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199 · Sep 2018
Blood tie.
Gulishta Sep 2018
A known stranger,
An unknown blood tie.
A bond formed by truth,
A relation tangled in lies.

A manipulative familiarity,
An aching small piece of mine.
A place darker then night sky,
A light resurrect everytime it die.

The hatred lurching,
Underneath blinding smile.
A soothing presence,
On other side of the phone line.

Hands raised,
To sooth the ache.
Inflicted by the sworn,
Proctector of this life.

Authorities,making decisions.
Certain rules seems to apply.
The duty left to fullfil,
By another,keeping on stand by.

Being yours,
           Is a curse.
Not being yours,
           Is certainly worse.

Identity crises,
      Or maybe crises of a life time.
Comes the time to pick,
      Still choose the blood tie.
198 · Nov 2017
Waiting for you.
Gulishta Nov 2017
Watching you from afar,
Waiting for you to notice,
That you are what I wanted.
And everybody can tell it.

I want you to make the move,
Not because I'm shy,
just have something to prove.
We have an unsteady relation.
That I'm sure we both wants to improve.

Because you are everything to me.
Like you are flowing through me.
Like I'm living on you.
Like I came in this world for you.
And right now, just here waiting for you.
198 · Jul 2018
Golden cage.
Gulishta Jul 2018
Dark blue sky,
    Not a star to shine .
Overwhelming pride,
    Nothing can excite.

No breathing room,
     No personal space.
Made of glitter and stones,
     My golden cage .

Dull rhythm,
      of my breathing,
Unblinking eyes,
      Not a key in sight.

Unchained bondages ,
      Invisible clutches.
Insignificant life,
      Unexisted existence.

Shivering bodies,
      Blazing minds.
Fearing monsters,
     Being one inside.

Only shreds are left,
    Nothing to sacrifice.
They say I'm privileged,
    Choosing to stay the other side.
197 · Jul 2019
The moment.
Gulishta Jul 2019
As I made the journey...
       From "what I could"...to "what I should "..
I died a thousand million deaths.

Every insecurity. ..
       Every doubt...
               Every failure...
                      Every fear....
Came rushing towards....
           knocking me a few pegs down.

The mirror.......the reality..
The choices.......the destiny..
My life......my sanctuary. .
My safe place.....my sanity.

The mess I've created...
    The Love I crave...
My heart losing control. ...
     My mind telling to behave.

The battle ground inside...
    Which side to choose...
No matter how I play it...
     It is me whose gonna lose.

My eyes cry...
     My lips smile...
          My heart beats...
                My soul dies.

One moment. ..one emotion.
I was lost to oblivion...
      A different version of myself.
For better or for worse??
       You were there......
              Do you not like me anymore?.
195 · May 2018
You and I.
Gulishta May 2018
You pull me up,
        When I let you down.
I'm the one who float,
        You bring me to the ground.
You are better than me,
        You make me better.
You put us back together,
        Everytime when  I shatter.
I'm the one guilty,
         You are the one who plead.
I'm evolving,
         You are the one who succeed.
I have desire for the wings,
         You are my teether without any string.
You make me stronger,
          When I make you weak.
You are a part of me,
          Without me you can't exist.
I'm understanding,
           You are the depth.
I'm the words ,
            You are the strength.
You are everything,
            That I need and want to have.
193 · Mar 2018
Can you??
Gulishta Mar 2018
Can you hear me??
    I'm calling you....
             Without my words.
Can you feel me??
    I'm touching you....
             With my presence.
Can you see me??
   I'm right there....
               Besides you.
Can you exist? ?
   With or without me??
Can you smell me??
   I'm living in your essence.
Can you live??
   As I'm alive for your breath.
Or can you let go??
   So I could die in peace.
190 · Nov 2019
Reasons enough
Gulishta Nov 2019
Wandering eyes,
Aimless....
Find a way,
Hopeless. ..
Live a little,
Lifeless...
World worth seeing,
Priceless.

On the menu card,
Of the course called life.
It all comes back,
With the price beside.

Main course is needed,
Gotta work for dessert.
Smell the aroma,
It's all a starter.

Reasons enough,
The reasons made.
Choices provide,
Or choices made.
190 · Jan 2018
Memories.
Gulishta Jan 2018
Living in the memories of you.
Dying a little every day for you.
Hoping to find a distraction,
Or maybe for wishes to come true.

