You say that "one day you'll be great,"
Well, I guess you didn't lie one bit.
You never left it up for debate;
Making our heads split
With the information you so badly wanted.

Giveth thou mindful song,
And mix thine heartbeat
Ye shall see how far we fall
To see how far we fail
Only stopping and starting with a stall.

Driving us all along
To our horrid defeat
You tell us, "oh ye of so little faith!"
Only for thy to then bail
You little pathological wraith.

Oh, you wonder why so many fall away
Only to be the leading force
Ye eternal animosity towards our futures
Yet thy say you here for us to succeed.

You started something;
when you told us our feelings matter.
You started something;
when you said that you cared for our future.
You started something;
when you have us the reason to express.

You started something;
and we hope that it's finished.

Numbing Rage

Is it ok to feel this numb
Is it ok to feel this angry
I just wish to express myself
But it keeps getting taken away

Do you even care for me
Or does your religion force you to?
Saying you care is different to showing
I guess I figured that out too late

You say your a Christian; a saint,
But the way you act tells a different story
So boldly you choose, to make me cry
Do you even care that I want to die?

My life keeps getting taken away
Its not even possible to express myself
I guess its in my best interest to not be angry.
I guess its ok to feel this numb.

The day before this
We talked about love
The day before this
We said we’re forever

Clearly you didn’t mean it
When you said you’d love me
Sitting underneath our favorite tree
With only me being here

Two years wasted on this
This thing you called “love”
I have a few questions before you go.
Why? Was my love not enough?

Was this cause of all my flaws
Was it my fault that you fell out of love
Hoping to see you one last time
Before we officially ended

But now I’m stuck here
My back against our tree
Craving for it back
But now I know it wasn’t for me

This date shall be known
As the day that I died
My love for that tree
Has it been all in vain?

Looking at you from across the room
Ink mashed up my walls
Nightmares of a time awaits
Only a day away

Crinkling glass of my windowsill
The icy roads of frost
Took some time to figure out
That I am lost

Broken down starships
Were never meant fly
Tilted heads up
Looking at the skyline

Our love was never there
It was really just a dream
I want to wake up
But it’s hard to flee

I’m not gonna say sorry
For the stuff I’ve done
I’m so **** tired
Of all of this *******

Look at the sky; So Starry
Seeing my failed attempted to outrun
From such desired
Making me do it

Seeing me suffering
Everything just buffering

Sitting in this desolate place
Staring off into space
Missing the one you loved
Who is probably up above

Heart aching for their touch
Wanting to feel so much
They have come and gone
Hoping I went as well

But life has a strong grip
Making everyone trip
Pulling us right to the start
To relive that pain

The pain of regret~
Of guilt~
Of sadness~
Of numbness.

Being ****** dry
No more spillage
****** in by you
The darkness of abyss

Seeing you passing by
My heart pillage
The sashes blue
Of being dismiss

My feelings don’t matter
That’s what you said
Laid on the silver platter
The thinning thread

True love that you shatter
Coming like a bull’s head
Spearing me with your ****** dagger
Marking me with your bloodshed.