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Bill O'Bier May 2017
The winter I turned twenty-two
I was down as down could be,
Then I heard this sultry temptress.
Croon her soulful songs to me

Miss B. became my sweet soulmate,
I loved her from the start.
That sultry singing empress -
I learned all her songs by heart.

I sang the blues and harmonized;
Played her tunes both day and night.
I connected to the passion
that within her burned so bright.

As time went by, I learned to stop
and thank the stars on high,
To love and laugh, and let life flow;
Like my soulmate in the sky.

Bessie Smith - I've Got What It Takes (1929)
https://youtu.be/Lb2Ckwsf1ZA
Jazz and blues vocalist Bessie Smith's powerful, soulful voice won her countless fans and earned her the title "Empress of the Blues." Born in Chattanooga, Tennessee on April 15, 1894, she began to sing at a young age and in 1923 signed a contract with Columbia Records. Soon she was among the highest paid black performers of her time with hits like "Downhearted Blues." By the end of the 1920s, however, her popularity had lessened, though she continued to perform and made new recordings at the start of the Swing Era. Her comeback and life were cut short when she died on September 26, 1937, from injuries sustained in an automobile accident outside of Clarksdale, Mississippi.
Bill O'Bier Mar 2017
The evening breath stirs,  
as I struggle to cast off
the sins of today.

I cringe when recalling past Vespers.
Your voice – joy to me once,
resounds a heinous incantation.  
Chanting, “The hand of God is reaching out” –
You groped, slowly stroking me up and down.
I give in, my body fully physically responding….

Always afterward, I determined I was to blame.
You offered tears, absolution, and admonishments.
All I must do was keep this secret – you warned.

Now as I seek redemption
for my tortured soul,
I fear these torments continue for other boys.
Vespers - a religious pray service in the evening. Vespers, also called Evening Prayer, takes place as dusk begins to fall. Evening Prayer gives thanks for the day just past and makes an evening sacrifice of praise to God

Absolution - a remission of sin or of the punishment for sin, made by a priest in the sacrament of penance on the ground of authority received from Christ.

Admonishment - to reprove or scold, especially in a mild and good-willed manner.

Cases of ****** abuse (particularly of children) and subsequent cover-ups committed by Catholic priests, and members of Roman Catholic orders have led to numerous allegations, investigations, trials and convictions. The abused include boys as young as 3 years old, with the majority between the ages of 11 and 14. Accusations began to receive wide publicity in the late 1980s. Many of these involve cases in which a priest was accused of abuse for decades; such allegations were frequently made by adults or older youths years after the abuse occurred. Cases have also been brought against members of the Catholic hierarchy who covered up *** abuse allegations and moved abusive priests to other parishes, where the pattern continued.
Bill O'Bier Jan 2017
Love’s melody  
kindles my desire.
As I surrender to you,
we breathe deep
and harmonize.
Sing me your ballad,
I’ll play passion’s song.
Sweet truelove’s combo
plays its tune in my heart –
You are my aria always…
Love’s melody and composition,
fills all my heart with true conviction
Bill O'Bier Jan 2017
she sings soft and sweet
as sunlight shines through her soul
sorrow's shadow shifts
I sing my sorrow and paint nature with joy...Joni Mitchell

Roberta Joan "Joni" Mitchell, born November 7, 1943 is a Canadian singer-songwriter and painter. Mitchell's work is highly respected by critics, and she has deeply influenced fellow musicians in a diverse range of genres. Rolling Stone has called her "one of the greatest songwriters ever", and AllMusic has stated, "When the dust settles, Joni Mitchell may stand as the most important and influential female recording artist of the late 20th century". Her lyrics are noted for their developed poetics, addressing social and environmental ideals alongside personal feelings of romantic longing, confusion, disillusion, and joy. She is one of my most favorite artists.
Bill O'Bier Jan 2017
Intuitively, I knew his words,
before my father spoke.

Your mother's left us, he whispers.

Left you, I dared to scream out loud.
My young boy's heart
aching, silently breaking.

You had disappeared,
without a trace.
It was not an easy trick,
but one well executed.

Knowing this was your pathway
from his alcoholic pain,
offered me no solace.

Slowly, I became his caretaker,
watching whiskey and
women come and go;
leaving life shabby and chaotic.

Regarding my world with
expectations of perfection,
I became the judge and jury
for myself and others.

Always longing - but fearful to connect,
I stayed safe on life's sidelines.

Dissociate or deny –
Never acknowledge any pain,  
Duck and cover from the shame –
That became my coping game.

As time went on
I grew up strong,
but my heart stayed
just the same.

Must I always pay
this price for losing you….
According to the National Council on Alcoholism and Drug Dependence, alcoholism affects about 18 million adults in the U.S. Approximately 26.8 million children are exposed to alcoholism in the family and 6.6 million children age 18 and younger live in households with at least one alcoholic parent. Many children of alcoholics, often referred to as Adult COAs. COA's live in homes filled with stress, financial hardship, instability, neglect, and violence. Unfortunately, these vulnerable youth often struggle academically, behaviorally and emotionally. Children living in this environment may run the gamut of feelings such as anger, embarrassment, shame and most of all hurt. They can also develop insecurities that can lead to emotional scars that they carry well into adulthood.

If you are an alcoholic parent, please get help -- Your child needs a relationship with you. Just as you will need professional help, so will your child. COAs need to attend counseling and/or join support groups to help them cope with the trauma of alcoholism.
Bill O'Bier Dec 2016
Calm follows autumn’s amber sunsets.    
Daydreams linger in the shadows.
Evening songbirds wait
for cues to serenade;
as we take time to pause and reflect.
Each of us can benefit from learning to pause mindfully. Pausing gives us an opportunity to clearly see the desires, wants, fears or anxieties that are driving us. It takes a mindful - pause to reboot ourselves from the rote mode to proactive engagement with life.
Bill O'Bier Dec 2016
As this yuletide time approaches
with its season of good cheer,
midst colored lights and tinsel;
I try hard to persevere.
There was a time I welcomed Christmas
with glad tidings from the start.
Bleak sadness now envelopes me,
my world feels torn apart.
I'll just forget the holiday,
no cheer for me this year.
So solemn now I trudge along,
trying not to shed a tear.
Now alone I sit on Christmas Eve
with a most unusual card.
As I dare to read its words aloud,
something catches me off guard.
Bells ring out their Christmas chimes.
My spirits start to soar.
My anxious, sad, depressing mood
has vanished out the door.
I'm so thankful that this magic card
made my problems disappear.
It's given me a Merry Christmas,
and a most happy new year.
Magic Christmas cards are rare and Christmas can be an overwhelming time of year. Depression can be triggered by a number of things: losses, failures, loneliness, etc.  Christmas depression can also have nothing to do with anything specific. If you’re alone at Christmas and you realize you’re coming down with holiday depression, reach out to someone (a friend, a relative, or a professional), just call someone.  There is nothing to be ashamed of and there are plenty of people willing and able to assist you.
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