And one day youll look at me and it wont matter anymore. Our past wont matter anymore and when you see me you wont think anything of it. Eventually youll forget me and that terrifies me

Why do I always give so much to those who only take and why do I get my hopes up on the wrong people why do I dedicate myself and spend my time on someone who doesn’t value it and why do people always change their minds about me? Why am i always that second choice, why am i so replaceable? Why is everyone else around me so happy and why do I feel so lost, like I dont belong in a room of people? Why is it so easy for people to be mean to me? How does everyone else get through there day I feel like im drowning and I cant get out

The problem with you,
is you pour your heart out and fill people up.
All the dents and breaks in their hearts you willingly replenish with pieces of yours,
which doesn’t seem so bad till you realize by the end of the day, your heart has sacrificed everything you have, and now there's nothing left to make yourself happy.

Eventually the cracks he left deep in your heart will heal and it'll be easier to breathe on your own.

its not always at night when you miss him, when you lay in bed staring at the celing wondering where you went wrong or when you couldve tried harder.
sometimes its at 1pm on a random thursday and youre laughing but all of a sudden you remember something from when you were with him and it hurts like a bullet to the chest and theres nothing you can do about it

Its been a year since ive last seen you and i can barely remember your voice as you talked to me on the phone, or the exact shade of blue in your eyes. I can barely remember how your hand felt in mine and what it was like to laugh and roll around in the sheets with you. Its been a year since ive last seen you and my memory has gone fuzzy, but **** do i miss you all the same.