I made a promise
A promise to myself
A promise to stay
A promise to live
A promise to be OK

I broke that promise
The promise to myself
I tryed to leave
I don't want to be live
I am not OK

I have a promise
A promise to my friends
A promise to stay
A promise to live
A promise to be OK

I still brake that promise
The promies to my friends
I want to leave
I don't want to live
I am not OK

I will never keep the promise
The promise to myself
The promise to my friends
The promise to stay
The promise to live
The promise to be OK

I am here
I live
But I'm not OK
I will never be OK
But that is OK

Knives are sharp.
Knives are dangerous.
Knives are fun.

Knives can ****.
Knives can make you feel alive.

Knives go away.

Why is life so complicated
Why is it so hard to love
Why am I such a waste of space in this world
Why do I exist
WHY

Because life isn't ment to be easy
Becasue then when you love, you love more
Because you're not
Because I need you
BECAUSE

The scream is silent
But everyone hears it
The scream is sufficating
But everyone ignores it
The scream is building
But no one cares
The scream has gone
But the screamer is too

My parents are...
Ok
Annoying
Strict
Loving
Kind
The best they can be

But sometimes it is not enough
Sometimes I need my friends

My friends are...
Ok
Annoying
Controling
Loving
Loyal
The best they can be

But sometimes it is not enough
Sometimes I need my siblings

My siblings are...
Ok
Annoying
Jerks
Loving
Loyal
The best they can be

But sometimes it is too much
Sometimes I need my space

Sometimes I like life
Sometimes I hate life
Sometimes I love people
Sometimes I hate people
Sometimes I live
Sometimes I don't
Life is full of Somtimes
But only sometimes

Sometimes I think
Sometimes I don't
Sometimes I just let my mind float
Float away to a happyer palce
A place where I see a smiling face
The detail are fuzzy but the message
I'm sure is that they love me forever more.

Lost
That's me
I am lost

Lost in a world
A world of imagining things
My world, it is better there
I am safe and loved and appreciated

Lost is a good thing here
You should be safe here
I make no promises

I am lost
That's me
Lost

Safe
Happy
Alone
Lost
Free

in the middle of a crowd
standing all alone
feeling very proud
with no friends to call your own

tears fall down your face
but you wipe them all away
there's something about this place
that makes you want to stay

you've left your only friend
in a place you cannot be
this is something you cannot mend
and now your very lonley

tears fell down your face
but you wiped them all away
cause there is nothing in this place
that could make you want to stay

in the middle of a crowd
staring at your phone
feeling very proud
with one friend to call your own

tears fell down your face
but you wiped them all away
there is someone at this place
that makes you want to stay

one friend turns to two
two turn to  many more
now there are so few
who feel the way you felt before

so as tears fall down their face
you'll wipe them all away
cause this is now a place
where everyone can stay

i just wanted to say thank you to everyone who read what i write and responds.
life hasn't been easy lately but your comments and support has help a lot.
you are all amazing especially those who have inspired my writings.

Of course I'm a perfectionist
My parents expect perfection
You expect perfection
How can I not be a perfectionist
I need to be perfect

You don't know what you've got 'till it's GONE
You don't know what you love 'till it's GONE
You don't know how lucky you are 'till it's GONE
When it's gone you love it, miss it, and want it back
But it's GONE

I'm stuck
Stuck here
Here now
I'm stuck here now

I'm tired
Tired of
Of life
I'm tired of life

I'm alone
Alone forever
Forever now
I'm alone forever now

I'm unloveable
Unloveable to
To all
I'm unloveable to all

I'm stuck here now
I'm tired of life
I'm alone forever now
I'm unloveable to all

I'm me

its been a month
im doing well

its because of him
i can tell

hes my best friend
maybe its fate

its because of him
im doing great

I gave into my demons
Why you ask
Because they were the only ones always there for me.

Can't is a strong word
Can't is a hard word
Can't is my word
I CAN'T
Can't succed
Can't fail
Can't do anything
Can't live
Can't die
I CAN'T

I'm confused
Confused at life
Confused at everything

Why
Why is life, life
Why is everything, everything

How
How is life, life
How is everything, everything

I'm confused
Why
Who
Please explain

I feel alone
But I'm not
I have friends
But I'm alone
I'm alone inside

there is a sound
it is building and growing
it is gone

knife in hand
blood dripping down her leg
a smile on her face

no one knows
and if they do they don't care
because at least shes there

I'm scared
I don't know what to do
Should I run
Should I hide
Should I cry
Help
Please
Save me
HELP

Someday I will live
Someday I will fight
Someday I will fly
Someday is not today

Someday

Mabey I will die
Mabey I will loose
Mabey I will fall
Mabey is not today

Someday Mabey

Not today
Not tomorrow
Not yesterday

Someday Mabey Not

you ask someone why
why did you try to comite suicide

instead you should ask them who
who made you feel like death was the only option

you ask soemone why
why did you cut

instead you should ask them who
who hurt you so youd hurt yourself

I'm broken
Like a china doll
Like a glass plate
Like a white bone
Like a pure heart

I'm broken and I love it

I hope we can be friends
I'm not to sure how to act
I hope we can be friends
I'm not sure if I'm any good at it
I hope that I don't mess this up
I'm not sure if I can do anything else but
I will try

Try your hardest and you will succed
TRY TRY TRY

I will try to be friends.

Quarinteen is now my life
Quarinteen is now my death
Quarinteen is now my everything
Quarinteen needs to go away

You flirt with me and get my hopes up.
You break my heart again.
Can't you just leave me alone.
But I love you and don't want you to leave.

So flirt with me and get my hopes up.
So break my heart again.
Never leave me alone.
Cause I love you and don't want you to leave.

Tears
Tears fall
Tears fall down

Down
Down from
Down from me

Me
Me alone
Me alone forever

Tears fall down
Down from me
Me alone forever

Now I am happy

You've been gone for a year
Now you come back and exspect my love
What about my heart
It can't take the hurt if you leave again

I will try again
we are RE-UNITED