Do not tell me to be soft
To trim my claws and
Hide my teeth
For I am not
Timid, nor weak
Though my countenance may
Have convinced you otherwise
I will not conceal the venom
In my smile, nor the
Blaze behind my eyes
Do not tell me to be soft
When you aren't sorry,
Just sorry you got caught.

Missed calls and messages,
Feeling like a little kid
Always waiting for the other shoe to drop

The only remaining scar is the one you caused,
Not any of the ones you couldn't bear before
It may have been incidental,
It still itches
Why did you leave, love?
Leave me in stitches?

Bathwater turns cold,
On a scorched July eve
I'm dreaming of another night,
Wading into the sea
Of planting daffodils and pulling weeds,
And wondering if you ever missed me

He took RDR2
He left the shirt I gave him in my car
He was long gone - before I had even driven far
Waited downstairs for the cops,
While I sat on our bed in shock
Night ended with me in the hospital,
He in the stocks.

Lonely and heartbroken, back in my home state
Observing the mess we made
While neither of us can bear to hear the country songs
We mired our love in,
He's probably passed out drunk from confusion
While I'm left up and sobbing,
Wondering how I get it so wrong so often.

Lost, drunken haze
He'll crawl in one of these days
Slip his arms around me like he always did-
But who am I to kid
He'll never message me again
But I'll still lie here, sodden and prone to forget

Hindsight may not be 20/20 after all.
Because after years of thinking I had the answer,
I still have no idea what I could have done
To keep you.
To still have you.
And even now, I fall.

Sunshine lived on in your summer-grass eyes,
Though through the cold I never understood why.
Until you said my name, as I hewed flower crowns wound 'round my knees,
And you pulled me up and kissed me.
Then I knew the sun would never shine as bright as your smile
And any love I'd know again would be a lie.
Because you fixed my heart as well as your friends' trucks
And even if every project you started felled to Weier's luck.
You ever strove to accomplish more.
And even if I was ever a child of darkness, I sought that summertime love, to my core
I reached for your sun and the stars we both reached for.
I was always reluctant to realize, then as now,
I was never going to be enough, so how do I
Still call you the one I most loved.

Slippery glass staring at me
My arms flung out as still as the snow
Gold cascades down my shoulders, you see
I reached out but I tripped on my toes
Little red rivets flowing as satin
Soft on my lotus pink cheeks
Cracks break spiderweb words, greek or latin
And water so hot through the ice begins to leak
Blue glazes my dull hazel eyes
Broken leg or broken wrist crushed under my bones
You'd come running, but for the opening skies
Under my head the fish start to moan
And all I want is to be taken home

The mirror me frowns
My fingers carve shavings out
The pristine pearl skates on my feet drag me down
I whimper but my voice makes no sound
The water envelopes and my scratchy winter coat,
I just wanted someone to take it off
No longer can move nor think of your name
You turned around a moment too late
The pain searing, singing into my marrow
Leading me to this harrowing fate

I'm not quiet.
No, I don't make sense.
I only try to make small recompense.
I can't sleep. Never could sleep.
Not that the racket you keep on helps at all-
But I've still tried counting sheep.

I'm explosive. Corrosive.
I guess I've eaten up all your will and want and love-
again.
But I thought you understood, but then...
I've never been quite right about anyone before.
I just want to be accepted for how I live
Why do you all seem to love who I am until I'm susceptible, and then you want more?