infection
infection
infection
infection
infection spreads among innocents
even faster than ever
The world goes inside out
falling apart in a great collapse
of our childish dreams
Hope acts as Novacain
for all the jaded
but no matter what,the feelings
have faded
We
****** the masses
then raise them
again
again
again
we fall all over again.

crying in bathrooms
I slam the panic button
but they disconnected the wires
Or did they disconnect me?
I pray for others' sins at night--
why pray for mine?

not like they'll be forgiven now.

Kairos has passed;
it's too late to fix it
or even dream of the future
(we could've had)

So I guess I'll remember you instead.

being one of the last things on your list;
just before sleep,
right after everything else,
sometimes
not even on it.

There aren't any pretty words for this.
There aren't really any words at all.
After you said goodnight (and I ripped your heart in half because I'm angry and stupid and absolutely evil) I went to the bathroom and nearly vomited.
I tried to cry. I could feel the hours and hours of tears filling up my head but every time I tried, I would deflate like a balloon. The tears just wouldn't come. I nearly vomited again.
I nearly went into the kitchen and got the bottle of peppermint schnapps to get myself drunk so I didn't have to think about how I just absolutely ruined my relationship but when I tried to stand I collapsed on my bed.
I tried to go get a knife to teach myself a lesson but I didn't have any bandaids and I couldn't get up anymore.
I have never felt more evil or more wrong or more hurtful.
If you're reading this, please forgive me.
Please, dear God, forget what I said.
I'm begging you.
My anger got the best of me.
Please don't let me define the worst of you.
And even as I type, I can hear you forming your break up speech.
I can hear your stomach trying to digest itself.
I can hear you crying and thinking about how horrible you are.
And I made it worse.
It's my job to protect you and I failed. I hurt you. I hurt you so badly.
I can't
I can't do it
I thinking I'm going to throw up again

Of course you're right.
Why wouldn't you be?
You've always been the smart one,
Out of us three.

It's a shame about the arrogance,
You'd be better without it.
It's not your fault,
The bad traits come from Dads side.

But lately you're making me panic.
It's always been about your pride,
And any time I question it,
You scream, Shout then start to cry,
And I just cant handle it.

You're damaged beyond belief.
I know that's not nice to say,
But I feel as if you use me,
To bully and lead astray.

I'll put up with it for now,
But one day I'll finally snap,
And then I will find my way out,
Of your demented and cruel trap.

today's kids went from
'I want to be a famous doctor, saving lives!'
to
'I want to be a famous viner, geting all those likes!'

That moment when you eat like a pig, feel full.
But you continue to chow like the world's ending tommorrow.
Today's that day! Today's pig out day

Endless expanses of ice and snow
Getting colder with nowhere to go
A place of terrible vice and sin
Where evil rules all that reside within
No escape from the deadly chill
Or the freezing winds, sure to ****
A place that will rip happiness asunder
A place of horrifying wonders
There is no hope, no sanctuary to find
Forget being rescued if you are left behind
A place that tears my mind apart
This is a frozen wasteland, this is my heart