Conscious

Conscious Jun 2017

Sometimes I cry,
because I just wish you knew.
I will die
still foolishly loving you

#foolish

Conscious Jun 2017

My love for you is past its expiration date.
It converted into an acidic toxic poison that aggressively pumps throughout my entire body
via tightly restricted frost coated veins
by my molding, rotting heart
only when triggered by the thoughts and memories of you ...
and "us."

#suffer

Conscious Jun 2017

Collection of Memories

Just another bad memory to add to my collection.
Another poison to my soul, adding white to my complextion that is only shown by my reflection.

Conscious May 2017

Lindsey- The Disease

Your name evolved into my disease
Imagine a constant desire but inability to sneeze
It attacks my thoughts, my mood, my energy and my emotions
Congratulations, you've become the one fish I wish I never found in the ocean.

#disease

Conscious Mar 2017

The Hole Where My Heart Used To Be

I'm not supposed to love you anymore
So I push tears back down into my eyes
and watch them slide down my throat.
Slowly falling into the bottomless hole
Where my heart used to be.

Empty heart

Conscious Mar 2017

-Hugging a Corpse-

Standing in line
I wait for her turn to hug me
My body stands but my soul falls
Arms extending to whatever it is I am
I feel a shell, cold, like a distant memory
Her hug was more dead than my grandmother lying in the casket

#ex #the #girlfriend #funeral #dove

Conscious Feb 2017

Love graduate.

There is nothing more love can teach me.
So how can I skip class discreetly?...
She'll say that I think love is beneath me,
But if only it was that easy.
Unfortunately, because it's just something I see,
I will not receive a grade of empathy.
Love is becoming too pushy for me
And it's holding my consciousness in captivity.
When in my heart, I know it should be free.

#love #life #growth #codependency