There are so many things I want to say
I love you.
I'm sorry if I keep throwing guilt trips to make you stay.
You did hurt me, broke my heart in fact.
My first love.
My partner.
My universe
And everything good I've ever believed in.
I hope you'll grow.
The selfish part of me wants you back
You say I love you and I flatline
Because each time you say it after we parted I feel a part of me dying.
Healing takes time. But it hurts so **** much to keep going.
I hear your laugh and I feel it shake my own ribcage.
We accidently brush hands and I feel sparks too.
And I'm still falling for you.

I hung out with you and that ache didn't go away. It's consuming me and your solar flares are burning through my skin. My heart quickens when your hand brushed mine walking. We used to hold hands every where we went. I can't get over you. I never will.

"You're a catch cira, you'll find someone to be the star in your eye"

But you're the only star in my eye I only want you

You're the one I want you're the one I need

I will always love you. Im not cut out for relationships. But you have to do what it takes to make you happy.

I spent a over a year intertwining my life with yours.
We would talk about forever
Now you left me, we're still best friends and you are my everything
I can't seem to get out of bed
My guteral sobbing is shaking every bone as I write this
I love you
Please please be with me
They say sometimes what you want is not what you need.
I ******* need you.
You're my everything

i refuse to live in this fear
my own mind a cage, i was left there
rotting, sitting as i was my own prisoner
fears that they were right im nothing but a sinner
if only i had a key
if only i could see
past this foggy haze of a mind
and if i could fast forward to where my worst days are behind
i will strive, finding a purpose in this world
for i refuse to give up, my story is still untold
and i know its not just me, there is others
fathers, brothers, sisters and mothers
those who have given up to early
even i have tried, i almost succeeded nearly
for no one has not heard your loved ones cries
and knows where heart break lies
keep going do not give up, life has downs
but through it all you must stand your ground
for the mentally ill, for those whose tongues have been taken
who have been used, touched without permission given
stay strong, stand tall
show respect and love to all
Black, White, Hispanic, Asian
Jewish, Atheist, Muslim, and Christian
For we all are human we all bleed the same color
then we are the same and must stand up for one another

i saw the world in your eyes
but you looked in mine
and found nothing at all

you played the cards
i was drunk and falling in love
you took my will
my will to love from my lips
i mistook your lust for love
will i ever learn the difference