In the darkest nights I crave the drainage of my veins
The blade to come across my silhouette skin as it satisfies my craving
I moan in pleasure as chills take over my body
As my breaths slowly come to and ending
And my eyes become drowsy
I am soon to take the longest sleep
Away from all the pain, the hurt, and the memories

I don’t know even how to love even the simplest of things

I can't come even close to the understanding of loving a human being

Its such a sacred thing that can make you into something so great or break

You into such a horrid nightmare....

She wanted death.
She wanted to take over.
I wanted life.
I wanted for her to be gone.
She wasn’t going to let me go , I nourished her to long
For that I pay the price.
Growing up I longed the desire of having a part of me that could take over in the hard times
At times even just throughout the day.
With time she got stronger, she got bigger, she got wiser, she got control.
Now she hides me from the world and advices me its for my own good
But I see her just bring pain and hurt to the ones I promised never to hurt
And for that I crave the strength to end her through me …..

Our Love Was Best Compared To The View Of An Ocean

Oh How Beautiful & Peaceful Was The View

But How Tragic Was The Fact That It

Ended Up Nowhere....

Where was the reason to keep trying?

There was no future & we knew it.

We imagined things that had no plot. No happy ending.

It lived in our minds; It lived in our deepest hearts to finally have

something we did not grow in.

But we couldn't keep watering where there was no sun to help it

grow.

There just wasn't a point to keep on going, for these reasons it was

better to just let go.

There couldn’t be a way for him to love me

He had to force our love like his life was on the line

Because he felt the guilt that if he left, my funeral he would attend.

I didn’t want the love he was offering, I wasn’t in love

Having a reunion for the returning class of loneliness wasn’t in my

plan. Staying by his side seemed easier than being alone....