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Guadalupe Meza Feb 2018
There are two types of pain
You have the external,
And then you have the internal.

Everyone can see the scars
That the external pain leaves
And when we see them we relive
The pain that caused the scar.

But only the carriers of the scar know
The internal damage that it caused.

No-one but ourselves know where to
Find our internal scar
And only we will know how much pain they caused us.
Others will never know the scars
That they leave on others.

The difference between these two
Are that one can be seen on the surface
But the other one can only be found when you dig deep into yourself.
Guadalupe Meza Jan 2018
I search you with the best intentions
But in the end recieve the worst reactions.
All the actions I take are meant to raise you higher
Even if the consequences are dire.

The only thing I want is for you to want me.
I will do anything for you even if it makes me bleed.

In this world we don't always get what we want,
No matter how bad we want it.

So ill just have to keep my pain inside and try to hide my sorrow
From everyone I know.
Guadalupe Meza Jan 2018
I know how it feels to have it all
I know how it feels to feel so tall
I know how it feels to be indestructible,
And I know how it feels to be loved.

I know how it feels to lose it all
I know how it feels to be lost
I know how it feels to be lonely
And I know now how the blackest void feels like.

I just want to be able to say that I'm fine,
Without having to hid my feelings behind blinds.
I just want to be able to hold someone,
Without having the fear of them leaving me.

I just want, for once in my life, to have happiness with me,
Without having to sacrifice a piece of me.
Guadalupe Meza Dec 2017
The difference between us all
Its a great giant void,
One in which we can fall
And at all costs try to avoid.

And yet through our differences
We find the deepest meaning of each other,
And we come to a complete consensus
That in this void we find love for one another.

It only takes one word,
It only takes one second,
For love to be heard,
And for love to be beckoned.

Give your words meaning
And make every second count.
  Jul 2017 Guadalupe Meza
sophia
Chin pointed to the clouds,
her face
following the soft sunset
saddened by the disappearing daylight
as if she will loose a sense of hope
when the sun
goes down.
Pineapple and Malibu
stains the bottom of her cup
that she stole not seconds ago
from the bar on the corner.
Oh my love,
how she doesn’t care to live
doesn’t fear consequences.
Face still scrunched up with disappointment
as if I need to convince her to stay-
her thoughts flowing out of her head
into the skies above her.
She observes them,
Dark blue
Reds
Orange
Hints of purple.
Eyes sunken,
fists full of cloth
arms around her knees.
She turns to me suddenly,
breaking the flow
of her daydream.
Only 18,
hiding behind that baby face.
The only color left
in her big blue eyes
is the white of her pupils
in the moon lit
cigarette winds.
“Do you want to get out of here?”,
the words escape her mouth as she
looks for reasons to stay
checking under the table,
rustling through her bag.
But she’s tired of
knowing not which way to go.
So taking off for the night,
escaping her worries for one more day,
she sighs
and gets up,
only taking with her
the sand on her feet.

Sophia Hadeshian
Guadalupe Meza Jul 2017
I feel free but it's all an illusion
Because I'm stuck in this prison
And the walls are too far apart
For me to see them in the dark.

I am free to roam
In this place that is unknown,
But even here I feel so alone.

I have everything I need,
All the air I can breath,
All the food I can eat,
All the water I can drink,
But I still feel empty inside.

I need to find my way out,
But I'm so full of doubt.

And as I walk about this place
I find a piece of paper in a case.
And it says "There is only one way
out, and it's if you find someone that will one day set, not only you free,
but will let you heart soar high.
Till then you will be stuck in this
Prison of what you call depression."

Now I walk endlessly looking for
The one who will open that door.
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