Coffee stains pooling beneath my tired eyes
Small bruises flourishing along my chest
The taste of ***** still in my mouth
Or maybe the taste of your lips

Stretching my arms out to my side
Yawning as the sun waves goodmorning
Peaking in from my window
Pooling out onto my floor

Resting against the cool metal of my bed
The cold iron against my bare back
Blanket pulled up and tucked under my arms
I pull my knees up to my chest

Just enjoying the silence of the morning
Enjoying the memories

Its so much easier to cry in the dark
Why?
You may ask
Well, I feel like a black hole
Devoid of air
Everything beautiful gets dragged down
Down into the deepest hole of my chest
My greedy sorrowed soul
Searching for an eternal light
Something I can grasp onto that wont break off
That I wont drag down or push away
Flowers trying to grow along the base of my skull
Trying to sprout through the toxic darkness that lingers

Its so dull inside my head
Everything in me as charcoal gold
What I am implying is

When its pitch black I am one with the dark
And my soul.
Theres nothing I can poison or destroy

Thats why its so much easier to cry in the dark

Pouring alcohol into my sorrowed mind
Just to grasp a taste of bitter happiness
Crashing oceanic waves drown into my thoughts
As I dance to the beat of the heavy bass
Arms embracing the vibes
I am escaping to bliss
Each more sip tastes better than the first
Shaking my heavy head
As tears begin slipping from my hazel tired eyes
I fall to my knees
What am I doing?

*I dont even like beer

Sunshine pooling onto our winter bodies
Seeping into our brittle winter skin
Puddles splashing out from under my feet
A chilling breeze sends shivers up my spine

Or maybe its you?
As you walk so close to me
Your hand occaisionally brushing mine

Rushing water singing from the near river
Ice drifting slowly away
You slowly wrap your hand around mine
And I let you, yes I did

As our arms swayed back and forth between us
Oh and I could feel the way your knuckles grazed my hip along the soft fabric of my skirt.

My heart did slow looping dances in my chest

Melting onto my flushed cherry lips
Showering onto my frosty bones
Flowers start to bloom along my corrupt lungs
My laughter dancing on the clouds
Kissing my cold cheeks
The warmth spreading through my violet blood

Romance with the sun