My arms
And my legs
My toes
And down my roses
Are not the shade of brown
That you can't frown upon
Too tired
And too embedded
Want you
To just exist

High school hallways
Always so full
But always empty
I walk trying to imagine
That you're not selectively rewarding
But you always are
You were empty when I was
13
14
15
16
17
17
17
17
17
When will he get to experience you
He will
Won't he

I wanna be an eternal teenager
I don't wanna have problems
I don't wanna be a slave
I just wanna misbehave
I just wanna be an ape

16 years of torment
That I one represented
I wanna be ascendant

I don't know how my brain works
I don't wanna figure it out
I want to freeze time

Sometimes I forget who I am
What I look like
I forget what I've done
I forget what the universe thinks of me
Untouchable ;
Is who I am

Arms and legs
Joints and knuckles
Down to cells of my rusty ***** inducing aperture
I am nothing short of a miracle
Still breathing
Still living

No purpose
Not a single use
Just
Alive

Silence
Winds blowing
Water on the bumpy cracks
Vivid colours
Stinging pain
No release
No atoms change
Not a soul harmed

Black is all I see ,
For the world is made up of other colours,
Red , yellow, blue and green
But yet
All I see
Is the darkest shade of noir.
No matter how much I beleive
The world will always be black

Does L-O-V-E make you stronger,
Or is it just a total waste of your precious minutes
Waking up and thinking about that one individual
Is it worth all the hearthache,
Sharp stinging pain
That lasts for seconds but it wrecks you on the inside ,
Is all the dopamine just there for the primary needs for ***, do we really live in freudian world , with total ******* concepts like ***** envy , or do we just love to love