They say people come and go in your life.
Why didn't they tell,
There's only bits and pieces to gather,
Of what has been left behind?.

Why didn't they have the road map,
For passing it through.
Or Maybe a magic potion to go back in time?.

Seeing myself in your eyes..
Made me feel beautiful.
Now I can't see myself without wishing for your eyes.
Not a blanket in the world to keep me warm,
Without having you by my side.
It's a dreadful feeling,
Wishing to be here as well as the other side.
189 · Aug 2019
The final goodbye.
Gulishta Aug 2019
Emotions filled up to the brim
starts to leak out...
It hurts all over the place
Someone please tell my mind 'time-out'.

The tears seems unending. ..
The heart uncontrolled. ..
The way to my home...
Blocked with an open door.

I've seen the worst of it,
I'm standing at the same place.
It's been a thing to forget,
It was kinda my safe place.

As if the world slows down,
With my each passing breath.
As if my heart trying to fight,
It's way out my chest.
As if I'm soon gonna wake up,
From this life in nightmare.
As if I could wash it all way,
With nothing but my tears.
As if it would stop being inside me,
If I take it out on paper.
As if I can fill this void,
With just my sheer passion,
As if I can go back,
and start from the beginning.

No words can describe,
What it's like to be here.
No words can portray,
This collateral damage.

It's a funeral of my heart,
Don't know how I've survived.
The faces I love,
Wanna run away from and just hide.

Can I say what I want?
Would it matter?....absolutely not.
Everything is a waste..
Every effort in vain..
Every moment drags..
Every life a sentence..

I'm alone in every memory,
Why I miss.. anything wasn't here..
Why does it feels...
As if you left in this very moment.

I won't show anymore...
The feelings I have.
I won't relish being in pain...
This poem will be the last.
188 · Oct 2019
Magic!
Gulishta Oct 2019
Innocent young eyes..
Laying awake at night,
It all seems bright,
The dreams full of starlight.

Schemes resides mind,
The path plain and wide,
Popular among the population,
Be ready for surprise.

The world is small,
The hearts are smaller,
Dance on your own rhythm,
Stand above or stand taller.

Step ahead of steps,
Take one at a time,
Falling was never part of the dream,
But the core of the life.

As the time passes,
Still hold on to your dreams tight,
It's magic in your hands,
Don't bet on someone else's mind.

Ask to learn....or learn to ask,
Don't be ashamed of your yearning,
Put behind the fear of rejection,
Make it so...if the time isn't right.

It's true... you can achieve it,
Just have the courage to work it,
Don't rest till you get what you want,
And yes!!...you're still magic!!.
187 · Mar 2018
A lost love.
Gulishta Mar 2018
He came to my life..
When I wasn't expecting him.
He stayed for four days.
And I lost my everything to him.

I didn't know how that happened! !
We were just doing what felt right.
Now I can't get him out of my mind.

I want him to come back.
I told him to go.
I wish there was another world.
Where he and I can have more.

Now I wish him the happiness.
And someone to fill his loneliness.
To have a good and fulfill life.
And a love to last a lifetime.
186 · Nov 2017
Life.
Gulishta Nov 2017
Some says it's a journey,
Some says it's an experience.
I say it's a roller coastar.
The exhilaration of going up,
The calmness of coming down.
The pulsing of excitement,
The serenity of the quiet.
The tears of heartbreak.
And the tears of joy.
The butterflies of falling in love.
The gut ranching feeling of loosing someone.
The togetherness of family.
The companionship of the friendship.
The celebrations of a new life.
The funerals and goodbyes.
The beauty of mother nature.
And the ugly side of humans.
The innocence of a child.
The aqua and wild life.
It's really hard to contain it in just few lines.
184 · Dec 2017
Come slowly.
Gulishta Dec 2017
Under the darkness of the night.
Under the brightness of starlight.
Come slowly my love.
Come slowly.

Under the moon high up in the sky.
Hearing the mums singing the lullaby.
Come slowly my love
Come slowly.

A night without the sunrise.
A night to claim you as mine.
Come slowly my love.
Come slowly.
183 · Dec 2017
To my friend.
Gulishta Dec 2017
You like me,
As you like a film star.
You respect me,
But want to do that from afar.
You wanna have me in your life,
Not sure as what? . or how far? ?

