I've found them in the same place
They've been waiting for me inside this room for all these years
And they'll never leave
Cause in my head time never flows

I'm so accustomed to wear masks
That my own eyes seems too blank
If I let you stay or if I try to erase
I'm going to hurt someone anyway

And I don't know what's wrong the most
Between accepting or repressing you
'cause people changes too speedily
And fills my days of doubts

The idea of my mistakes
Impressed in people's mind
And the feeling of fading away
Every time I let them succeed

And every time they do
And realize I have nothing more
There's no way to come back
No way to try again

I need you to take me home
They ran away in search of someone true
And they carelessly left me halfway
I deeply know the fault is yours

They smashed myself into so many pieces
That even you are getting stronger than me
You're always closer and I know
I'll never feel anything else again

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There was not anything else
There was not anything fairer
He was so amazing without ---

Though everyone would have said what he did
I trust again, I believe in everything
I trust though I even betray myself

My heart has been shattered
into so many pieces
Has been trampled so many times
And if I also fall this time
I'll never get up again

There's nothing to hope and there's nothing to say
There's no way to give this waiting a sense
To fill the empty spaces there's just what I see
Plate and blank stares in front of me

It takes me away but it takes me nowhere
There's no way to give the hollow a sense
I do all my best but there's just what I see
Clouded and fading inside my head

No reason to feel and no reason to erase
There's no way to give this sorrow a sense
Nothing to cry for and nothing to hope
There's nothing to hope and there's nothing to say

He's nothing but a few words and a few stares fixed together.
He's nothing but some black ink on white paper.
This should be enough to throw him away from my mind.
But I keep him as closer as I can and I let him take me away.

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