Javanne

Javanne Jan 2019

When we speak
Am I foolish
To cut our talks short?

In my mind
I spill and spew
Everything
And nonsense

I would
Love to pick your brains
And listen to every word
That leaves your mouth
To my questions

To hear your thoughts
Would save me
Sleepless endless nights

But I feel-
I know
My words are
Nothing more than
Fodder

A shudder
ripples through me
And though it hurts
When I bid you adieu
You have more pressing things
Than my unsolicited desires

#poem #poetry #sad

Javanne Jan 2019

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It’s been awhile
Since we last
Touched our minds

Since we had
A link
Where both of our
Words scar each other

I miss carving them
Into your skull
And seeing
Flowers sprout from your chest
In abundance

I miss feeling your words
Dig deep
And pry open my own

I miss that

I hope you’re doing well
And carving another
I hope they enjoy it
Just as much as I did

¯\_(ツ)_/¯ If you wanna hear me read it: https://vocaroo.com/i/s1SPFIOR7fx8

#poem #poetry #reflective

Javanne Jan 2019

Stalemate

My
Emotions
Are a mess
I've been lying
In bed
thinking of the lies
I tell myself
To get an ounce of rest

I think
Of whether I am only
Lusting after your body
Or Somebody
That I can sink myself
And my being
In to and
****** with

Oh sweet nectar
envelop me
Over and Over
Never stop...

Or if I'm
Caring for
A heart that is connected to the wrong valve
That is trying to pry itself away from
My rib cage
To find it's other half
It's you I'm sure-
Wait

I want your thighs-
No I want your smile-
No I need your lips on mine-
No I want your hands interlocked with mine-

NO
May Zeus be doomed for eternity
So he may too feel what he has done to me!

A puzzle piece
With no shape or form
I am
A mess of emotions
Lying in a bed
With no rest
In sight

Until it clicks
I want both
But both are never coming to me
Never from you

So I bore holes into my ceiling
Feeling
This non-existent tragedy
Befall
Wicked Ol' me

#poem #poetry #angst #sad #love

Javanne Jan 2019

In bed

Let us talk
About how flowers
And Perfume
Are a waste on you
Because your scent
Is already striking
And winsome

I'm liking the way
You never stray
From the moon
And how you gaze
At it's sheer luminescence
Even though you yourself
Outshine it

A blessing
Is what I murmur to you
You say it's not true
But do not be modest
I'm being honest
And the best is
That you
Are the only being
I cherish

In this moment
This very moment
Right now
Here
As my eyes fumble
Before finding yours

I smile
Knowing that you
Are all I could ever hope for

¯\_(ツ)_/¯ If you wanna hear me read it: https://vocaroo.com/i/s0kgQohd5ZIf

#happy #poem #poetry #love #awww

Javanne Jan 2019

Identical

How many of you
Have been told
That you walk
And act
Like another
That isn't you?

How many of you
Have been told
That the way you smile
Makes them reminisce
About an era
That you're sure
You have never taken part in?

How many of you
Have been stopped
Only to see their anguish
That you aren't
Who they thought you were?

How many of you
Have actually started to believe
That you are the one
They think and talk about?
. . .
How long will I be called your name ? Tell me!
How long will I have to bare your scars and burdens? Tell me!
How long will I have to tell people that I am not you? Tell me!
And watch their crestfallen faces
In places I've never been

Will the sun rise
and push you aside
So that I may shine one day?
Maybe

But this cycle never ends
And I brace myself
Everyday
To be called you
Yet again

#sad #poetry #poem #cry

Javanne Jan 2019

Duality

Have you ever wanted
To write
The most depressing
Of poetry
And bathe in its toxic energy?

I do right now
I want to drown
In its gravitational pull
And down and down and down
To an abyss that treats me well

I write best there
But I'm trying
To come up
and breathe in
lilies and salt-breeze
And to surround myself
In Gaia's nurture

I write best here too
I soar higher
I Chase with Skoll and Hati
Love drums in my mind
Elegance entwined

But I am tested
That pull keeps tripping me
beckoning me
showering me
With it's coquettish smile

But I tie my laces
And gulp back rising bile
And breathe in:
"I love lilies" I exhale

And a petal wilts before me...

A/N: On a happier note Happy New Year everyone!

#poem #poetry #sad #think #cry

Javanne Dec 2018

A promise

How many times
Have I told you
That you are the most enchanting deity
To make me believe
That there is a higher being

That gave my eyes something to admire
A soul as pure as fire
A town crier
you have made of me

Endless adulation
No state of frustration
Emits from your being
Except when I upset you
I swear, It was only teasing
How pleasing your tone

It doesn't idle like mine

I could be shipwrecked
And I'd gladly die of thirst
to hear such euphony

You see?
You are a muse to me
But so much more
Than words
I no longer demur

To these feelings
I give approbation
To our souls
I pray for synchronisation

But above all else
I want mine and your love
To never get lost
in translation

A continuation of "Finding Words"

#poem #poetry #awww #love #happy