An active ...an active duty call...
Words...please spread them for...
For a life lost somewhere...
Somewhere...we couldn't look for.

Burdened hearts with heavy shoulders...
A youth lost to nature.

We moved one stone,
Another turns up..what's the matter.

In the valley ...where river flows..
It all seams a little scary,

The path left unmounted..
But couldn't stop the screaming,

Soundless words spoken...
Haunted eyes prays...
Hallowed emotions broke...
The last fragile part of the brain.

The one among the thousands..
The life left to chaos,
Hanging in a self imposed purgatory..
But the life.. still goes on.

An animal caught in a trap,
Caged for self interest.
Having extinguished the fire,
But can you break the spirit?

True nature of a beast,
A single moment and you'll be a feast.
Affection and loyalty,
Should've been the priorities.

The prey is the predator,
The hunter being hunted,
The captor become captive,
This game changes every second.

Loyalty to the friend,
Dimiss for the foe.
Strength in isolation,
And The revenge is savage.

Your breath fanning my face.
Your hands in my hairs.
The depth of your dark eyes staring at me.
The power that flows from you to me.
The intensity with you love.
This spark simmering between us.
Blood flowing with undercurrent.
The pulse beating behind your ear.
My hands drifting down your back.
Our breathing that's increasing every passing sec.
The buildup of this chemistry..
Hovering over the edge.
Diving down from this cliff.
One touch..... is all what it took,
For me to come undone.

More than anything,
I'm thankful and I'm elated that I found you.
More than anything
I love the companionship and everything about you.

You are the answer
To my every prayer
You are perfection
Anything else doesn't really matter.

You make me love myself
You make me feel safe.
You make me feel untouchable
As if nothing bad can ever happen.

You made content,
You made feel cherished.
You make it so easy to love you
You are an honest to god miracle.

You are my home,my safe place.
You are everywhere,but still give me space.
You are my hope,and all the good inside.
You are my supporter, roaster on the other side.

You are the other half of my soul
The creator created me with your bone.
I was lost somewhere in the storm
Thank you for being my home.

Suppressed emotions,
Depressed mind.
Looking everywhere for courage,
Instead of looking inside.

Struggling to stand,
Don't want the support.
Wasting away a life.
Don't know how to afford.

It isn't a bad thing,
Asking for help.
Want to conquer the world,
Hoping to be blessed.

Accepting what life gives,
Doesn't mean a failure.
Imagine yourself a hero,
Don't **** the saviour.

Start from the beginning. ..
From the ins and outs of the shadows
Lurking just underneath
The righteous path you've chosen.

Let it flow through your veins
Direct to your heart
Let it direct you to the darkness
You're trying to hide from.
To become something
You're supposed to be
Rather being someone
You meant to  be.

Tell me about the courage
You've found within the Hopelessness
About the moment
Where you've found the solace in your darkness
The acceptance you've given yourself
About the emotion that made you decide
About not wanting the approval
Of the ones who broke the promise
To love you unconditionally.

Where you broke the chains
Binding you to everything
You've known to know
Exactly what it's like
To be the supporting character
In your own story.

And about the out of  body experience
And the knowledge that
It was you all along
Who held the cards
Just didn't know the play...

The prison felt like the home
Or the home was the prison
You were the key to it all...

Tell me about how you found it
To break free.

Your innocence is what captured me first,
Then your personality became elixir for my thirst.
You were always too witty,
Used to make my jaw gritty.
Then you started to look cute,
And I knew the chances of being something between us were acute.

One day suddenly it strucked me,
That you became a big part of me.
I started to look forward to our banter,
And every other interesting encounter.
You were every thing that I didn't wanted,
Now it feels, for you I've waited.

But I'm too afraid to say.
What happens if you wants me away?
Should I risk already good relation and my heart?
Would it be the end or a fresh start?.

Respect comes from inside
No fear can earn it
Prioritiesing is the way
To resolve the conflict
They say this is all
A game of certain
Rules and expectations
Are the proof of
One finding you their own.

I'm not in love with you. .
It doesn't matter that I wake up every morning  wishing to see your face.

I'm not in love with you. .
It doesn't matter that everthing reminds of you.

I'm not in love with you. .
It doesn't matter that I check my phone every few minutes, wishing to see your name pop up.

I'm not in love with you. .
It doesn't matter that if you don't talk to me a single day,I'll go crazy.

I'm not in love with you. .
It doesn't matter that If you are sad,my heart refuse to feel any joy.

I'm not in love with you. .
It doesn't matter that I'm missing you like I'm missing a part of myself, while writing this poem.

You learn to walk..
You learn to run..
You fell down. .
You scrap your knee. .
You broke your hand. .
You loose your patience. .
You loose your mind. .
But you still try..
You get up. .
Try to stay upright. .
You crawl. .
You wobble. .
Then you stand up..
You start to fight..
You prove yourself. .
You defeat every obstacle. .
You conquer every fear. .
You became what you wanna be. .
The best version of yourself. .
It doesn't matter what you left behind. .
Everything that came and went was a lesson..
Everything that stayed. ...is yours.
Life goes on.

