a woman’s heart then dodge it
We go on these rants about how women play games
When we’re the ones causing the most damage & it’s a shame

Tell me. What’s the point of having a woman ride so hard for you
just to break her heart into pieces when she does so much to ride for you
You get mad them when they’ve realized the same old things being said
from the last man who broke her heart by playing games with her head

Women aren’t perfect but the love of a woman, could never be matched
The feeling that she gives you once she’s gotten attached
The little things that she’s does to prove you’re she needs
Just for you to take it, spit it in her face, then leave
So tell me why it’s easier to break her heart than to love her
If her heart’s always been true to you, what’s the benefit of hurting her

P e n c a s ******>

I was asked once on why I love to write so much
& I answered saying that you don’t how impactful words can touch
the souls of those that you’ve never met a day in your life
especially those who feel like a lost cause & feel the need to give up on life
I write for the pain, I write for the hurt, I write for the deep thoughts
that speak to the rain whenever the heart feels like it’s being haunt
I write for those who don’t have anyone else to turn to
crying out for help but yet they remain see through
I write for the women of life who give so much but get so little
Love & War with their hearts being dead smack in the middle
I write for the teens battling depression that seek self harm
you know the ones referred to as “troubled” or “sick” with cuts on their arm
I write for myself for the thoughts in mind that can’t be said out loud
I’m a gifted poet with a rare touch & I’m **** proud
Poetry is Life, Poetry is Passion, Poetry is Freedom, Poetry is Therapy
I could’ve called it quits a long time ago but poetry is the one thing that’s saved me
-Poetic Venom

I write for that kid in school
abused at home & bullied in school
with thoughts of suicide or running away
with no friend in their corner feeling alone every day

I write for that man with a golden heart
dealing with ungrateful women tearing him apart
so used to losing that a win goes unappreciated
& a real man continues to this day to be hated
all because dogs have become loved with the hopes of change

I write for the pain within that I keep locked in
whether it's anger or depression that drives my pen
but it's my therapy & sometimes, my only friend
after spending my life defeating odds that I wouldn't win

I write for that woman feeling alone
heartbreak after heartbreak, crying at home
looking for the one thing she's never felt
when she already has it within herself
the lack of a father around so not sure who to love
but how to love, yearning for her white dove

I write for those dark days that only a few feel
diving in that liquor bottle & stuffed with pills
or a razor blade in hand drawing blood across the skin
wanting peace even if it means life will end

I write for the reader of this poem, you're just like me
a gifted troubled soul mixed in a dark world, just like me
blamed for everything & every loss, just like me
whether from family or yourself, you're guilty
but for the love of poetry & relief, you inspire me

I've been writing 3 books back to back & I'm happy to announce that my 2nd book 'Coming of Age: The Journey from a Boy to Man' will be releasing very soon in both digital & audio version & my 3rd book 'The Eulogy: A Final Farewell' will be dropping around my birthday (Feb. 14th). For those who're interested in reading it, i'll post the link when it's out & also provide the audio version thru email for those who wanna listen to it on the go. Thanks in advance for the support & sorry for the absence.

there is no voice

there is no expression

a world & heart that’s empty

I’d flatline

without it, i don’t exist

but most of all, I’d be no more   - Pencasso

without you, life wouldn't be the same

without you, I wouldn't have changed

without you, there wouldn't be a me

without you, I would've gone crazy

the light in dark days, the music in silence

a blessing to most but for me, you're my guidance

I've caused hell & heartache, pain including stress

gave me the best love thru all of my mess

I can't thank you without thanking God he creating you

cause without you, there is no me

Happy Mother's Day

Don’t tell me you love me because I know you don’t
Don’t tell me you’ll always be in my corner cause I know you won’t
Everything I touch falls apart so I can no longer hold your heart
Never in possession of the right hand so I can’t play the right card
You look at me & see a King, that’s what I struggle with
so I tend to push away just to keep you from facing undeserved punishment
You tell me you can handle my darkness but I know it’s too overwhelming
I’ve done enough damage to your heart to sit & watch the swelling
I don’t know if it’s the women I choose or the women I tend to lose
but everytime love meets me face to face, my interest in it begins to snooze
I tell myself I’ve been hurt too much but maybe I haven’t hurt enough
I say that I’m ready to settle but then again, I don’t even want love
Never a lonely king but the missing piece to the puzzle is what I seek
& I can pretend to be happy without it but that part of me will never be complete
I tell you to leave me be but I know I can’t handle watching you leave
then I realize the fool I’ve been then I fall down & beg on my knees
My past has me torn cause I fear going thru the same pain once again
so please forgive me if you fight to have my heart but I don’t allow you to win
I don’t want you to fall for the terror, you can do bad all by yourself
cause you can’t possibly love someone who barely loves themself
☆ Poetic Venom ☆

