one of those days where you cant stop reliving moments or being reminded of things, When your mind cant be silenced and you just want to revert to the nothingness waiting in the cold wondering if youll feel something other than this again. sad but not quite sad, alone but not quite alone, alive but not exactly living

When you look up to the sky
and the stars they don´t shine
the sky it cries
and the world it lies
the people they take
until theirs nothing left to give away
people tare their pieces down
while others just frown
until their soul cant take the pain
the broken have nothing left to gain
the world is tough
and the road is rough
can you hear the endless words?
can you hear the endless screams?
do I even mean a thing?
was I just another shame?
was I another piece in your game?
am I just a walking corpse hallow as can be?
or am I alive ?
although I feel dead inside
under my pride
under my joy
was I just another toy?
in this game for two
I´m broken over you

She holds her breath
She dives deep
She then forgets
Nothing to hold on to
She questions the world
Then it goes again
Again.
And again.
He holds his breath
He dives deep
He then forgets
Nothing to hold on to
He questions the world
Then it goes again
Again.

surrounding.
closing in..
grounding.
running.
trying.
hiding.
silents....
*
words.
s­poken.
endless suffer.
walls.
closing.
getting closer.
space fills.
screams go still.
darkness fallows.
rooms fill.
Rooms.

stabs deeper then knives
clear but solid
breakable like flesh
painful like life
blood stains like the sunset
ripped jeans like a clawed leg
rush of Adrenalin real like addictions
deep
deep
deep inside my right leg
deep
glass left it behind
a cut
no.
a hole like wound
needing stitches
needing life
deep.

words can cut deeper then a knife
words can hurt more then a punch to the face
words can care more then a hug
words can brake more then him
words can make you
words can brake you
words can heal you
words.

I know         a      someone          
     who's                                  special to me   
I know a someone                               as happy as can be
I know a someone that's                                   brighter then the sun
I know a someone who's                                       in love with another
I know a someone who                                             was played like a game
by the someone                                                          ­                      that he
loved
I know a someone that                                                       owns a broken heart
Someone that                                                             ­       deserves much better
Someone that                                                             ­         deserves a queen
Someone that                                                            d­eserves happiness
but                                                    ­                                    instead
gets                 ­                                                           betray­al
I know a someone who's             like a cloud full of rain
I know a someone who has a battle with their brain
I know a someone who's the owner
of a broken heart I know
a someone
special to
me.

I thought I was okay
Id been sleeping again
but just as fast as it came it left
now my insomnia eats me again
at least that way Im not completely alone.

Snow.
Cold.
Frozen.
Snow.
Time stops.
Snow flakes freeze in space.
Then it all starts again.
Snow.
Cold.
Frozen.
Snow.

Why do people have to cry?
Why do so little people ever truly try?
Why is it that the world is grim?
Why must she cry over him?
Why must we worry?
Why aren't we ever truly freed?
What else do we possibly need?
Why do people have to cry?
Why is it that most people wish to die?

"I love you"

why'd you lie to me

"I just want to be understood" She thinks in her mind.
"I just want be normal" She whispers to herself.
"I just want to be loved" She yells to the sky.
"I just want to be noticed for who I am, not for who i'm not" she cries.
"I just want to be like the others" She says as tears fall down from her eyes.
"I just want to be loved for me" She begins to sob.
"I just want to be understood" She says as she turns the door ***.
"I just want to be normal" She begins to grab a chair and rope.
"I just want to be loved" She stands on the chair with the rope tied to her throat.
"I Just want to  be understood" She says one last time as gods tears fall from the sky.
"I just want to be-" She begins to say as she is interrupted by the sound of a rope tug and the movement of a chair.

"She just wanted to be understood....She just wanted to be loved" He says out loud to the world.
"But I'm not understood..."
And the story goes on

"But why?"

strong
brave
beautiful.
She was
loving
energetic
and free.
She was
happy
&
smart.
But now, she's nothing.
She's
a ghost of the past
a dead star
a lost puppy.
She's
weak
and fragile.
She's lost in her mind
unable to return.
She isn't what she use to be.
She isn't who she was.