You were only there some parts of my life,
I wanted you to be there in my saddened young life,
I was always happy, when to my home, you arrived..

The more I get hurt,

The more I don’t put my all into one thing because I already know that it is going to be what I expect, which is bad,

The more I get lied or be lied to,
The more my trust issues affect me more

My stomach cramps aren’t the best,
I just want less,
This is just a big mess,
I guess it’s trying to have my buttons to press

I don’t understand why there is so much hate in this generation,
Some of the hate must be questioned, more like an interrogation,

I don’t know why all this generation knows is hate,
Some guys hate me knowing one day, they’ll be the one to ask me out on a date,
Some of the girls hate me but one day, they’ll be fixing my plate,

This generation needs some integrity,
They need love in their pity hearts,

How am I the only one that has a warm heart?
How come that heart gets hurt?

I don’t know why but people are so hard to trust,
Liars are the main heads I want to bust,
They are so crusty like bread crust,
When I’m telling the truth, they try to fuss,
They be the first ones to cuss,
Liars aren’t no where near tough,
You know what? I’ve had enough,
When you try to talk to them and tell them the whole truth,
they huff and puff,
They’re dogs, when they see me, “they say ruff ruff”
I’m their owner, I’m the boss,
I run them, if anything, soon I’ll be their loss,
I don’t lie, I come out with honesty,
People are so scared to confront me,
They stink, they rotten, they *****, the smell,
My part, my regrets, I’ll never tell,
Some of these liars should hope that they do well,
Because one day, they’ll be the main ones that go to jail,
I bet they won’t even get bail,
If I hear more lies again, it’s going to be a bowl of hell,
The truth is what I yell,
Liars are what they yell,
They don’t know truth,
They’re just youth,
I’m a full women,
Those liars have something, to them, coming,
These ******* songs are what they keep singing and humming,
They are some **** dummies,
Lies, lies, lies,
The truth always flies,
I am never the first one who cries,
No one can knock me down, even if they try,
I wonder what they’ll say if I just happen to....die

I see in your eye,
That I’m your butterfly,
You say sweet things to me that makes me almost cry,
You said you don’t like me but I feel it is a lie,
When I see you, it’s hard to say bye,
You’re as sweet as a blueberry pie,
I feel like between me and other girls, it’s kind of a tie,
Maybe you don’t want a settle down type of girl like me,
Maybe you want a girl that’s a freak,
You looking at me sometimes is what I can peep,
If I can have you, I promise, promise to keep,
Because when it comes to you, I’ll always be that deep

I don’t know why but people are so hard to trust,

Liars are the main heads I want to bust,

Now me, I am hard working,
Now me, I’m physically strong AND mentally strong,
I am strong in all ways,
Now me, I am focused,
Focused on having fatter pockets,
Now me, I care what people say because I want ALL good things said about me only,
Now me, I’ve been through hell and back,
The name calling, the tears, the times I wanted to die and just be forgotten,
Now me, I am important to myself,
Now me, I will spoil myself,
Now me, I’m focused on the things that matter...

There is this girl(me)who writes poems and quotes, but they are deep, strong and tear dropping,
She writes about how she is treated so wrongfully, while all the other girls are treated like angels,
But that is ok because she sees that they’re rotting,
She sees that one day those same girls are going to be worn out and old,
She hears things a sweet girl should have never been told,
“I’m going to better than them than I already am when I’m grown”,
She clench her fists every time she see another girl getting called pretty when she never gets called pretty,
“Am I ugly?” The girl ask her mom, “Liyah, you are so caught up in what you look like, you’re not ugly. People just don’t see the beauty in you, but I do” said her mom,
“Why did you ask?” Asked her mom,
“Because I see how other girls are getting called pretty and I don’t. I get called ugly.”
Her mom replied “Liyah, you’re beautiful in my eyes and half those girls are going to be fat and ugly when they get in their late 20’s and you’re going to look like Beyoncé”. “Really?” Asked the girl,
“Yes really. I mean look at you now, you’re not pretty, you’re beautiful and you will be more beautiful when you get older, and you’ll see”
The girl nodded her head “I guess”
“Liyah, don’t let this conversation lead to more stress” laughed her mom.

