I wrote every last word that had settled onto my mind,
listened to every podcast with the word “depression” in its title,
“These thoughts cannot haunt me”
I whispered dauntingly into my pillow.

through the pain I had self inflicted,
to the trauma I have always written
at the end of the day,
the only person left standing was in the mirror

It hurts we were so close,
but got caught on the what ifs.
What hurts the most though,
is we were so ******* in each other arms
We forgot to break our fall

it shouldn't hurt this much
to love you

even if it kills me
slowly

it's worth it

what have you done
you know this is a mistake
but it's too late

we've come this far
too late to go back

I'll always want you
but I can't have you

When life comes to a pause,
Reset and continue.
26/7/2021

lost in their love talk
lovers walk in evening rain
heedless of being drenched
27/7/2021