A pearl was sands at first.

When we crossed paths again
The only intimacy that was shared
Were our shadows overlapping
And even then
Yours was the first to leave

Your long, flowing hair resembles the endless expanse of a starless night sky. Your eyes are like lakes of wine, deep and intoxicating. And your face... it's the most breathtakingly beautiful thing I've ever laid eyes on.

It's been a while since I heard from you,
Not a single message, nor a call came through.
Still, I keep my phone close to me,
Waiting for a notification—that pops your name on it.

"You must be busy," that's what my heart whispers,
And so, I'll wait till it beats no longer.
Just don't tell me your promise was a lie,
Or else, a part of me would die.

Like the ticking of a time bomb
Waiting for the payoff
The gift, or the stone
Gold or indigo
Weighing the scales
In your head, in your heart
The decision is already made.
Risking hope, waiting days
In time, your debts will be paid.

I'm running
Trying to catch peace that never arrives
Hiding between shadows
So I don't have to remember

I'm running
Erasing footsteps in exhaustion
Convincing myself
That distance will make the pain smaller
But the farther I go
The more real it becomes

No one is chasing
Except the truth keeps waiting
That it wasn't you I left behind
It was me.

Then I stop
Let the heart hurt
Let the pain speak
I won't run anymore

It doesn’t matter if I can’t see you
hear you,
or even speak to you sometimes
It could be 8 years
Or 1 year
And I always feel the same
You bring me to my knees

let
me
breathe
easily.

I should write
I must try
I wanna live
Not just cry