I CANT trust no one,
With nothing, not my heart, not my deepest, darkest, terrible secrets,
Not my bad moments,
Can’t trust no one, and my mama taught me that only trust those you told you their secret and trusted you,
Because I’ve been lied on so many times,
I wish I can start over and have a new beginning in life,
God, why do you keep bringing these same, low life peninsula my life? Because I want to get to know new, nice, innocent people...

I’ve been through it all,
The betrayal, the verbal abuse, the mean looks,
The pain and the hurt,
I’ve been in deep situations where my own friends would talk hell about me,
I’ve been the one who always cried with a broken heart,
But people don’t care, about me, about my hurt, my aching, my pain,
To them, my feelings are irrelevant but to God, they aren’t because I know that God will always be here,
My feelings matter to God....

When I make promise to someone I love,
Trust and break that promise,
Even if someone nicely asked me to,
I’ll put my everything into that one promise,
Just for the people I love ❤️

I wish there was a way to maybe turn things around,
Maybe we can react differently to things,
Instead of lashing outnand fighting, fussing, and cursing,
We should try to fix this problem or our problems that we have together,
We have to fix them and come together as a group, now or never,
We should stop fighting and accept what things are and what they may be like for a while,
We have to do BETTER as people, as ourselves, as people of different race,
Because we don’t want no one talking down on us,
We must do more that what’s right....

This morning it rained like hell,
In the hard pouring rain, I almost slipped and fell,
It was dark and wet outside,
In my house, I really couldn’t tell,
I had no umbrella, so you know I was *******,
The mud and the heavy rain I had to step foot through,
Me and little Maxine stood in the rain like too fools,
Until this lovely young lady offered for us to stand on her porch, under her roof unti the bus came,
Soon, the bus came and me and Maxine ran across the street to our own bus stop with our book bags over our heads,
Besides, Maxine didn’t have on a jacket

I love you more than the blood that's running through my veins,

i love you more than the air I breath in,

i love you more than the times my heart beats,

i love you more than the ground I walk on,

i love you more than happiness,

i love you more than I, myself,

im glad you stood up for me,

and didn't give up on me,

and that's why I love you.

I LOVE you more than anything.....Mom

She has a friendly smile and a warm embrace,
With that young and beautiful heart, she aspires a heavenly grace,
She is a fun loving and Life living girl,
Her funny nature was as precious as a piano black pearl...

She has a smile, only one of a kind,
It is just so beautiful, like a happy illusion of the mind,
Honesty isn’t just her habit,
It was the way of her life,
The truth on her tongue sometimes feel sharper that a knife,
Kindness sort of dwell in her heart,
She has a dream to turn the world into art,
She has a kind and caring heart,
She is a gift of nature’s living art....

New friend, I ask that you be yourself around me,
I ask that you be open and free,
I want there to always be a we and not just me,
I ask that you be yourself, nice and not like other people in my life, so ruthless and mean...

I made a new friend,
She is so different, happy and beautiful,
I felt at once that she was best,
And that I had nothing to do with the rest,
But wait her commands, obey and be grateful...

Yesterday, I made a new friend,
I really hope we be friends till the end,
She has a very fun, nice and cool personality,
Her voice is so squeaky and it makes her sound like a baby,
But I love her voice, I wish my voice was girly and high pitched like hers,
She seems like a nice girl but people aren’t what they seem sometimes,
I just have to keep my eyes open...

its Friday the 13th and I’m so excited,

excited because I love Friday the 13th and I guess I love being frightened,

last Friday the 13th, I watched the movie Friday the 13th,

this Friday the 13th, I might do the same or I might go watching walking away from home,

i want to feel scared,

I want to run away from someone,

someone scary

In my future, I hope to be a very smart, educated, and successful woman,
In my future, I hope to be both street smart and book smart,
In my future me, I hope to be an inspiration to every human being,
In my future, I want to be adventurous...

A couple of days ago, a guy I like kept walking back and forth in front of me,
I saw him looking at me but only a second, I always catch him looking at me as if he's trying to figure me out,
I think he hears me when I say "look at that chocolate", "he's so fine", "he's so ****", "that's the guy I like","there he go"
I feel like he knows I like him...
But will he ever like me?