I've got qualities you wanna have,
I'm admireable as you've said.
We're not lovers, but more than friends.
I think too much, as I've tried to understand.

Now it's clear as water,
Won't be getting any doubt.
We've fought, yelled, cried and got hurt.
Don't know what was that about.

I can't complete you,
If you don't want to be.
You are not happy,
But you wants me to be.
And I can feel your pain,
I can't help it.
Please promise me to try ,
You can overcome from it.
180 · May 2019
Untitled
Gulishta May 2019
I know that

        you are waiting

                    For me to say something

                                    Like always.

But this time

        I'm choosing

                     To stay quite.
180 · Dec 2019
Unwelcome goodbye.
Gulishta Dec 2019
Dreams I see
Dreams of you .....with me
Dreams I live
Dreams of us....I see.

Wrapped around my heart
I feel your fingers
Bleeding through
The warmth ....icy.

Deceptive real
Virtual perception
The truth I see
The truth of us....in reality.
179 · Jul 2019
A Life before death.
Gulishta Jul 2019
On a certain moment of your life,
You will think about. ..
What is it that you've achieved? ?or
What is it that you've earned?

Is it the material you've collected? ?
Or the emotions you've felt??
Is it the grand gestures you've received?
Or the moments of eternal peace? ?

Are the relations made for life?
Or the life made for relations? ?
Does love conquer all?
Or it doesn't matter at all. .

A life before the death. .
A life lived without the depth. .
Insignificant. ..extra...or ordinary. .
A life of big.....or a life of small? ?
So many questions. ...
No one answers anymore.
177 · Dec 2019
Less than forever
Gulishta Dec 2019
You hide beneath the mask,
You see through the glass.
You run around in shadows,
You lurk beyond the dark.

You're saved from the desire,
You're learning the truth.
You're too vacant to hire,
Just something I went through.

Dark among the stars,
You refuse to shine.
Too bound too broken,
To protect or to hide?.

Dreamlike state,
The life passing through .
Wasting away my soul,
The world turned too blue.

You were a part of me,
Was I the part of you?
It's all lost and forgotten,
Crashing the break through.

You made me believe,
You made me hate,
You've shown me the world,
You introduced me to pain,
You are the purpose,
You are despair,
You are my sole destroyer,
Yet I still love... less than forever.
177 · Dec 2017
Untitled
Gulishta Dec 2017
I'm sleeping or waking up??.
Whatever it is,I think it's enough.
Reaching across,
The courage to fight.
Is it worth the risk?
That's left to decide .

I'm calm or I'm numb?
I'm empty or ready to burst?
Is this peace that I'm coming from?
Or is it the eye of the storm?

This feeling that surrounds.
My feet above the ground.
I'm walking against the wind,
Every layer coming unwind.

Standing here alone,
Deciding where to go.
Wishing for someone,
To hold hands and to let go.
175 · Feb 2018
Better than me.
Gulishta Feb 2018
The things I've never said.
The emotions I was too afraid to express.
Why?..why I didn't tell you?
What you mean to me.
Why ?..why I didn't accept your love?.
Instead of being mean to you.
Is it too late now??
Can I say it to you somehow?
That ..
For me you are the rotation of the earth.
That I miss you with my every passing breath.
You are the sunshine on the black stormy night.
You are my smile.
You are my expression,
when its hard for me to express.
You are my joy in the time of stress..
I wanna say come back to me. ..
But I won't.
Because baby!!!...you deserve far better than me.
175 · Nov 2017
No us!.
Gulishta Nov 2017
What do you actually think?,
When you think about me.
What do you actually see me as?
If there isn't any us.

Do you actually care about me?
If we are just you and me.
Do you care that I care for you?
Or you just want me want you.

You want me to care.
But your mind isn't even here.
You want me to come along.
But still want to be alone.

You want to have a home in my heart,
But refusing to give away yours.
175 · Jul 2018
A message.
Gulishta Jul 2018
I asked you to let it go,
    You kept chasing me .
I told you there isn't any us,
   You choose to ignore me.
I asked you to knock it off,
   You kept being cheesy.
After all these things,
     How can you blame me?
On ever turn ....
              I feel your watching.
At every moment. ..
              I see you waiting.
Even if I wanted to..
               I can't force the feeling.
Am I actually reason for your heartbreak? ?
     Or you just refuse to see it?
If I hadn't make myself clear. ..
   You are nowhere near my head or heart baby.
174 · Jul 2019
Drowning.
Gulishta Jul 2019
Breathing under the water,
Lost in the sea.
One step away from drowning,
But the fire keeps burning.

