He took RDR2
He left the shirt I gave him in my car
He was long gone - before I had even driven far
Waited downstairs for the cops,
While I sat on our bed in shock
Night ended with me in the hospital,
He in the stocks.

Lonely and heartbroken, back in my home state
Observing the mess we made
While neither of us can bear to hear the country songs
We mired our love in,
He's probably passed out drunk from confusion
While I'm left up and sobbing,
Wondering how I get it so wrong so often.

Lost, drunken haze
He'll crawl in one of these days
Slip his arms around me like he always did-
But who am I to kid
He'll never message me again
But I'll still lie here, sodden and prone to forget

There's a room,
Within the little shop
Behind the girl with the sign
That says "dreams for sale"
It's usually kept locked
But some nights, they open up

Inside the room there's an orchard
It's endless, and sunny
There's names upon the apple trees
I stop and trace one with my finger
Then, there's a man with me.

"I'm sorry," I say, his eyes are bright
I don't remember them that bright,
I only remember when morphine took their light
He smiles and says, "For what?"
But I just tear up, and hug him, and then
We talk for hours, but when I leave,
It's still night.

So one night, when you're hurting,
Come find the shop, and visit my tree
And then I won't be lost anymore
Because you can always find me.
If the dead are gone, it's hard to move on
But we'll always be with each other, see?

Hindsight may not be 20/20 after all.
Because after years of thinking I had the answer,
I still have no idea what I could have done
To keep you.
To still have you.
And even now, I fall.

Do not tell me to be soft
To trim my claws and
Hide my teeth
For I am not
Timid, nor weak
Though my countenance may
Have convinced you otherwise
I will not conceal the venom
In my smile, nor the
Blaze behind my eyes
Do not tell me to be soft
When you aren't sorry,
Just sorry you got caught.

Missed calls and messages,
Feeling like a little kid
Always waiting for the other shoe to drop

Sunshine lived on in your summer-grass eyes,
Though through the cold I never understood why.
Until you said my name, as I hewed flower crowns wound 'round my knees,
And you pulled me up and kissed me.
Then I knew the sun would never shine as bright as your smile
And any love I'd know again would be a lie.
Because you fixed my heart as well as your friends' trucks
And even if every project you started felled to Weier's luck.
You ever strove to accomplish more.
And even if I was ever a child of darkness, I sought that summertime love, to my core
I reached for your sun and the stars we both reached for.
I was always reluctant to realize, then as now,
I was never going to be enough, so how do I
Still call you the one I most loved.

I'm not quiet.
No, I don't make sense.
I only try to make small recompense.
I can't sleep. Never could sleep.
Not that the racket you keep on helps at all-
But I've still tried counting sheep.

I'm explosive. Corrosive.
I guess I've eaten up all your will and want and love-
again.
But I thought you understood, but then...
I've never been quite right about anyone before.
I just want to be accepted for how I live
Why do you all seem to love who I am until I'm susceptible, and then you want more?