I like him but... I'm probably the last person that comes to mind,
He's so gorgeous and handsome and hella fine,
Maybe one day...we could be one, he could be mine,
He has such deep eyes, you can just swim in and drown in,
I really do wonder if he has a girlfriend,
Because if he does, I'm still gonna look,
I feel like he's a mystery, and he's not easy to read like a book,
I can tell what kind of guy he is by his walk, his swag, and how he looks,

My life has been a storm,

There's a voice inside your head
That whispers all day and everyday,
"This is not the right thing to do,
I feel that this is right for me".
No one can decide what's right for you,
Just listen to your conscience and that voice inside of your soul,
Just listen to what speaks inside of you,
Know what's right and what's wrong.

I wish I could live someone's else's life for just one day,
I guess would like a little fun in my life for just one day,
My own life is complicated, boring, and too much to explain,
I'm more of a settled down and calm person other than being a wild person...

School has been smooth these past weeks,
But will it be this smooth when the end of this year comes,
I am happy I worked so hard to make it this far,
I am trying so hard to achieve my goal and my biggest goal in my entire life right now at this point is to graduate from high school,
School is a great place to get away from the people at home and home is a place to just get away from the people at home,
I personally think I like school more because at home, there's not no one there that I feels cares about me but my mom.....

You touched me, not mentally, but physically,
You didn't touch my heart,
You touched my body,
You are exactly what I thought you were from the start,
You turned me on a little because of the way you felt on me,
You make me a person that's not me,
If I may ask, "What are we? "
"What are you and me?"
I liked it when you grabbed me and touched me physically, but what about mentally touching me?

The sky looks so beautiful today,
Part of it is blue and the other half is gray,
The sun is barely showing it's rays,
I really hope to see the sun after this very day

it was my destiny to be your friend,
it was my destiny to wish we never end,
it was my destiny to never pretend,
I know my kindness was the only thing to you, I could lend,

The fireworks lit up the excitement in me,
The fireworks exploded in my heart,
The fireworks was first annoying to the ear,
They was first my fear,
They were amazing at sight and annoying to ear,
But they threw excitement at me,
They were loud and irritated but i just let the pop and be,
They might have scared me at first, but the fireworks was so beautiful,
They were many colors, yellow, red, green, blue, all kind,
Even though, I was just watching them, I actually had a wonderful time

I love you more than the blood that's running through my veins,

i love you more than the air I breath in,

i love you more than the times my heart beats,

i love you more than the ground I walk on,

i love you more than happiness,

i love you more than I, myself,

im glad you stood up for me,

and didn't give up on me,

and that's why I love you.

I LOVE you more than anything.....Mom

Love is thoughtfulness,
Love is pain,
Love is giving your all to someone,
Love is falling in love with a stranger,
Love emotional
Love is hard,
Love is a deep tradegy to those who can't love,
Love is trusting someone and being honest,
Love is dying for someone you love,
Love is a unknown tradegy for us while don't love,
Love is sacrifice and giving your all and getting nothing in return,
Love is many things but unsure...

Life is so hard, especially when you go through the struggles alone,

You cry so much and prayed but no magic happened, nothing good happened,

You scream help, but no one extended any helping hands, no one heard your scream or felt your pain, no one did,

Life is all about giving up and giving in and people looking down on you,

Only one person can pull you out into the light, hear your cries, and not just stand there, but calm you and tell you everything is going to be ok,
  
Life isn't all a big party when you're so alone, no friends to call, o no one else's house to go to when you don't feel safe at your owns,

Life is dealing with all the trolls and bullies in reality and on social media,

Life is so real and true and it breaks your heart when you hear the truth about it all.

Life is every good and bad meaning in the bible.

