it's one of those days
I wish I could die

I should have died
a long time ago

tw self harm


Ha... I’m bleeding
Once again
I can’t even feel it
Should it hurt?
Have I gone numb?

Ah... there we go...
A bit of sting....
And the red....
All that red....
I just.... I wanna open it
I want it open.... flowing
I want the blood out of me
I want it out!!

tw self harm


Blood all over
I’m glad
I’m content
Satisfied
It’s only right when I’m wounded
Relapse was inevitable
I don’t even feel guilty...
I just want more....

I want to fall apart
to build myself up again

I'm sorry I don't know how to love you properly

I can see the hesitation in your eyes
I'm hiding behind mine

all the words I want to say come to mind
when I talk they spin on my tongue
I'm dumbfounded
it's no fun

I wish I could love you properly
to show you how much you mean to me

forgive me
I'll try my best
hold my hands
feel my heartbeat
I love you believe me