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Damon Beckemeyer Aug 2018
Train stations of thought
Ideas all meeting at once
Concepts jumping tracks
Unorthodoxy hopping empty cars
Hitchhiking onto the edge of my philosophies

Runaway trains
Head on collisions
Hypocrisy
And contradictions
What a wreck.

And when the passengers get here
They never stop moving
New positions are always hiring
Since Neurons are always firing

Conductors conducting
Railway seminars
Ted talks a lot
But the passengers leave enlightened
Sharing ideas with other train stations
Miles and miles away

So keep the trains on schedule
Keep the trains on track
Train tracks tracking
New thoughts
Through open minds

Steam will be pouring off my every word
So keep the engines  running hot
I'll be a dragon before too long
Spitting fire

But when the philosophy gets too honest
I have to stay cold
Call it a polar express-ion of thought

All aboard!
Research when I get bored
Stay awake at 4am
Listen to the gears turn in the engine room

The whistle is blowing
Ideas chugging along with enough power
To flatten the pennies I laid there
Intellectual suicide
Of misconceptualized life

Smash your two cents
That buys the ticket
Learn to travel
Learn and travel
Travel your learning

Take the train
Damon Beckemeyer Aug 2018
Whenever I rub my eyes I always have hope in that one small chance that I could wake up to a new world

After the haze of smooshed eyelids, I just wake up in a hospital bed for the first time since a time I don’t remember

I’ll be that guy who always looks at the world through his window
Patiently waiting for the culture to cycle around to liking good music again

White skies are so bright
But we are all too cold to look up

Concrete tables at lunch
Sitting by yourself doesn’t keep your ears warm
There’s no one to listen to

Blank skies and little sprinkles of rain falling on a monotonous day

A candle in a dimly lit basement
Lighters and knives in a box under the bed

The flame bouncing to a rhythm of angsty 90s music

Today was pretty good
I didn’t have to deal with stupidity
Just my own
No drama

But then again, I am writing poems

I rearranged my furniture
Re-wicked the tea lights

Mom is going to like it a lot

I love one class
Like two more
Two are a joke
I’m indifferent to one
And failing another

First time for everything

I realize how much I like being alone
People are frustrating
Which is funny

The social butterfly
Got swallowed by a recluse
A guitar on his back
I hate singing at parties

My thoughts are a reality all their own
My own world is a net work  network of consciousness
And I always take the back roads

I’m hooked
a gateway drug to my mind
And thus I have the best fix I could imagine
Even though it’s my imagination

Music and pictures are on constant streams
Flowing through the brooks of bubbling contemplation
Flood my memory with things I’ve tattooed on my eyelids

Some creative force to just invent pictures I’ve never seen

A slideshow of things that have been more enticing than hours spent with others
I love people
I love to help them

So they like the advice
And I like to listen
Friends aren’t cheap

I guess everyone is a machine
And the engineers run maintenance on us at night time

You know he’s cheating on the local chef
By all the ****-prints in the icing

I love the outdoors
But I’ll be more likely to think to wish I had bigger windows
So I can see the sun come all the way up

A day in thought wasted in pane glass walls
Step right up!
The Man in a Glass box!
See all he has for the small fee of listening.


But I would rather put stones in my mailbox
Than throw them around at the portraits I’ve invited over for dinner
Damon Beckemeyer Aug 2018
Are you in or out?
The stake is your soul

Play with religion
Holy fire matches
Strike it on whatever surface holds a flame
Cause someone might need to burned at the stake

Save yourself
If it saves you.
I did
And I have one foot off the boat I jumped in
Because if you put it in another
You're going to ride the current in two different directions
Sacrificing reason

So balance on the edge
Or build your own ark

Someone takes the wrong branch in the river
And they'll have a white water of a ride
And a waterfall at the finish line
Didn't know you could drown in fire?

God is a very real thing
Hell is a very real place
But use your own paddle when you row your own race

God never soul-***** anyone
So it's your choice to follow
Truth sets people free
Or it leaves them be

I'm not sure if I'm on the Battleship any more
To go out in a blaze of glory
Or is the boat just sinking?

They run out of lifeboats eventually
And in the end, you may just let go of the raft when there's plenty of room and totally give up any hope, causing one of the greatest irritations in all the world of film.

