I laugh instead of crying
because it doesn't hurt again
and again
and if it did I couldn't stand it,
id leave my family and be abandoned,
so I just try live past it,
but its easier said than done
when everyone you know expects a joke,
and youre stuck inside your head,
when you realize your the joke
because you made your friends who don't hate it
but youre locked in tight to a happy little joke
because none of them want to play with a broken boy
who will never quite make it

5 million different people all with the same name,
we all want to be different,
but how can we when we're fundamentally the same,
and everyone tries to stand out,
but its seen as insane
all our lives are still in vain, because there's 7 billion more,
and to come up in first
you'd have to do something real insane

I had a book
Full of all my tears and fears,
but she got up
leaving the tears but
she took the filling from my heart

Sometimes im writing lines
To get her out of my head
Other times
Im doing lines
Instead

If I was a snowman built round and tall
I hope you'd play with me
There's not much I could do all in all
Would I know myself?
Or would I care?
In the end I just hope you can be there
But beware
My love is cold and never really there
So when we warm up and I disappear
I hope you still care to keep my hat and my charcoal
And save it to do it again next year
But not to resurrect me, but to build something better in my memory