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Self esteem and confidence waning
I begin rebuilding from the inside out
A kaleidoscopic renewal emerges
Living only in the present
Experiencing thoughts and feelings but not judging
a new life algorithm is set in motion free from fraud and deceit
Gratitude authentic like magic abounds
Humility brimming up - wonder bubbling over.
To pass on life’s truth is my duty
Reaching for my manifest destiny
a new cosmology lies ahead with abundance
where everyday miracles are treasures
Moving through a life changing event
 Sep 2016 Josh Schrader
LeV3e
Blessed by Thee, the gift of creation.
Cursed by needs of individualism.

Blessed by Thee, eternal unification.
Cursed by greed, social consumerism.

Blessed by Thee, light the gift of vision.
Cursed by breed, melanin racism

Blessed by Thee, a drop of infinity
Cursed by genes, fates indecision.

Blessed by Thee, the heart of a musician.
Cursed by jealousies rotting prison.

Blessed by Thee, Will of The Magician.
Cursed by bodies physical division.

Blessed by Thee, Love and compassion
Cursed by creed, systematic division.
 Sep 2016 Josh Schrader
SE Reimer
~

our existence...
the unknowable slice,
this blue planet life
where we live, akin
to an infinitesimal,
myopic caterpillar, who
seeks what he cannot see,
answers to questions
he knows not exist,
in a language he
doesn't perceive
is limited in ways
he cannot conceive,
that he has not the words
to begin to comprehend,
or explain...

like the color of music;
the scent of blue;
the sound of the clouds;
the touch of a rainbow.


these are and life is
to him unknowable,
and just how stunning,
and very beautiful,
extraordinary incredible
...he is,
both now
and even more so intended,
is destined,
to one day become.

for today,
he merely
exists...
infinitesimal,
myopic,
caterpillar
that he is;

content to
admire the butterflies
as they soar
in their colors
and float in the mists
overhead,
just beyond reach...
and wonder!

~

*post script.

it is this writer’s belief that our soul is immortal, but that our attempts to understand, to explain or in any way convey to ourselves or anyone else what we see it to be, is equal to our ability to explain our existence here on this rock.... try or wish as we might, our capacity to do so falls far short, leaving us to simply dream, which frankly... i think i prefer to knowing.
 Sep 2016 Josh Schrader
Shay
I am BPD.
I am the demon that possesses your mind,
I am the ghost of all you want to leave behind.
I am the monster that will make you unstable,
The voice in your head making you suicidal.
I am your heart making your emotions intense,
I am your mind, muddled and making no sense.
I am your brain making you neurotic,
With the perfect balance of a handful of psychotic.
I am your self-esteem making you feel worthless,
I will make sure you feel that you have no purpose.
I am your impulsiveness making you act reckless;
Your need to harm yourself is becoming endless.
I am your soul feeling neglected,
You feel it very deeply because you need to be protected.
I am your extreme paranoia,
Making you live in a shell, I’m a merciless destroyer.
I am your fear of rejection, you will outburst at the slightest disaffection.
So, I am BPD and I will ruin your life,
I will cover you in scars made by the blade of a knife.
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