I'm just a shell
Of who I used to be
Can't you tell
This isn't really me?

If I knew it would've been this way
Then maybe I wouldn't be here today
Lonesome in the dark with no friends
A Hole in my heart until the very end

Surrogate pawn
In the light of day
These moves aren't yours
In this game we play

Make a move
Take your time
In the end
It's still all mine

You'll be the first to laugh
At the end of my string
you'll know it's all pretend
'Cause I always win

It's getting harder to see
Through this smoke in my lungs
Hoping to break the fog
Cigarette on my tongue
It calms my anxiety

Ensnared in my mind
Too scared to scream
My body's not mine
This feels like a bad dream

My heart is a void
Black and empty
You and I are not the same
I don't know how to feel
Like a moth to a flame
I break my bones
And tear my skin
I'm only a home
For the evil within

I wanted to feel what I say
Without the colours washing away
I apologise everyday,
"Sorry I am this way"

I try every now and then
I even use poetry to vent
But in the end it's all pretend
And I'm in tears again

Roses are red
Violets are violets
Everyone is dead
Why is it always violence?