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I swore it to myself in a black room
Couldn't follow your lips, they could have led me astray
Inside a darker room
I found solace in repeating the same word
Repeating it ad nauseam
"Never"

I saw myself high
So high I could never sink to you
But you came to me, mirror that you are
And told me I was upside down

I've got his pictures
I've got his voice recorded, its cadence
Makes me get insane
As much as the slight wrinkles around his lips

I drew him many times
With 80s songs in the background
I traced his lip line and his tiny nose
I contemplated his pale skin

He's got dark hair and cold eyes
He shows ease and self confidence
But he needs distance
While he talks to me

He won't take a step towards me
Sagittarius guys are always absent-minded
distant and impenetrable. I can't guess
if he knows he pulls my mind like a magnet

(...)

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Their empty eyes
Nothing can catch them anymore
The flow of seconds is too slow to erase
Silence is so deep, it seems that nothing's gonna change

Someone's knocking at the door
He says he hasn't got a reason why to lie
I leave the room and swear to myself
I'll never let him become one of them

He leads me far away, so far I guess I've lost the road
And hope I'll never find it again
I want him to be the one who saves me

But his words start to sound like someone else's words
His mask starts crumbling and I need to believe it never did
And I trust him till he runs away

My nameless empty boxes find me again
They always come when there's no one around but me
They say that since I let them enter
They'll never leave
They say there's nothing wrong in me
They promise me they'll make my dreams concrete
They promise they'll show who I am