I’m not the strongest but I’m far from the weakest
I know there’s a light of happiness & I desperately seek it
Rebuking the Devil every chance I get
for trying to make me off myself but I can’t quit
God gave me a purpose & I’m doing my best to fulfill it
for every broken soul I come across, I’m the one to heal it
But I ask you, how I be the hero if I need the saving
I try to live my best but death had a feeling I was craving
Maybe it was the peace that came attached with it
maybe it was the feeling of closure that I was feeling
I ask myself, who are you to feel extraordinary
only to look at yourself like you’re just ordinary
The light’s been around the whole time, your eyes were just closed
your capabilities as a man could be unmatched but you may never know
how your impact would be if you’re too afraid to take that path
if you keep allowing the fear to hold you back cause you think they may laugh
at a gifted young King who desires to bring change or make a difference
cause he knows that those who bring change, only decease within a time’s distance
- Poetic Venom

A day of happiness mixed with tears
glad to see it but never do we toast cheers
either attached to the past or to be forgotten
along with the emptiness left in its existence

First time to discover a new love or the last day of an old habit
the soundtrack of tears or an endless memory of joy
As we continue our journey, we're left with 2 life-changing choices
carry on the baggage from the trauma of the past or let go to capture
the happiness of tomorrow

Here we go again, you crying your eyes out historically
So caught on that old love’s drug that you refuse recovery
You know what’s waiting for you at the end but still proceed
Praying for a different outcome & the change that you believe
Your actions were see through, they didn’t see how much you were down
In the end, they just ended up making you out to be a fool
You fell deep in love yesterday & today you’re dying from a tragedy
Fighting for as long as you can while suffering from a mental brutality
This love’s gotta hold on you & you just can’t seem to break free
In love with someone who’s love is playing the perfect absentee
Suffering from a shot to the heart, their love had a hit out on you
Their love is no good for you but you can’t leave, their love won’t allow you to
How come you’re having a hard time leaving but they left so easily
Attached to a love that’s not loving you equally
Under that’s love curse but unable to be set free
Fell in love yesterday but today, you’re resting in peace

Poetic Venom

yesterday, i cried from pain
yesterday, i wanted to quit
yesterday, i was broken
yesterday, i departed from sadness

today, i am free
today, i start over
today, i shall fly
today, i shall smile

tomorrow, i vow to be greater
tomorrow, i wish to be stronger
tomorrow, i strive for greatness
tomorrow, i learn from the mistakes of yesterday

yesterday, i cried from pain
yesterday, i wanted to quit
yesterday, i was broken
yesterday, i departed from sadness

today, i am free
today, i start over
today, i shall fly
today, i shall smile

tomorrow, i vow to be greater
tomorrow, i wish to be stronger
tomorrow, i strive for greatness
tomorrow, i learn from the mistakes of yesterday

You ain’t gotta be dreaming to feel like you’re on top of the world
Your tears don’t have to dance for your love to be heard
I know it seems like you’ll never find the one who
does everything possible to show his love for you
You’ve been hurt so much to the point where love seems impossible
overwhelmed with being broken & the damage phenomenal
You ain’t gotta dream to come home a nice hot bubble bath with candles lit
& all you gotta do is jump in just to relax for a bit
Soft R&B music playing in the background to set the mood right
for a lovely evening before you’re kissed goodnight
It’s the little things that make you happy the most that money can’t afford
& it feels like it’ll never happen because your standards are ignored
Always dreamed of being honored like the Queen you are but dreams come true
& I don’t promise, I guarantee that one day you’ll meet the perfect King for you
The feeling of being love without being paranoid of being hurt again
playing this game of love knowing that you’ll never win
You ain’t gotta dream or live in a fantasy world to feel loved

☆ Poetic Venom ☆

a decision was made
a path was paved
the future delayed
my heart wasn't saved

a chapter ended
a heart befriended
your love's suspended
the reason argumented

I admitted I'm wrong
couldn't string you along
to make you think we strong
together, we don't belong

hurt, you ain't the only one
too petty too long, we're done
forced me out, you won
you'll find another one

You’ve been hurt, broken, shattered, & abused
mistreated, left behind, dumped, & misused
Even thru your darkest days, your light shines bright
& even when you feel the weakest you still manage to fight
You are Light & you still glow when you feel so dimmed
you beat yourself down but your inner Queen still appears
The Queen you are isn’t ignored, just takes the perfect one to notice
& you are the Light that shines bright even when you’ve reached your lowest

