Jinxx

Dec 2014

Liz And Lilacs

Yule

Happy Yule,
The winter equinox, you know,
It's the darkest day of year.
And yet I feel the safest,
Drinking hot cocoa,
Away from the terrors of the world

Dec 2014

Beaux

What you see, What you say, What happens

You look at me and see my tattoos
You look at me and see my piercings
You look at me and see my colored hair
You think I'm a useless punk
You look at me and see my long hair
You look at me and see my short, shorts
You look at me and see my white skin
You think I'm a stereotypical b*tch
You look at me and see my shaggy hair
You look at me and see I dress similar to guys
You look at me and see me hug my friend
You think I'm a lesbian
You look at me and see me dance
You look at me and see my small frame
You look at me and see a girly face
You think I'm a trans
You look at me and see my flaws
You look at me and judge
You look at me and make a comment
A rumor spreads
I get arrested for a false accusation
I lose my good reputation
I get food thrown at me
I get laughed at when I go down the halls
What happened because of you
I became a felon
I end up a drop out
I commit suicide
I get abandoned by my parents
You put it all off track
Your words killed my chances
You ruined my life

This was written to say: Even if you don't beat them up or yell names in their faces its still bullying to talk bad about someone behind their back. What you say isn't always true and don't believe everything people tell you. This is to show how you can effect people's lives. Don't say that it's over dramatic. Those are true stories.

#life #abuse #bullying #ruined #magicath

Jinxx Dec 2014

Red Lines

These red lines cover my paper skin
____________________
Like a pen dragged
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Over
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And Over
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And Over
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These red lines slice through my paper skin
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My pen breaks
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Red bleeds
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Covering the page
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Every night
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Over
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And Over
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And Over......
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#cutting #ana #selfharm #starvingforbeauty

Dec 2014

Creep

Mon Cher

-to a very special guy out there, love ya J-

The way you greet me every morning
the way you think about me...
it blows my mind how someone
so intangible
thinks about ME of all people...
it makes me flush red,
and one comment
puts me in ecstasy for the whole day,
and nothing can bring me down.

You.
One simple word that makes my brain explode in ways unthinkable,
with memories of
sweet peppermint breezes,
shivers that run down my spine,
sounds of a high, all the yelling around the house now muted,
or just really cheery, chipper unheard of before this.
I hope we can make more memories.

Maybe I'm not the best.
Maybe I'm not good enough for you.

But when you talk to me,
all those worries scatter away.
You make it so that I'll think of you in my every thought,
I can't stop.
I can't eat, just thinking about you makes me full.
I'll wake up refreshed and ready to go to school with just a simple thought of whats awaiting me today - you.
I might be aimlessly reading, but my mind will drift to you.

Hopefully it's not just me
but
I love you.

ugh i **** at love poems... anything remotely happy, i can't write about XD heres my first attempt, expect more ^^ (mon cher=my dear)

stays four the same
by the ready set

-I've got you under my skin
-strangers in the night
all by frank sinatra

1983
by neon trees

-l.o.v.e.
-unforgettable (duet with natalie cole)
-(i would do) anything for you
all by nat king cole

#j

Dec 2014

Demonized Angels

This is for Andy

I hate to admit it but,
Maybe his time has come
Maybe he's meant to go
Three weeks of hanging on
He has no reason to
His love has gone
His mother is waiting
His best friend is there
Everyone he's lost along the way,
Waiting with open arms
Oliver
Abby
Evelyn
Joseph
Quinn
Ally
Catherine
And those are just a few
His family is there
He's lost everything
But himself

A short poem for Andy. Who was moved back to his home town for his last few weeks. Andy has been battling a cancer called soft tissue sarcoma. This has been a two year battle. It's closer to stage five than four now and he's been given three weeks to live. To say goodbye, to try and get better. Help me out and repost this to give him a reason to fight. Write your own poems and show him there's a reason to stay #ThisIsForAndy and #ANewReligion ~Thanks~

#thisisforandy #anewreligion