Just to be able to embrace you without looking around the room
Being able to kiss you passionately without caring
To say I love you and to hear you say it back
To be loved without fault
To have your love
No secrets no lies
No deceit
Everything's justified
A Love of My Own

A breath of fresh air

Eyes wide and alert, gazing

I have awaken, Love Life

I'm at war with myself and I relive this reality everyday

It's a losing battle if  I am always entering this battle without a plan of action

I beat myself up about decisions I have made that didn't  go how I thought they should have

I never take the time and breathe and look at my options

This battle that I have waged  on myself stirs me from reality

Help me find my way back

Trying to make sure I'm not back tracking

Because lately things seem to remind me of the past

Not trying to make the same mistake twice

But how do I remove myself If I can't push myself to see that it's not good

Do you want me to grab at your heart then devour it, because I can

My love for you is just as strong as your love is for me

Just not trying to be lost or vulnerable

Not trying to lose myself again

Sometimes I feel like Im the only healthy rose in the bunch, but does that mean I have to wither away and die also

Or can I stand alone and look down on all that has not prevailed

I don't care how you leave my life,just as long as you are gone

Jump fences, dive in rivers, your presence never belonged

Wanting to be loved shield me from all the wrong

But as I find myself your mistreatment of me is now shown

Either I write to fill a void or avoid how I feel

Me bottling things up have caused me stress, I have become depressed with all this **** weighting down on my chest

Mix emotions about who I am destroys my mind

Why do I have to settle, when I know I was made to shine

Why do my wants and needs make you think I am trying to over exceed

Expressing myself just gets me looked over and me hiding myself makes people think they can just run over....Me

But now I see,I really do see

You just want me to unleash this beast that dwells inside of me

You want these pretty brown eyes to turn blood shot red and watch in fear as blood vessels burst all around my pupils

You want to see this pretty smile turn gruesome and grim

You want to see the limbs of pass lovers stuck between these rugged sharp teeth that protrude from my mouth

You want to hear me gargling their blood and tears and see me consume what they protested as Love,Want, and Desire

Are you sure you want me to unleash this beast that dwells inside me

Here's my shoulder cry on it he said
I will always be here

Take my hand he said
I will always be here to guide you

Tell me your secrets he said
I will always be here to listen

Show me that you are not afraid of love he said and I will show u how it feels to be love

Let down your guard and embrace me he said, no worries will come your way

This man is like no other I said to myself

Could it be have I found my soul mate

Of course I have he's been here the whole time there is no man better then my Lord,my king, Jesus Christ.

WHAT a wonderful day, heart filled with joy, happiness at my door step once again,  IM READY TO TAKE THAT LEAP.... I deserve this warm feeling all over, I deserve this, this tantalizing piece of hope...WAIT WHATS THIS, IT CANT BE, why are these clouds suddenly darkening and im feeling raindrops on my cheek, It was suppose to be a beautiful day....I FOR ONCE WAS GOING TO BE HAPPY, Stop stepping on my sunshine, It was suppose to be a good day. I shouldn't see these dark clouds when I look up at the sky. I guess the forecast lied again or just wasn't ready to give me my sunny day.

Ha ha, yes I say its ok to laugh now
Relief off your chest
Knowing that you got away with it again
But in my mind I just want you to stay mine
So I remain blind to all the deceitful times

Everybody not going to receive what you put out

You have to remember that they have their own insecurities to deal with as well

Once they are at a point in their lives where to love and to be love matters all other pieces of insecurities in their lives cease to exist

Don't force your love and feelings on someone who is not ready to receive them and then make them out to be the bad guy

Note to self, just because you have the ingredients for a perfect cake does not mean it will be put together properly or come out good.

Am I  perceived as this beautiful bombshell that has yet to explode

I have laid dormant for many years but yet you fear to hold

What is it that you fear, death or you being wrong about me

My smile shows you that I am kind and my sweet embrace shows that you are my fate

Lively soul, yes that is I
Life of the party, yes why shall I lie

My enthusiastic nature paints a picture of devastation

But to get to know the power gives the energy to see if there is more to the image being painted

To have my heart is to know my heart, cherish my heart, and protect my heart

I will not stand for my heart ♥ to be misused

No you will not leave it out in the rain unattended to and unused

This heart of mine is prime time and should always be wined and dined upon without a word being spoken

I take what I need from your heart and leave behind what you need to carry on

No wasted time will I bring , and nor should you bring me

Tried to keep my mind at bay with the things he say

Selling dreams that he didn't want me to awaken from

I always wondered why I couldn't get a peek inside his life, because it turned out to be all lies

I know now why everytime he lied

It's because he always had a alibi

Blaming me for his mistakes, when he was the one that couldn't relate

Couldn't relate because of his past mistakes

Mistakes that he helped make but blames his mate

Now his minds wonders,acussing anything that comes his way

He does not know wether he is coming or going or why his head is always spinning

No help for him now because he is lost, lost in his own web of lies

Give it back cause its no longer yours to abuse

Breathe it's all over

New love darkens the doorway

Again running towards a little difference

Its fragile now, how much more will you put it through

If this fails it's your fault

No problem with letting love rest

VACATION FROM HEARTBREAK

Petals picked from a perfect flower, just to be scattered amongst the mud

Pulling wings off a beautiful butterfly all because you can't fly

Betraying a friend, just to fit in

Taking a life all because your feelings were hurt instead of taking that lost from the fight

Hiding behind lies because of your pride

We as human beings have a conscious and we use it everyday, but also we as human beings try to justify a conscious decision when it all goes wrong

He said when I'm done doing me I will be the man you want me to be

He said when no other woman catches my eye as she passes by he will be the man I want him to be

He said when the club scene starts  to bore and he rather be home with me he will be the man I want him to be

But I said that if it takes all that for you to be the man for me you really are not the man for me

OR  For Any Woman

It was always funny to you to see me in tears

I tried to express my fears, you made the situation seem weird

I held my hand out asking for help, you slapped it back and said help yourself

You were suppose to be my all, my everything

I thought that was the reason you brought the wedding ring

Time has passed and minds have cleared

I have moved on and found a new reason to cry

And yes it is a new guy and I cry because he makes me feel like everything is going to be alright