I over looked your flaws
Your inability to love anybody but yourself
Your inability to feel empathetic
The fact you were so insecure
All your problems
How you seemed to destroy
Everything you could wrap your poison claws around

I was once a beautiful carnation
I opened up to you but you just tore everything apart
Piece by piece you pulled me apart
Scattering my pettles along the cold ground
Grinding my love into the dirt
You left me emotionally detached
You turned me into you
As ****** up
That is not something you do when you love someone

You are upset that I left you
Because you left me
Thats not fair
I left you
All you are to me
Is a years worth of scars
For I would rather have felt physical pain
Then the throbbing thoughts of you
Transforming me into a demon myself
A mental photograph of terrible images
Images of you over me
Pinning me on the bed
Images I cannot burn no matter how hard I try
A hole in my dry orchard heart
Which is slowly healing

You are just upset
Because you can no longer control me

I want you
I love you

If you wait

Isnt it amazing
To think of everything?

We breath the same oxygen as the wilderness
We drink the tears of the mountains
Provide carbon dioxide for the flowers
We feel
Happy
Sad
Mad
Its all so amazing
Isnt it?
The way we are star dust
Part of an amazing world
The amazing feeling of love?
The way we embrace
Cherish
Kiss

Although we destroy everthing
The flowers
The trees
The animals homes?
We knock down and carve out the mountains
We even destroy each other
We carve into our own skin
Just to escape the pain we feel
Phsyical pain is more enjoyable
Then the emotional pains
More enjoyable then the demons
In which whisper in the back of our minds

Why?
Why do we do this to everything?
Everything beautiful?

I hate it.

Getting to hold the one whom you admires hand
For the first time
Is such a lovely feeling
The warmth of their hand pulses like wildflowers
Against your palm
Your fingers entangle like roots of a tree
You are connected
Its so beautiful
And so simple

I miss it.