But you may have angel wings
"Jack, I Feel like I'm flying"
Or you watch as an unsinkable hope
Folds up into the same ocean
That God used to **** all but about six people and a zoo
Giving the rest burials at sea and Watery graves

But wood saves,
A few pairs of animals
Moses' staff
And some clay tablets
And at the end of their story
They're broken down into few pieces
And **** a carpenter
Who at least feed 12,000 people
And brought kegs to the wedding reception
Healing the sick
Teaching love, joy, peace, kindness and faithfulness

Something the whole world needs
But cut those false image bearing hands off the body

Gods image fits on a Sistine Chapel
Because people are afraid of him
Paint a heresy
But don't let the Pope know

I'd like to see the pedophiles get god smacked
Rapists get smit
Something of remote justice

When was slavery ever allowed to exist

Sinners get off easy and...
premaritally

But don't watch ****
Or smoke or drink
Ever
"Thou shalt surely die"

West Boro bombshells
Are gonna make for a pretty hot show
When you know they're going to Hell for what they did
For the Bible tells you so.

Just let the preacher get to that slide in his PowerPoint by next Sunday
See ya then
Pray about it?
God bless
XXOO

Because brotherly kisses were just a cultural thing
And we only like side-hugs
Damon Beckemeyer Aug 2018
I found my glasses today
Under a coat of dust
At a friend’s house
A year after I lost them

I like what I see
I put them on
I feel normal again
Clark Kent would be proud

These lenses take the heat off my vision
I look like a normal guy

I feel normal
I can play video games
Talk about super heroes
And girls

And when I leave I go home to arm chairs
and arms full of charity
I should mention
I live at a friend’s house
Three squares, my own room
and a koi pond outside
It’s a hotel here

You see, I found family last month
Understanding
At a friend’s house
A week after I lost it

I didn’t know how I got there
I left Dad’s due to abuse
Mom kicked me out to refuse truth
And now they both pay each other money
As I walked down a rainy street without shoes

My friend’s family
And I’m grafted in
God should hate me
I’m a self-orphaned child
Soon to be a self-made man
I killed family
But I’m grafted in

Washington never cut down his father’s cherry tree
But I’m standing next to splinters
From the axe I didn’t swing
Should have, could have
Would have had I had half the brain I have now


Now
I feel like a normal guy
Who’s never thought about ******?
Who never had parent issues?
Who never had help when they needed it?
Who feels normal?
Damon Beckemeyer Aug 2018
Tired
Eyelids crinkle only to lay flat and closed
Colored pencil eyes
Roll back into a roughly sketched head
And I can't help but blow away the eraser shaving eyelash on your cheek

Pills
Orange bottles
Snow White caps
Take a capsule to sleep

Breathing
Steady
Fleshy bags in your chest
Rising and falling
Making weird noises
Static electricity keeping your heart rate on end

Sleep
Forehead on the desk
Eraser shavings in my mouth
I spilled my prescription
And I need a smoke break
Damon Beckemeyer Aug 2018
Blocking out the world
Watch where you step with eyes glazed over
Caught up inside

So what if glaze gets teary every once in a while?
Like a ceramic mug collecting condensation every time it realizes he doesn’t remember what his little buddy looks like anymore

Long hair let’s me know I’m growing from the thoughts out
Probably why the locks are so crazy

Long hair helps me block out
All the people I see everyday
I guess It’s fair since I never see you anymore

I can follow hallways
I’m lost in my ow nmazes

If I keep looking inward for a way out
My eyes will just roll back
And that works out since I’m sure I look half-dead anyway

Today I saw a picture of you in a wrong turn
It may be the right move
But you never know when you play checkers by yourself for so long
I hope you’re not playing checkers by yourself
I did That for years
And by the time I learned chess I was already getting beat
Go give Jacob a hug from me

Tearing up in class is so dramatic
And so is writing poems

I might see you on the side of Heaven where our family is together again
And was never ****** up to begin with

But for now you’re in my head with all my other thoughts
my baby sister, that’s no place for you.

