I don’t know why you didn’t pour out today...
Usually you like to get me drenched...
The day i really wanted to you soak me...
You didn’t...
I know you where trying to soothe me with your drizzles...
I couldn’t even feel you today...
What I wanted was you to pour out...
How I wished your each and every drop will fall on me...
How it makes me pain and cold...
And in the end numb...
I could have cried without anyone noticing...
And I could tell everyone, you made my eyes red...
Yes I know how you took all the blame...
How you could never satisfy anyone...
Just like me...
Even I m blaming you for not pouring out...
But one day you really have to do what I wish for...
Where only you and me will be there...
To let me out all the feelings I kept inside...

— Jonna Adam

How I wish I could walk again in solitude....
Through the paths I have taken in the past...
To revisit the places I have travelled...
Which hold so many memories....
Memories which I hold on to my heart...
Never letting it go for years....
How once I wished to visit....
Holding your hands....
And showing you my life...
How I dreamed of you enjoying my happiness...
And how you will hold me through my sadness....
How you will help me to let it all go....
But as I never found you....
I dreamed of walking in solitude...
It may take me years....
And it may be painful too...
But being in pain for years...
I don’t feel it anymore....
Unable to tell apart what is pain...
And what is happiness...
May be walk in Solitude is what I needed...
To make me alive...

— Jonna Adam

Don’t know what this feeling is...
Is it missing someone....no...
Or is it reminding me everything...I don’t know....
Just knew I m sad...
And wish for someone to hold me...
Feeling heaviness in my heart...
And my eyes become blurry....
And my mind blank....
So what’s the reason I feel down???
I have gone through this many times...
And never got an answer...
May be this will always be my part...
Never letting me go....
May be I also need it...
To remind me something...

— Jonna Adam

You were my first love...
May be that’s why you are special....
May be you will always be....
Though you never returned my feelings...
I never felt bad...
I keep on loving you for years...
There was time I thought falling for someone else will be like cheating you....
I hold on to you...
Made friendship with you...
Even after knowing that...
You thought of me as nuisance and silly irritating girl...
I cried over that letter...
And made up mind...
I should have stopped there...
but again my love for you wanted to forgive you...
Now when think back...
I was really a fool....

And again when we met after years...
You still make me feel the same...
The same silly immature girl...
You thinks my love for you is still there...
But what u don’t know is I never give my heart to anyone...
And never will...
You are my first failure...
That I accepted with a smile...
I again got attached to you...
Bcoz I found we both love late nights...
And your love for rain...
Your company just made me happy...
But alas we had misunderstandings...
Which will keeps on coming...
So we should part again...
As you said in better terms than hating each other...
I won’t say it didn’t hurt...
But to you I will never be a friend...
I will always be a crazy girl...
And you will again laugh it off with your friends...
So good bye my first love...

— Joanna Adam

I didn’t knew you too was missing from me....
That you were my childhood fragrance...
How l lost you...
I don’t know...
I remember the times where I hated sweet smell of perfumes...
How the smell of flowers irritated me...
How it brings up a headache....
And you came back to me again after a long long time...
Thanks to my better half that he bought me your fragrance soap...
I didn’t realise it that then...
Suddenly I started to carve for your fragrance...
That I bought perfumes and powders of your fragrance....
Still I didn’t realise that you were with me before....
Only when my sis heard my pondering thoughts about you....
And told it’s bcoz you were used to it for years...
In your childhood days...
Made me remember you...
How I waited for my father to get your perfume on my dresses...
Don’t know when I stopped using you...
As it was still there in many more years...
Still I didn’t touched you...
And forgotten....
I don’t know whether to be happy that you came back...
Or sad and angry that I missed one more thing in my life...
May be I  can be both...
And I do hope you will be with me always...
The sweet fragrance of Lavender...

— Joanna Adam

You told her to pick a colour...
To like...
As she didn’t have any favourite...
If only it’s been easy for her...
To choose what she like...
You think she choose to lose all colours in her life...
And she chose to live in shades of Grey...
Only if she could choose...
As she is drawn to shades of grey...
Colours become distant...
Something she thought will burn her  again...
As she is slowly started to mix colours...
As if testing hot water...
Let her to accept the colours...
Let her gone through all colours...
And when the time comes she’ll choose one...

— Jonna Adam

Wanna get drenched one day...
With you beside me....
And feel the rain....
Running around holding our hands...
Laughing around and let the rain kiss our skins...
And enjoy the coldness...
And when we stop to catch our breath...
How you will pull me to you...
And hug me from behind...
And caress my belly under my wet clothes....
And how you will part my hair and nuzzles my nape....
And gently give a bite....
Which made me shiver against you....
And I couldn’t hold anymore..
That I turned around and kissed your lips...
Standing barefoot on you feet...
You hold me tightly and deepened the kiss...