Nothing drastic
Nothing pure
Noble stains
Distinct liquid drinking
Slipping and seeping
Coming calm in the world
Knowing nothing
Calling into air
Surviving
Discovery
Certain and uncertain motion
Always motion
Interior rivers pulse
Ancient wisdom
Reawakening
Slowly
Irresistably stretching
Infinitely entwined
Endlessly on

                           By Phil Roberts

Love letter in November
Happy to be part of the Juliets and the Kennedys and the women who never lose it
I would do it all in a heartbeat, and I would do it again
I'm in my glory days
My glory weeks and months and years
And I cling to it, not it's notion but it's being
All I can do is smile
Smile and warmth
That is what it is and you love.
You love and love and love

Somber stare into your deep eyes that bleed out fire from your soul, encapsulate me and swallow me like a pill. I’m a slave to your deepest desires, I please you in every way you want to be pleased. The life I now breathe is you, the millions of thoughts that occupy my mind are filled with you, I miss you when you’re here, I miss you more when you’re not. And as my soul gets thirsty I think of you to replenish the spiritual nutrients my body needs just to get by. Life is ugly sometimes but just one of your smiles proves to me that life is not. Because you ARE living proof that life is truly BEAUTIFUL. All these words are just verbal *******, and beating around the bush, to the simple fact that “I LOVE YOU”. But  I don’t ******* have to tell you anything because deep down inside you already ******* know.

I’ve finally come to realize
That it wasn’t anything I did wrong
It’s just that the way I am
Didn’t fit the doll you had drawn

It’s not the typical
I’m just not skinny enough
I’m not pretty enough
I’m not smart enough

Because you didn’t just want pretty
My body did suit your eye’s hunger
It wasn’t anything physical
I was simply too fast for the hunter

Because I’m just not naive enough
My mind wasn’t bleak enough
I wasn’t afraid enough
I wasn’t weak enough

And instead of apologizing
As a means of stipulation
I became smarter, stronger, happier
I didn’t fall for manipulation

And that’s not what you looked for in a woman
So you found a new target to offer that world
Instead of fighting, I still seek purpose in my own
I won't allow my self-control to be overthrown

I am haunted by good dreams
Every night I fall into this beautiful reality
Of a kingdom of you and me
A graceful fallacy
That fills me with malice
Towards my hellish cold alarm
That drags me out of my palace
Steals away my queen. And my crown
No longer am I king of this world
As it let's out the screeching painful sound

And I wake to you not there
Living a real life nightmare

the dribbles and drops you grab
are sob and sorrow now flow
tiny dusty world ever floats
not sure if i still need to grasp