The reality
is that I made myself feel
alone, no one else

5:50 PM
21/3/22

Success is not final
Failure is not fatal

Rise from where life trampled you over
Defeat, first, not the enemy but your own fear

I exist in the midst of
the ruins of myself, and
the stranger I have become

The day greets me with its
aching loneliness forcing me
to suffer through its brutal hours

Even in my dreams,
I am still being crushed  
by the heaviness of the night

And I do not know
if I can bear to see
another burning sunset

I should know how far beautiful I am,
but also be closest to the fact.

I am beauty in the words I speak,
I am beauty amongst beautiful people I meet,
I am beauty as the first to choose peace,
I am beauty to smile brighter when I'm weak,
I am beauty for it all resides in me,

I am beauty as a people of my land,
I am beauty as the many of ocean sands,
I am beauty for being proud of who I am,
I am beauty in the can't that I choose to can,

I am beauty of the moments I make,
I am beauty in the creations I shape,
I am beauty as I sleep and wake,
I am beauty for the many mercies and sake,
I am beauty because I see myself as great,

I am truly beautiful.

If I were to tell you
I saw you in a dream

Would you let me go on
about how I saw
your soul gleam

Like a million fires
seen across sea

Now

My eyes can carry me
to your wonders

But

At your shore
I could never be

So

If I were to tell you
I saw you in a dream

could you tell me why
I awoke with a love

That was never meant
for me