45/M/NYC I sit on the back of a bus to and from work thinking too much., I've always felt my most creative in the early AM.
So I just started to put my thoughts down. I welcome any comments...
I have no idea if my writings are any good or not. 0 followers / 531 words
There it was.. Sun soaked smiles I held your hand Laughter for miles As we wiped off all this itchy sand.
There it was... Moving clouds and you splashing puddles under your feet I smile, ask you to listen to the rain drops You smile and tell me I'm sweet.
Rain begins to splinter With every snow flake The idea of loving you begins to awake We drop in to the drift Waiting to make snow angels in the winter
Head so high, drunk on your clouds Leaving your warmth for the moment For the cover of lascivious linen shrouds
My eye was caught in the beauty of another brand I am no cheat Grandstanding on clay feet. I feel so small as I crash land
So Here it comes... The loneliness. Footprints of accountability Brings a brushfire of guilt Standing, spitting into the wind
Here it comes... Discontented swan dive As I drown every single emotion Stuff it in an empty bottle Cap it all off and let nothing escape Before I drink it all and the bitterness eats me alive
Here it comes... This sense of reality leaves me dimwitted My sense of humor was all for naught I realized I'm not as funny as I thought. Poking holes in my glass ceiling You throw one last stone, to begin the healing.
Here it is... Mistaken moments Like floaters in my eyes It all catches on fire, this paper virtue crafted with lies Cardboard cutouts warping from the scorching heat
Here I am... Transparent aggression, Flimsy and amusing Plastic right down to the core A crocodile getting his head bitten off at his own watering hole Now laughing at me through the glass door. Guilt and shame become mounting debts So now it's that time to run and hide Borrow from tomorrow To forget the end of day regrets
I will no longer complain I will ignore the pain mounting I will turn and burry my face in my hands Go ahead and run and hide I'll never stop counting I will no longer try to find a way out of this hole I promise I will never be so bold Quite and dumb I'll just lay under the fold. Where the rain no longer makes a sound And the snow melts before it hits the ground
You left before I ruined you You dodged a bullet from this emotional killing spree You can watch as the shell of me cracks I rather you pity me than despise me.
So stay and watch me fall from the tree no longer this clinging fruit exist under the field of wilted weeds Silent and Unseen I lay waiting in this dying root. I just wish someone could of seen The beauty that once laid within me...
Still walking this murky road Holding hands in pretence I see the anguish While your left pointing at a mirage Persevere to this broken bridge Thinking about a future that makes no sense
All the little things Have all been growing All this **** Decor And the home you really want I'm not welcome anymore
The frustration overflows It cracks your back It all becomes one straw to many As you sneak off to vent As i find a line between want and content
Slowly Becoming the third wheel In this crippled love affair And the air we share is not enough for us to breathe So the your **** for another will incessantly seethe
I am the boat that breached You snicker and watch me drown I am the boat that is breached It's all rising as I plug every hole But it just sinks back down Maybe if I drink enough I'll float rather than drown
So it doesn't matter Straight out of the **** I've been in love with my wound So it doesn't matter I lay back Like a creation started, but undone Sitting in the back of the bus Nestling into my favourite songs Learning to embrace my lull
So many feelings Protected by these secrets Some day you'll regret what you did to me But for now have your fun...
I think the moon has been enslaved As you pull the bright light. Turn and gaze through me and let me shine so bright.
You ware the moons halo Your head, the perfect eclipse Cheap wine swimming through us As we taste it on each others lips.
A conversation so positive we build each other up with unreachable pedestals. The welcomed night breeze tickles my face with your whisking hair. Mixes summer with your perfume this absolute moment Is here for us to consume.
Shall we break dawn for the jealous sun. It's almost here... Let every single breath take effect This is one of those moments, isn't it? A fragment of time where the world seems so perfect.
The breathless journey to your smile Every footstep seems like a mile The growing warmth that simmers inside me The longing is just not enough As your arms slide around me. All for the scent of your kiss This split second bliss... to forever reminisce.
Senses come alive as our fingers glide Taste and smell become one As our senses collided
Loving the warm feeling in my heart As the cool touch of your thigh wraps around my leg. A taste of morning ocean mist Yellow begins to spread across the horizon Ocean peaks begin shining Your body becomes golden My eye squint Yours... Reflecting Gods creation....