Losing my mind,
Losing the sanity.
Grasping the straws,
Before I loose reality.

One breath,
One blink,
One smile,
And sink.

No ropes to tie,
No anchor to pull ashore.
No hands out to reach,
No faith left anymore.

The beat of the heart,
Slowing to dull rhythm.
The Love I had for water,
The reason of my Dimiss.
173 · Nov 2017
Rise from the ashes.
Gulishta Nov 2017
Oh! I've gone crazy,
I couldn't stay away.
You slept serenely,
While I lie awake.

You told me the promises
You told me the lies.
You did everthing to hurt me.
While I tried to keep us alive .

You just go now,
I gave you the permission.
I was a fool to try,
Or just knew the importance.

But I won't Fall.
I won't give you the satisfaction.
And I don't care,
I got burn in the process.
Oh! you just wait and see,
I will rise from the ashes.
172 · Dec 2019
Tears dry.
Gulishta Dec 2019
Anger,
              Pain,
                      And burning eyes.
Hurt,
          Despair,
                         And despise.
Hate,
           Blame,
                        And smile.
Flames,
             Blisters,
                           In disguise.
Tears left,
                   And Tears dry.
169 · Jul 2018
Clean slate.
Gulishta Jul 2018
You don't know where to begin,
               But it's not too late.
I'll take you there don't worry,
               I won't let you escape.
Even if I'm a consolation,
               Don't try to manipulate.
You are my salvation,
                I can be your clean slate.
168 · May 2019
She
Gulishta May 2019
She
The look on her face,
Told the story of her life.
The wrinkles on her cheeks,
The fine laugh lines.
The scrutiny in her gaze,
Her guarded smile.

The roughened hands,
Fingers having the needle holes.
A born nurture,
Patches of skin in knots.
Palms losing the soft touch,
But still filled with warmth.

The hard personality,
With the gentle core.
The protector in disguise,
The fierce fighter soul.

The reasons,
The practical world.
The emotions,
And the lesson learned.

The up and the downs,
The highs and around.
The fort of adventures,
She's the one holding the ground.

She laugh,   she cry.
She sing,    she fly.
She teach,    she smile.
She hurts,     she hides.
168 · Dec 2017
The morning breeze.
Gulishta Dec 2017
The morning breeze. ..
        Stings on cheeks. ...
            Making them rosy red. ...
                Doing the work of caffeine fix.

Waking up from sleepy stupor....
       Floating through hairs. ....
            Making them look like the bird nest...
          
Fingers chilled. ...
    Shivering bodies...
        Chattering teeth .....
             Reminding that we're still alive.
167 · Dec 2020
Reason is me
Gulishta Dec 2020
Oblivion...
       A mirage of an existence
Passion...
       Mediocrity being persistent.
Drifting...
      Crash landing on a pile of disappointment.

The walls built to protect,
The walls of sand castle.
The walls keep closing,
The walls becomes the world,

Putting up with empty values,
Dictation on every step.
The Barriers built to teach,
The Barriers meet amends.

Should've tried harder
Should've work for my existence
Should've told to mind their business
Should've built my own castle.

Cause the reason..
The reason I couldn't find myself
The reason I lost my breath
The reason concrete cemented
And castle turned to cage..

The reason my wings broke
The reason I forget to fly
The reason there's no ground beneath my feet...
And the reason is me.
166 · Apr 2018
Have you ever? ?
Gulishta Apr 2018
Have you ever felt??
As if you are watching your own life from far away?.
Have you ever felt? ?
As if this thing thats inside you.,it has a shape and aching presence that's eating you away.?
Have you ever felt? ?
As if you don't even recognise yourself?.
Have you ever felt? ?
Like a candle burning from both sides?.
Have you ever get tired??
Of always being sane and good and nice?.
Have you ever regretted??
Letting your decision get away??
Have you ever looked into the mirror?. .
And promised yourself to be a little bit more selfish? ?..
163 · Apr 2020
Anymore.
Gulishta Apr 2020
I tried to walk slow
To always look for you
To take the life in pieces
But I can't anymore...

To hold inside my heart
Your pains your secrets
To look the other way
When you broke me to pieces.