You aren’t tall enough to go on that ride
But who knows how much you have grown in the time since I saw you last

I have to scroll through photos of a time I don’t like to remember
It’s my fault for not making new memories

Your smile is my favorite
You drew the short string
I’m the reason why Dad is frayed at the edges
So run with the thread
See how long it takes before he’s at the end of his rope
If he doesn’t hang himself first

I wish you could leave
Right now, he’s Dad.
I knew him as Sir.
Right now you’re too young to see it
Your mom cries herself to sleep.
She buys her own dinner at McDonald’s
While you sit down to dinner with the rest of the family

I’m not there anymore
I still know what’s going on
Your birthday is coming up, and I don’t want to miss another one
You’re so little
And 2 years out of 4 is bigger to you than it is to me

You’re the last one of the bunch
So you bet I’m worried I’ll miss it.
I’ll be 20 by the time you start kindergarten
And if your mom and Dad ever **** each other
I’ll adopt you till you’re 20

Making up for lost time means making amends with someone who never seeks forgiveness
And I don’t think Dad will ever allow me back at the table

So I’ll watch you blow out your candles over video
And put out my anger with tears
Because I don’t think I’ll be at your party this year.
I love you.
Happy birthday Breeana.
Damon Beckemeyer Aug 2018
Our lives are the space in between
The war of good and evil
Darkness and light
on opposing sides
And we’re the dusk somewhere in between
The gray we see in black and white
On the static of an old tv

Here i am to be influenced
Or mislead, I decide
As I stand where the West skies meet the East
There I see my sin,
Sitting right Where God left it.

Would he even care if I took it back?
So I could make myself feel condemned again
****** if I do if I Don’t

To hell or high water where I’m just looking up if I drown
Down to Sheol in a Creole mix of vudu or hudu, and “who did You say that you are again?”
Yoo-Hoo! You who breathes out ******* stars, gains the faith of the humans just to send them out to war
It’s a double-edged sword
These lines hand-drawn, into sand, thrown up by a whale, and out onto land, down by the bay to the gates of Hell
It’s the day and the night
With Blades drawn for the fight

Where the dark meets the light once again

Here I am to be influenced
Or put under influence
Or crushed underfoot
Like the serpent I’m grinning but losing this tooth
For the healing heel of my chosen Christ
As it taps into the god’s vein of gold
I see gray,
since I live under a rock made of slate
From old chalkboards
That that were never quite cleaned all the way
Dust lining my nose, Coke lines down the road, and a chalk-outline in the gutter

Where the body you made, to break only to fix again,
died so you could give it a new one
My brain is made of metal
Metal is gray
Gray matter and static
And the cobwebs in the attic are grey
There isn’t one color
But only the black shade of gray
And a white tint of day
Could peel me away from a life of which colors to see

If I don’t decide, live a monotonous life
And stare at the eyes in the screen
I live on either side of black and white,
Where I’m only ever to be seen by the faces lacking shading to be anything more than 2-d, anything thing less than deep
They’re flat like walls, screens, phone calls, steel beam conspiracies, and white girls before a wedding, the starving living in Haiti,
they’re all ******* flat and it’s bleak

I’m having to answer to cancer, and vandals, and rebels, and low profit margins
But I’m just advancing, the random and dumb scribblings of pencil, from a self-proclaimed celestial
And lack the knowledge fit for kindergarteners

And they’re still...  GRAY!.

But if I lean towards artists
And arson for grills made of sulphur and charcoal
The fire consuming a trail of addicts and some chain-smokers
Sinners in chains left like food for the vultures

And cities made of concrete and sin are still gray!
And so is the smoke they breathe out when they burn.
And drill bits dig as they turn into the thoughts, as my brain turns to gray, the gray pickaxes of seven dwarves
as they mine for ores or nether-regions, either or.
leaving God but still believing, ashes are not black in the shadows of factory smoke-stacks
Ashes, ashes, ashes, are ******* gray.

Even the diamonds we see through, to find the dried, white **** on the other side,
Black diamond slopes for the frequent skier, stretching into to the sky, even higher
Than the Everest in your viewfinder
Which still made of gray, is covered in white,
But when **** meets the black and snowballs down the other side, all you see are grey stars as it turns out your lights.

All that we see through is fake
anything less than opaque,
all that we through is clearer
As charades disappear into mirrors
You realize the line between darkness and light
Is a great work of sculpturesque figures
Made Of gray clay
Lodged in history of the gray clouds that rained out the world
A rainbow appeared but it was gray
Because god is not the color we see
And not picking a side is a travesty

So this line I walk doesn’t exist
Blissful in my ignorance
I choose bad or divine
But cant see down the line
But if I could it’d just be ******* gray
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