Your difference I find hard to bear
though I'm right in whatever I say
want you to talk what I love to hear
want you to go my way!

I want your world to go my way
I'm okay and you are not
words I love you don't ever say
you don't just toe my thought!

Why you don't just toe my thought
me you don't understand
why you seem to me remote
a distant far off land!

Why you remain a far off land
farther from me you stray
why don't come to the place I stand
and not just walk away!

I wonder why you walk away
say not what I love to hear
don't listen to what I have to say
though living together the years!

Last night,I dreamt that you were gone
In a light so blinding I stood there holding that doll you gave me
in my arm
last night,I saw my dad cry
I have never seen him cry,you see
so I asked him why
He looked at me,and I remember how scared,how hopeless he looked
I did not know why
so I asked him again
and he made me say goodbye
to you
Last night,they told me you were asleep
all the sleeping pills you had taken would finally help you shut your eyes
they told me you were in a better place
and you will always smile
and you would never grow old
like peter pan
I don’t know why but I felt like you had taken something of mine
When you left for wherever you went
In a hurry,leaving a shadow behind
which breathed even if you did not
It was not really last night
It has been 15 years which have passed in hazy blurry dream
That shadow still remains
And You are still in that land,the place where everyone sleeps
And no one grows up
But I did
I see the world
And Now I understand why
Why you had to die
To escape
Why you wound up so deep
I hope now you fly
because Last night,I think I cried in my sleep

The man's blood sprayed all over the walls
as his corpse fell with a thunderous thud.
The spectacle has been replayed thousands of times.

Last night I witnessed a suicide
and a realization has been born
that I can't save everyone.
This upsets me a great deal
as I aspired to be a Superman;
A protector of the world,
but I failed at my task.

The world knows I should hang my cape.
To be done with this impossible dream
would be the wise thing to do,
but I hold it in my hands,
wondering who else would bear this weight.
If no one, then I must continue
and with every challenge I face,
regardless of outcomes,
I shall be even moreso stricken
than my previous endeavors.
These are the sacrifices I have to make
for the good of the public interest.
I can't afford to think of myself
because at the end of the day,
my well-being will never even matter.

A lot has changed since we became free
Motives rearranged when you broke up with me

Resisting cardiac arrest restless nights turned into mourning

We ended it

We ended up

Apart

Seeing you not being there
I just pretend I don't care
even though I'm aware
missing you is not fair
yet I missed you rare
thinking of you - where?
holding my teddy bear
sitting in my favourite chair
Dreaming you would be here
wiping my one last tear
waiting for you forever
           -cute crazy-

They call me evil, but I am in you,
cocooned till I am released, the
trigger is in you. It just needs that
incident that something, to give
birth to me within you.

I am like a butterfly of darkness,
my wings are spreading releasing
the evil within. I couldn't do these
things with out you, but you are not
alone, everyday I am released to do
the unspeakable.

Some have regret with what was
done, while others soak it up and
use it as a strength within.

Those others do not understand
that I am evil within, for I may
sleep to the grave. But in most I
am in some ways released, and
the black butterfly will once again
spread its wings within.

Years of support, care, selfless-
Ness rendered worthless;
An angry, mean man
Having always been just that
If becoming one
More than
Once.

Unarmed
Queen's protector.

I'm sorry,
Honey.

"i love you" - is
the forbidden word
to my soul and my heart
      -cute crazy-