I lie here fondly ,
Awake.
I'm trapped inside my head
I'm scared.

You take my escape ,
My heart is at stake
It's quiet.
My mistake.
I've lost my words.

You stepped out
And I was gone ,
It wasn't me
It was my fear and
Anxiety.

Consumed ...
Therefore ;
Gone.

I stare at glass
as it stares back at me
tremendous thoughts
Could it be?
my face warps.
this person isnt me
this depiction is reality

I see fat but I seem small
living life is a chore
thighs, thick
Stomach, rolls
these tremendous thoughts
are fatality
that prescription pills become candy

I stare at glass
as it stares back at me
a hand reaches out
and says "follow me"
yes-sir-ree
I step over
and follow thee
this depiction is reality

I see light but it's dark
I lost myself ,
I am gone
these tremendous thoughts
have disappeared

one last breath
that is it.

Elf Boy dressed in black
But never in blue ,
He caught my eyes ,
He was something new ;
He had Auburn hair and freckled skin ,
Always wore he's pendant.

I knew from the start ,
God had placed him in my heart
His mind is worth multi-crore;
It's gold.

The stars felt aligned
And truth be told
My heart is captured in this notion ;
Euphoria , fondness
It was immense ;

He felt the same
He understood me too
Also a poet ; loved his words
He gave me two
It is "me" and "you"

Pieces of paranoia
Placed properly,
in parts of my brain

We're all the same

Noises ,are noted as loud
Not , nothing or quiet ;
Like a race car
Driving on a highway

You can't act calm
Nor contently
Mostly on crack ,
You're crazy

It's an escape from events
And/or our ethnicity
To be or not to be just
Another soul

It's bonkers our minds ,
Blasts , such wild
Imagination beyond our
World

A plant so potent
Rich in poison
It breaks away
The pain

Masks the broken
And enhances the
Spoken

We're all the same.

Wake up ,
Go to school ,
Study ,
Repeat.

Heather has a party this weekend ,
"Did you get invited?"
-"What?"
"Oh nevermind"
Repeat.

Late nights
Thinking
Where did I go wrong?
Repeat.

Endless tears and
I don't cares,
But it hurts
Repeat.

The 'go to'
But never the
Broken
Repeat.

Carelessly ,
The last choice ,
That "friend"
Repeat.

Like a boy ?
He's to good for you,
Atleast
Repeat.

Good at a sport ?
I don't think so ,
Try again
Repeat.

Repeat.
Repeat.
Repeat.
REPEAT.