-Poetic Venom

I’m not sure where things went wrong or how it went sour
I was just simply doing my best to adore this forever abandoned flower
A heart that’s been destroyed for too long & didn’t know what love is
And my only mission was to prove that real love in fact still exists
Just like any other love story, it started out with fireworks & laughter
Beautiful moments shared that a picture could never perfectly capture
Long talks on the phone & long paragraphs to wake up to
Thinking I finally got a love that’s worth looking forward to
Telling me all these things you feared & how you were taking a risk
Falling in love with me but thinking you’re gonna get hurt just as quick
One night things went south after an argument & I said something bad
Thinking nothing of it at the time but it made you incredibly mad
I’m constantly trying to apologize but you refuse to hear me out
Saying it’s gonna be okay & I had nothing to worry about
The next day rolls in but I’m not getting the same attention as before
I see you reading my messages but you only seemed to ignore
Having this big discussion on what I did wrong yet I tried to make it right
Knowing that sometime soon, I’d have to pay a price
Fast forward a year in time & you’re now seeing other men
The same dogs you talked to before but their love is only for pretend
Got me thinking to myself that I’m not even worth your time no more
But a dog came along & make you cherish him more
You feared me walking outta your life yet I stayed just to prove a point
But you walked away from what we had & I bet you even rejoiced
Posting all these love quotes on social media but you set yourself up
Fell for the same types you hated, now you’re all fed up
Had someone to ride for you but you paid them no attention
Looking for love thru the trash & their hearts was missing
I still see the pain in your eyes but I don’t even bother to fix it
Seeing your heart so cold & lonely but I refuse to pay a visit
You did the same thing you asked me not to do yet I’m the villain
Still trying to love your heart no matter its condition
You walked away from us, you did the opposite of what you promised
Torn by you but my heart was still trying to make a deposit

You feel lost & confused
been hurt & abused
cheated on & misused
built to win but only seem to lose
You’ve been left & replaced
lack of confidence & drowning in self hate
cried too many tears
still living in fear

You wish to be someone else
you can’t stand to look at yourself
too many times you’ve placed on the shelf
feeling incomplete & always questioning yourself
You’ve never been loved the right way but trust
you were made the way you are for a reason
& you’re unique, you just need to believe it
but all in all, there’s one thing you should know
You Are Enough
- Poetic Venom

You feel lonely & your heart wanders
looking to free your soul from all its monsters
Here in my arms, you shall find
a true friend that won’t leave over time
If you cry, I cry
Together & we will fly
Far away, not to be found again
just you & me, my friend
You’re Not Alone for as long as I exist

☆ Poetic Venxm ☆

you appeared different
overtime you got distant
had me blushing
my heart you kept crushing
in pursuit of something
my goodies had you lusting
your soul had me trusting
every word you ever spoke
killed me & left me broke
you're a king, that's a joke
gained my heart but you choked
you're a different man, that's indeed
in your lies I believed
after all I told you
& you still chose to leave

You Say You Love Her but you never take the time out to show her off
You maybe willing to give her love but at what cost?
You Say You Love Her but you still mess with other women for pleasure
Lying saying you single thinking you can find something better
You Say You Love Her but you make her feel so alone
Always calling her out for mistakes but you can’t do no wrong
You Say You Love Her but she feels insecure all the time
Making her feel like she’s worthless & always keep her crying
You Say You Love Her but you spend more time with your homies
She says she’s fine but in reality, she’s tired of feeling so lonely
You Say You Love Her but you only think of her whenever you want to feel her
She tries so hard to make you happy but you do nothing but **** her
You Say You Love Her but treat her ugly & hate any man who tries to cheer her up
She knows you’re no good for her but she still doesn’t wanna give up
You Say You Love Her but you hide things from her that makes her suspect you’re cheating
She still sees the good in you even though your love is wrong & deceiving
You Say You Love Her but you do nothing to keep her & refuse to let her leave
You’re the one doing wrong & you’re the only one that she’s desperately trying to please
You Say You Love Her but these one night stands & side hoes get your main attention
And you still fail to realize the blessing right in front of you & see what you’re missing

She blamed herself for loving you so much, but she couldn’t help it
Here she is fighting for what she loved while you made your way to the exit
Day in & day out you saying you loved her but never showed her
Just using her for the time being & chasing some peasant below her
She searched for the answers in her head but none appeared valid
Forced to play the deck of cards that she was handed
Maybe she loved you too much or maybe she didn’t love you enough
You had everything you ever dreamed of but you gave it all up
How can you possibly love her but trying to get attached to someone else
I bet she doesn’t even know that your heart is attached to someone else
She could be petty & message her everything that was said to her
How you wanted her love but would soon look right thru her
All those days you spent preaching about how you were different
And she took the blame for your fallout although she was innocent
Reading messages on her phone of how much you wanted it to last
Only to end up reminding her of a heart breaking past
You’re one hell of an actor, pretending to love her for all this time
Was probably mapping out since Day 1 how to carry out the perfect crime
Gassed her up to trust you just for you to strike at the perfect moment
Draw her attention to something else & lose her real focus
You said you loved her but still left her, she thanks you for the betrayal
Another shot to her already wounded heart but this time, it’s severely fatal
She's lost my faith in love & it’s all because of you, greatly appreciate it
The damage you caused to her heart was beyond excruciating

Poetic Venom