To love you with all of me
To be your only constant
To be the love you hate
To let you be my only mistake.

I was struggling to find
The love I hoped for myself
But the dreams I lived
The dreams of your eyes..

The light was yours
While I burn like a candle
There was only a spark
But we made the fire.

A star shine in the sky
You made me the night
I hold on to your darkness
Onto the hope to be alright.

But the harder I hold
The faster you slipped
The dreams of us forgotten
I'll let you live in your bliss.

Maybe it's worth saving
But I can't save it anymore
Maybe it's my destiny
But maybe.... it's not.
163 · Nov 2017
It's okay.
Gulishta Nov 2017
Once we plant a tree of love.
If it blossomed ..would have been nice.
But it didn't. .so it's okay.
Nothing happened. .it's okay.
We couldn't be together. .it's okay.
There's nothing left for me..it's okay.

You were my journey,I was stranger.
You were the first note of the song,
I was the chorus.
You used to look like mine.
Like you were made for me.
Like we were meant to be.
But it didn't happened. ..it's okay.

Now tears and heartbreak are my best friends.
But I still have a smile on my face.
And even if I don't get a single thing out of this life..it's okay.

Oh life....
I've called for you.
Thought and nourished you.
But you didn't like it.
But you didn't believe it.
I was trying to make it up to you.
Now your eyes are upset with me.
But it's okay..
Inspired by a hindi song..one of my favourite.
163 · Feb 2019
Closure.
Gulishta Feb 2019
How do you see the light in anyone,,?
When all you've known is darkness.
How do you trust anyone,,?
When the one that hurt the most had seemed harmless.
How do you chase away your demons,,?
When you've lost all your innocence.

When the small things become bigger,
When all you can think about is betrayal,
When the purgatory is perpetual,
Is it really about revenge or is it the only way to complete the circle.?

Would you wish upon yourself another loss..?
If you couldn't have the victory.
Would you fight when you know..
You'll give into the attraction eventually.

Or is it better to live in fear?..
Rather than becoming it yourself..
Has it really been a question?..
If it can provide that much need closure.
162 · Nov 2017
I saw a man.
Gulishta Nov 2017
I saw a man walking by..
Hunched in himself.
Like he wanted to be left alone.
Like it's hurting him,
The sun that just shone .

He was a resemblance of the night.
Cold ,dark and all dressed in black.
With an aura of loneliness.
A walking example of heartbreak.

Maybe he was going to say goodbye.
Or Maybe he was coming back from it.
I wanted to reach out.
To make him less lonely.
To tell him "it's not it".

Then I realised. .
I'm the resemblance of the night.
he was a figment of my imagination.
Just to feel less lonely.
OrMaybe he was the other half of me.
162 · Oct 2019
Unsaid
Gulishta Oct 2019
What is the meaning?
Of this thing called life.
Where is the existence?
That is mine.

A hard earned trust,
A moment of judgement.
A faith loosing lustre,
A tainted portrait perfection.

An iron clad control,
An emotion sneaking in.
A quietly hidden persona,
An ocean to be dived in.

The projection of expectations,
Dull echo of breathing.
A drifted soul towards,
A friend turns to an enemy.

A trust broken,
A soul shattered.
A bond mutilated,
The one not being a bother.

A game of chess,
Everyone already ahead.
A move of betrayal,
The army half dead.

Sole focus to destroy,
No one even looked back.
The doubt of worth arisen,
but the question left unsaid.
162 · Mar 2019
Confused cute creator.
Gulishta Mar 2019
Confused cute creator,
A habit of keeping it inside.
I've died in every moment,
For you to uncover it,
Waited...for you to come outside.

Mysterious mystical moments,
A smile worth millions.
Hardened shell around it,
My heart took a hammer,
For yours...to cracking it.

Dangerous discovered desires,
An ignorant tactic.
Looking the other way and around,
Changes the courses of action,
For you...just to avoid it.

Ever expressive eyes,
An emotion couldn't able to hide.
Watching beyond the surface,
A contact held,
For us...to embrace it.

Failure free future,
An attempt being fruitless.
A break up without relation,
My heart couldn't reach,
To you...what's been your innocence.
159 · Jan 2018
To the beginning.
Gulishta Jan 2018
Going back to the time,
When everything was bright as sunshine.
When there wasn't any regret or longing.
When there wasn't any heartbreak or betrayal.
When there wasn't any Lost dreams..
And I wasn't a lost soul.
When there was a world full of hopes and day dreams.
Favourite books and ice creams.
When our greatest worry was ...
  How to stay out late..
Ohh how I wish to go back to those days.

