She's been heart broken too many time before. I came in the picture, just another clone to her. She sees me, she sees heartbreak. I see her and I want to show her. I want to show her that I'm not like the women from her past. Yes,they were all an exquisite taste. Breathtaking but irresponsible with her heart. I can't say that I'm the right one for her. I don't know. What I am certain is the disservice she will be doing to herself if she doesn't see me standing there, in front of her, reaching out . Tick tock, clock is running out.

It started with a note followed by a couple more. Next thing I knew I was wishing she would skip the 4th and come at me with some force. I was fifteen years young and feeling sprung. This feeling was new to me. She was 18 making me fall in love so quickly. I was just a kid not thinking adult things. Her and I was something so sweet and innocent. 10 months later my heart was broken for the first time ever. **** that **** was painful. She cheated and admitted that it was my teammate who She was dealing with

I caught you, you bounced so quickly I had to catch you on the rebound. There you were, coming up to me like you knew we would be. I should have stopped you at hello, I should have let the ball roll. Instead here I go again, catching you on the rebound, nothing new just someone new. You seemed cool, why wouldn't I fool with you. I was lonely and so were you. Now don't be mad, you knew where i stood and still stand.

How did I let this go for so long, you were the poison that ****** life out of me. I tried and tried some many times before to push you out the door but you kicked your way in. With every kick I felt the hits. I begged you please, just stay away. You begged me please, don't go away. You were poison. You had a problem and I couldn't fix it. I tried to save you but you wouldn't listen. 2 years later I see you still miss me, of course you do, I was always submissive.

t's a vibe; it's a common high. Here I go again, I see her eyes and I can tell her heart is pure and innocent. I can tell from the vibe that she's down to ride. As I lay here I realize that it's time to analyze these detailed situations I so recognized many times before. I have to slow down this time around. I can't rush this feeling based on my selfish needs. If the vibe is right, their is no need for lines of lies. With this vibe, I think I might let it be just that, a vibe.

I didn't understand how I went from one relationship to the next. I still don't know. I still don't know how I've told so many women I loved them but never really meant it though. I've got this 2 year itch I can't seem to get past it. I've gone from this to that like a **** game of chest but now I'm gasping. I would like to think that I brought some good to them but as I write this down, I know I was never for them. I'm a serial dater filled with commitment issues that I can't fix. Now I'm searching for my next fix like a drug addict looking for their next hit. I'm addicted to the thought of being in love and committed to someone who I already know doesn't deserve to find out the hurt they are about to endure. I'm a *******. Clearly I have too many issues that is hard to change or better yet, maintain.