On the top of the highest cloud it feels like you couldnât possibly get knocked down, higher than life, higher than pain, higher than anything that bothers you from day to day-unbreakable.
At the bottom of the deepest well it feels like youâll never be pulled out again, lower than sadness, lower than anger, lower than anything that could possibly hurt you-empty.
On solid earth it feels like no one can see you, that youâll never reach up, only fall down, so mediocre youâre falling all ready-that feeling of everybody hates me.
The worst is the fall from the highest cloud to the lowest trench in the earth, when your hope drops so low itâs nonexistent-youâre completely alone.
The second worst itâs the fall from cloud to earth because the disappointment is suffocating, the hatred physically hurts thereâs no ladder back up-only a fall further down.
That cloud is the most dangerous place, a place of perfection and wishes and unrealistic hope so that anywhere else is soul crushing and painful.
Earth is the worst because of the pain, the ability to feel and the fault and the blame, the friends who leave and you canât make them stay-thatâs worse than the well because itâs a never ending game
At least the well is permanent, you know what to expect although you feel lost and alone and dead, itâs easier to make sure that youâre alive than is to cope with pain and anger and strife
Personally the well is my favourite, the only ambition is inevitable so thereâs no disappointment, the only thing the well wants from you is death and all you want is to do just that.