Two young adults
Smile at one another
Both with similar interest
He was a nerd and playful
No experience with women
She was the popular girl
Well rounded liked by most
The chemistry between them
It was intense magical moments
Spending time together
Getting to know one another
We cant all be free,
We cant all be meant to be
Some have strick law
Others can sit back and not care
We cant all be free
Now i know that
Since youre not here with me
all i've done is wish for you
wish for you to love me like you say you still do
wish for your hand in mine
wish for your happiness
wish for you
then i later realized i wasn't wishing
i realized i was falling for you and those were just my hopes and dreams
and i was...scared
but...happy with you
and you seemed happy so i went along with it
and now here i am
in the middle of math class wishing i was with you and only you
people say when you found the one you will know, right away.
that it will be love at first sight.
i think that’s a lie.
i think that when you find the one it won’t happen when you expect it.
i think it will be more of a process.
something will come up and you realize you love that about that person.
i think you will be going through your day,
and pure terror flows through you when you realize you’re in love.
i don’t think it will be some happy, magical moment that makes you realize, “that’s my someone.”
if it was that easy, everyone would be a little bit more open and accepting about it.
but its not and that’s why so many people hate it.
because it is filled with agonizing terror, but worst of all fear of losing them.
fear of the unknown.
“what if they don’t love me?”
“what if they stop loving me?”
“what if it all ends in us absolutely hating each other?”
we all wish for the best, but the thing is, love is the most unknown, random thing ever.
it sneaks up on you and jumps on you when you least expect it.
when you don’t want it.
sometimes i feel as if dying would be less painful than you.
you loved me no matter what i did.
no matter how i treated you,
you came right back.
and loved me just as much as you did before.
i hated the way we couldn't walk away from each other without leaving wounds.