Now ,
I came back to the place,
                      Where we started it all.
A place of firsts and forever.
A place that still feel like home.
A place where you were 20ft away.
Where We tried several times but couldn't stay away.
A place where now I feel like an intruder.
Just like people living in your house being strangers.

I came back to see where things started to fall. .
Did I read you wrong??
Or our bond just wasn't that strong? ?
I couldn't stay with you..
Even if I wanted to..
You are not the person you used to be.
So I came back to the beginning. .
To search back that boy who was my soul.
And With whom I had it all.
158 · Jan 2018
Let down gently.
Gulishta Jan 2018
From the moment we met.
                 To the moment you left.
I knew you gonna hurt me,
                    Gonna let me down..
      Oh! You let me down so gently.

You were always right.
                 I always at the fault.
I showered you with trust,affection and friendship .
                You kept your's hidden in a vault.

I was quick to response.
          Always eager for more.
You were hesitant in everything you did.
           Wasn't able to assure.

It was a modern day fairy-tale.
       Not at all a happily ever after.
But you did leave a scar behind.
       For me to remember you forever.

You are the mistake I don't regret.
      I stepped into it aware and intentionally.
But I didn't count to get my heart involved.
And getting "let down gently".
157 · Mar 2018
DEMON.
Gulishta Mar 2018
An uncertain situation.
A faithless faith.
A hope shattered facing the eyes.
A life living in vain.

Crumbs!! That's all what left.
Hands too small to grasp..
Blank minds...
And hallow chest.
Unbreakable bonds...
And the treasure chest.

The hidden darkness,
That comes to surface.
Every corner occupies. .
No place to escape.

Chains around the ankles..
Bogeyman lurking from every side.
Crying....
Trying to reach out and to hide.
But imagine the surprise. .
When demon came with beloved face
And warm eyes.
156 · Jan 2019
PRESENCE.
Gulishta Jan 2019
You went so far away....
But I still feel your presence.

Like, when I'm standing beside the water,
Watching my reflection washed away by angry waves.

When I'm laying underneath that old oak tree,
In back garden of grandma's house,
Seeing a family of veronica's coming back home and dusting their wings.

When I'm walking down the streets,
For no other reason then to just keep walking.

When I'm doing nothing but sitting on the porch swing,
With the sun setting behind me,
The feeling of nostalgia and end of comparatively better day.

Or when I feel the first rays of the rising sun,
Through the east facing window on my face.
Hoping and praying for another better day.

I've always felt your presence,

In the silent moment in between the conversations,
When I'm trying to make a point.
Or as a constant voice in my head naming my conscience.

In everything that you taught me,
And In everything that I do with my life.

It feels too small of the words,
But what I regret the most,
Is never saying thank you or goodbye.
156 · May 2018
Another day. .
Gulishta May 2018
Another day of waiting,
Another day of hoping,
Another day of thinking,this might be it.
Another day of feeling drained,needing to recharge it.
Another day of praying,
Another day of realising ,God have another plans.
Another day of trying to get it out of my head.
Another day of working on being optimist.
Another day of being bone tired ,and trying not to resist.
Another day of moving,because it's required.
Another day of not letting my mind loose.
Another day of wishing to have a choice to choose.
Another day of smiling for others.
Another day of living just see another.
Another day of waiting ,
Another day of Hoping,
Just another one praying.
155 · Jul 2018
Moment of the time.
Gulishta Jul 2018
I don't know who we are.....
               Half of the time.
All I know we exist. ...
               In the moment of time.

I don't want you...
               Out my side.
Just let me have you...
               One more time.
I'm trying to hold on...
                Let's take a pause for a while.
You don't have to go over many heights.
                Just grace me with your smile.
Don't be afraid to fall,
                I will be here to catch you every time.
Because we are...
                The moment of the time.
154 · Jul 2018
IF....
Gulishta Jul 2018
When I sat alone and look inside, all I found was solid heartache and longing.

Heartache of getting too close to something but still having it out of reach.

Longing of having that thing out of reach but that doesn't stop my heart from thinking about "what if"?.

