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 Jan 2015 effaced
Holly
Pain
 Jan 2015 effaced
Holly
I'm a young girl who is kept from sight
Constantly I'm crying in the middle of the night
I'm a girl who lives in constant fear
From the torment I have to endure and hear
I'm a girl who lives in a world full of pain and shame
As others say that I am hurt and alone as I was to blame
I am a girl who is longing for acceptance and happiness
But it seems like no one really understand and cares
I am a girl who lives in a broken home.
I am a girl who still holds her painful childhood memories
Mum used to beat, slap, and thrown me around every day
As dad watched.
I am a girl with a heart that is constantly breaking
As mum is always tormenting me with her anger and painful words
I am a broken girl who lost her innocence at a very young age
From a mum who hurts me with her deliberate unreasonable rage
I am a girl who is so lonely and sad
As I have no friends and would hide myself away
I'm a girl who was hurt from the people I used to trust
My friends became the bullies who would beat and torment me each day
I used to be the girl who would have tried to **** myself many times
But I was saved by what was the most precious in my mind
I used to be the girl who would bottle up all the emotions and fears
But I could no longer hold on and broke down into tears
I used to be the girl who hurt herself in every way possible
From trying to cut to breaking bones
I am now the girl who is still trying to hold on
But on the inside I am on the verge of breakdown
I am the girl who now smiles and makes eye contact
But truthfully I still want to fade away
I am the girl filled with the painful emotional and physical scars
I am a girl who now wishes to run away
I am now a girl who is trying to pray for everything to be better
I am the girl who still cries each night
I am the girl whose heart would be hard to fixed
I am the girl who now does not easily trust
I am now the girl who is still afraid
I am now the girl who regrets having to live life this way.
 Jan 2015 effaced
Holly
Insane?
Hallucinations and voices.
I think I'm seeing
Something now.
Look! There it is.
What?
You can't see it?
No, I swear
I'm not insane.
It's right there!
A little girl,
Black hair,
Victorian dress.
She's looking at us,
From across the hall.
She's mumbling something.
As she walks closer.
Where is she going?
I think she's coming,
Towards us.
Wait!
Where did you go?
Please don't leave!
Oh no,
The little girl.
She has a knife.
Please come back!
I need your help!
Where did you go?
You just disappeared.
The girl,
I can hear her now.
She's mumbling about
Death
She's lifting the knife.
Where are you?
I need you now.
She's attacking me.
Now, everything's growing
Blurry and dark.
All I feel is a searing pain
All over my body
You left though.
To save yourself.
You let her attack me.
I can't stay awake
Any longer.
Why are the lights so bright?
I only closed my eyes for a minute
They claim I'm in the hospital
They think I tried to **** myself
I told them about you
And the girl
But they don't believe me
Instead, they sent me away.
To a white rubber room
I have a special jacket
It lets me hug myself
They claim I'm insane.
Beyond repair.
They say you aren't real
Nor, is the girl.
They say I have
Schizophrenia
But, you can prove them wrong.
Just introduce yourself.
I've tried to introduce you.
But, they all look at me,
With pity covering their features.
Please, just say hello.
Then, they'll know, that you're real.
 Jan 2015 effaced
Public Diary
If you get sick at the thought of someone else touching me
**why are you touching someone else
 Jan 2015 effaced
Liz And Lilacs
I know you,
You claim you want happiness,
You want romance and joy,
Not the broken people.
Then tell me why,
Tell me why all my
most popular writing
Is about pain and suffering?
I mean no offense. I'm just saying...
 Jan 2015 effaced
Sarah
One day this boy
He took his hands and laid them across my thighs
Sitting directly in my vision
He took his hands and he molded me
Like artist mold clay into beatifying works of art
He molded me in this way
Creased and cut away pieces of what I was
Shaped and edged what I am today
That boy I met was an artist
7 months
It took him to completely change me
I believe he even molded my heart with abit of black clay
Maybe that’s why everything’s been so dark lately
But that boy was indeed an artist
dedicated to you
 Jan 2015 effaced
FallenAngel93
Look in to my eyes,
can you see what
I've seen?

Can you see the
Pain,
confussion,
stress,
hurt,
and
let down?

I've cried many tears,
I've stayed up alone
just sitting there in the
EMPTINESS.

I want to feel loved
and happy.
Not just ALONE and
DEPRESSED.

So why don't you save
me from this BREAKDOWN,
so i won't lose everything.....
once again.

TRUST me to be okay,
help me trough this
so I'm not just on my
OWN.

Let down, is what i will
fell along with pain and
hurt.

Feelings have no meaning
anymore.
I'm always sad, no REAL
smile crosses my lips.

This time it might be OVER.
I can't seem to win,
this war against...Myself.
So as time goes on i will
let go of
EVERYTHING
and
BREAKDOWN ON MY KNEES.
 Jan 2015 effaced
LETITFXRING
S** ay something, put
I t in the most simplest words
L et me understand
E very reason, because I
N ever
C ried so hard,
E ver !
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