sometimes i'm green, sometimes i'm purple.
not doing a green eggs, and ham idea here.
but, i can be purple. instead, of green.

when i get asked what my favorite color is, but i had always said since a little green pea. i don't have one, cause i never wanted to hurt the colors feelings.

but, i'm green. or, purple.

i wake up, and i'm feeling like a pile of rocks.
i wake up, and i say i feel like flowers in bloom.
you wake up, you feel like the world is slow.
you wake up, and you say that it's time for you to wake up.

i eat, and i'm feeling unfortunately heavy.
i eat, and i say it's time for good meal.
you eat, and feel for something small.
you eat, and you say you cannot eat that much.

you say this, and i say that.
it goes around, and comes back around.
i used to just say, but now i wanna say louder.
you stay, you stay in the same place.

how much more scheming must happen, in other days to come?

it's easy to remember the kisses, the laughter.
the way your name felt soft on my tongue.

but, what about the nights i slept alone?
the fights that left my heart bruised?
the slience so heavy that it choked me.
being shut out, locked away from you by you.

no photos of my tears.
no post of my emptiness that settled in my chest.
as if love's ugliest moments didn't existed.

and, here's the truth i never wanted to learn.
: spoiler alert - *** never makes someone love you.
not enough to stay.
not even enough to try.