I don't know if it's the person I miss or the feeling..
I don't know if it's the reasons it didn't happen or me..
I don't know if I wanted to survive or die trying..
I don't know if it's the eyes were at the fault or your smile..
I don't know if I was the one to drove you away or insecurities inside..
I don't know if .........
I don't know.
153 · Sep 2019
When Angel fall.
Gulishta Sep 2019
Prime and proper
Smile be sober
Blend don't bother
Dull be copper.

Hide
don't let them see
Ride
You will me
Cry
Before you leave
Laugh
If you please.

It's fate
You will be happy
Grow up
Do not be sappy
It's *******
they call it preppy
Oh c'mon
I am your daddy.

Angel
You grew up fast
My pride
You make it last
The struggle
It's part of life
You are
My brightest child.

The weight is yours
Don't let it fall
Don't bother denying
You owe me all.

Eyes
Keep them dry
I've given you wings
Don't  you dare fly.

Time
Let it pass by
You have everything
Why you choose to defy.

The mistake
Was all mine
I've chosen this
With my sane mind

Crumble
if I have to
It's not mine
Even the sacrifice.
153 · Jan 2018
Invisible.
Gulishta Jan 2018
I walk around with
My chest wide open.
My heart ripped out.
Nobody can see it.

My world's falling apart.
No land beneath my feet.
My soul crushed into
Millions of pieces.
Nobody can see them.

My eyes bleeding tears.
My hands outstretched for help.
I'm crying for mercy.
No one to can hear it.

I'm invisible. ..
     Nobody can see me.
151 · Jun 2019
For him.
Gulishta Jun 2019
A battle without a cause,
A fight already lost.
An empty smile aside,
Not much there to hide.

No stain on the canvas,
A bloodbath white.
A sacred holy place,
An unwanted desired mind.

A love lost in lie,
Hiding in plain sight.
Single longing for affection,
An affection for what you apologise.

The give and take,
This aggression and pain.
Run run and hide,
An impossible escape.

Pen down the thoughts,
Read and enjoy.
The silver lining keeping,
Tears drowns in vain.
151 · Jun 2019
Destined.
Gulishta Jun 2019
With the promise to never see each other again,
we started our journey on the separate paths.
Crossing the bridges,
Mounting the hurdles,
When we reached our destined destinations,
We were facing the same side.
150 · May 2019
Destiny or not..
Gulishta May 2019
Strength of your soul,
Is what keeps you going on.
It's easy to break the bones,
What's tough is to learn to keep on holding on.

Destiny is not something concrete,
You can mend it according to your will.
The hard work, the passion,
The habit of not taking a no for an answer.
You break it, start it over,
Keeping going at it,
Until,it is what you want it to be.

Luck plays a crucial role,
But I've seen people own it.
The power you possess within yourself,
No luck or Destiny have any weight over it.

So, stop accepting the crapy deals,
Stop saying it is what it is.
Stand up, pull your weight up.
Start making a new path,
You will have what you want,
Destiny or not.
149 · Aug 2019
Perfect.
Gulishta Aug 2019
Come closer if you please,
I'll calm the storm you're trying to ease.
Being pliant in your hands,
Oh baby!..I won't make demands.

Give me anything you have..
It's alright. ...I won't ask for what you can't.
In this unknown we're living in,
I promise...I won't expect.

It's all hidden in the depth of your soul,
We're something to be proud...just keep on holding on.
A secret closest to the heart...
To only us it's known.

Navigate your way through your heart,
You won't ever be astray.
I know what it's like...
Oh baby. ..I ain't got no complaints.

You win...I'll lose,
You lose...I'll lose.
The argument we keep having,
Maybe it's us. ..trying not to chose.

We are perfect the way we are,
I don't want anything more.
I've got the most precious thing,
Nothing else can be given anymore.
149 · Sep 2019
Murder mystery.
Gulishta Sep 2019
A double edged sword,
Found with a blood stain.
No sign of struggle,
A crime of passion or pain?.

The quite among the siren,
Blood boiling to sustain.
Everything pristine white,
The sky started to rain.

Body nowhere to be found,
Did crime happen at all?
Everything back to normal,
What was the hustle for?

The prime time mystery,
Or the desire to destroy it all?
The professional mercenary exists,
Or the work done inside the home?.

A double edged sword,
Washed from it's stain.
The shining blade recover,
A life lost in vain.
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