Empty promises and awkward silence
The hurt the guilt the regret
All part of this scam
The time insignificant
The time spent so far
I was arrogant in one battle
But you won the war.

You came slowly,
without making a noise.
Made a home inside my heart,
Didn't gave me a choice.
I didn't even realise,
Until it was too late.
Never in my life,
Have I ever took a bait.
You became my reason to smile,
You eyes became my reason to keep going with my life.
Your laughter became music to my ears,
Your dedication took away my reasons to fear.
You became the beating of my heart,
You became every wish I asked to the stars.
You became the centre of my universe,
You became the reason for my existence.

Standing beside the one I thought was on my side.
It took an immersion of a massive disaster to know that wasn't something the one wanted.
The ploy of little tiles expanded on a Scrabble board to find the meaning
Behind the smile hidden by the obvious eye roll.
It all feels as if every moment was fake.

You gave a good fight,
Now it's time for you to stop.
You did what you could've,
With your shield and your sword.
Your scars your trophy,
Your skin your wall of fame.
Your blood spilled for loyalty,
And every one of those broken bones.
A bloodied battle,
For a crown made of stone.
Enemies and friends alike,
Shielding away the cruel,
Innocents on the point of the swords.
Looking around you,
Can you tell who won or who loose?
Blood flowing is all red,
Doesn't matter to whom it belong.
It's the same ache they feel,
To go back to their home.
You fought for what you thought was right.
Have you ever thought about of it being all wrong?.
Would you be weak?
Or would you be strong?.. To let go..
Not fighting anymore.

Waking before the dawn,
Chasing the sunrise.
Rushing over the work load,
Being on TIME.
Carrying a casserole filled with,
Exotic aroma and spice.
Planning and plotting in front,
Dropping the hints behind.
Building an unmeasured,
an anticipated delight.
Waiting and watching,
Your annoying secret holding smile.
You were not very good by the way,
Or were you just pretending to hide?
It was all in open,
But I couldn't contain my high.
I was so bumped when you told me,
There wasn't even a surprise.
You actually fooled me,I'll give you that,
Started calling myself stupid and naive.
And I wanted to **** you,when you exposed,
Your ill hided and goofiest  birthday surprise.

Silence,
The signs of the time.
Learning,
Reading between the lines.
Stillness,
Listening to the eerie quite.
Warmth,
And brightness of the sky.
Tick-tock,
Watching the hours goes by.
Buzzing,
Humming sound from inside.
Introspect,
Reading my own mind.
Time,
Minutes and seconds being mine.
All alone,
Sitting outside.
Is it lonely?
Or I'm having the time of my life.
Quite possibly both,
At this moment,
Feeling most satisfied.

On a perfect contrary
To a perfect deception,
Hearts in the eyes
Signals weak for reception.
Another day. ..another illusion,
Sit back a little,
Just read through instructions.

My mind is a mess.
This game of life,
Really similar to chess.
I don't know what is right or wrong.
I don't know ,if I wanna be with someone or stay all alone.

I'm trying to solve this puzzle.
Everytime I come close ,
There's another one.
I don't know what to believe.
I don't know,if I should be scared or relieved.
Should I enjoy this feeling?
Or run for the hills??

Maybe it's a bad thing,
My lack of experience.
Or Maybe I shouldn't,
Take this That seriously.

When the darkness of my heart,
Took over the shiny parts.
When the fog lifted,
The calmness of chaos sat in.

When I lost the dream colored glasses,
Only then I could really focus.
The Scowl  behind the smile,
The wretchedness of the mind.

I saw the colours of the faces,
The colours of people's heart.
The ugliness hidden behind,
The stony glittered mask.

Lost amidst the crowd,
The family of one.
All about the blood,
Emotions mattered to no one.

A mental struggle,
Faith losing the lustre.
Concerned about the health,
Why don't you see a doctor!?.

Open eyes...
Narrowed mind.
Push and pull of acceptance,
I hope you wouldn't mind!.

Couldn't stand out,
Wouldn't be among the crowd.
The final decision made,
It was.. which no one talked about!.

Echo of your silent footsteps
Playing on the loop
Strange remembrance
Of the Words spoken out
Under false pretense
And the  moments
of curiosity
Tricking me to believe
You're somewhere near.

Watching you from afar,
Waiting for you to notice,
That you are what I wanted.
And everybody can tell it.

I want you to make the move,
Not because I'm shy,
just have something to prove.
We have an unsteady relation.
That I'm sure we both wants to improve.

Because you are everything to me.
Like you are flowing through me.
Like I'm living on you.
Like I came in this world for you.
And right now, just here waiting for you.