It rained on my birthday today,
I prayed the sun would come put, but it didn't,
I prayed a smile would rise upon my face, it did, but only because someone made me laugh, not because I got anything for my 17 birthday

I know I might be better off without you, but I can't stop thinking about you and your laugh, your skin and your smile. You're probably too good for me but I would hate to see you with another girl

It's sad when no one is there for you when you need someone the most, just someone to pat you on the back and tell you that you deserve everything in the world,
It really hurts when you don't have no one to trust, to confide in, to compliment your flaws,
To lift you up when you're down,
It's hurts when you can't​ hug your brothers​ for their birthdays​, you got to miss it and it just tears you down,
It hurts when no one is there to wipe your tears, and tell you don't cry when they're gone, it's so **** painful when you haven't seen your blood in 2 or 3 years,
It breaks my heart to know that I probably will never see my brothers again,
But in the end of it all, it just hurt, to nor have anyone there to listen to your words..

It takes courage to love a man that doesn't love you back,
It takes time, your energy, and your strength,
Somewhere in all the time, someone has to have the courage to love who they want,
He doesn't love me the way i love him,
He says he loves me as a friend....

My life was just life before you came,
When you came, it became more than life...

I dream about your cheek dimples,
I think about  how my love is so simple,
I fantasize about you laying your head down on my stomach,
I dream about you loving me to my bones, to death, to eternity, from the bottom of your heart,
I think about the times I had you so triggered,
I swear my love for you has gotten a little bigger,
I dream about you, trying to wake me up by kissing me on my neck,
I thought love was only a painful kick,
I miss it when you used to smile at me,
I wish I had the guts to tell you that you can't leave me here,
I want to be hugged deep into your strong arms,
If I ever kiss you, I would **** your lips right off your face,
Just know that no girl can EVER take my place,
Because you are what I crave,
If you don't love me how I love you,
I will spit on your grave,
I can't force you to love me,
I can't force anyone to love me,
But any guy or man, would be so happy and grateful to love a sweet, ******* loving girl like me,
Without you, I fell imprisoned, locked up in a closet, that's so dark, you can't see your hands,
It feels like everything I did for you, you've taken for granted, you've always taken for granted, even me,
I fantasize about you, I think about you, I dream about you, daydream about you, wish for you,
But have you ever wished for me?
It's so hard to just forget about you and how your smile and your face used to always light up when you seen me,
But now, you don't smile at me anymore, you smile at your guys friends and you girl-friends, but they don't need to be smiled at like that,
I would **** for you,
You make me seem crazy because you're the one that made me crazy,
Just know that I love you to the bottom of my feet,
I love you from all the way to Heaven and back, but, like I said before, you take me for granted...

Next week, you're gonna be gone,
I promise you, I will try to find you,
I can't believe you're leaving me,
But I know you're doing it so you will have a future,
You're graduating and I can't accept that,
You're probably gonna be making millions,
I am happy for you,
But you still know what I am feeling for you,
And what I feel about you,
Because once you leave school, and graduate,
I will regret not letting you know I love you so deeply,
I just know that. . . Do you love me ?
Because I don't know what you feel about me,
I don't know why you stopped talking to me,
Is it because I liked you so much that I could have killed you
So no other girl or woman could have you and break your heart,
Because I never will,
I know what it feels like to have your heart broken,
Because you broke mine when you told me you didn't love me...

Am I lucky to be alive,
Am I lucky to have a normal life,
Am I lucky to still be this age,
Am I lucky to have a few friends,
Am I lucky to be at home with my real mom,
Am I lucky I still live with my mom,
Am I lucky or not lucky?
Or don't I appreciate nothing?

I wanted to die a long time ago,
And I kinda want to die now,
My life is in the palms of my hands,
But I just want to vanish, quick,
People in my life try to destroy me with their words,
And it works,
People don't care how I feel. . .

People wonder why my life is so boring,
I tell them it's boring because people don't never want
to take me nowhere,
It's like I'm contagious,
No one likes me happy,
People have great times without me,
I sit down in the same spot everyday,
Wondering if someone is coming to take me to have a great time,
I always think that people are thinking of me, but they're not,
They're hoping I get thrown into a ditch,
My life is so boring because I don't have any friends to take me out,
I don't have a boyfriend to talk to when I'm bored, I have no friends who don't have fun,
My friends are exposed to good times and I'm just a wimp about everything,
I didn't ask for a boring life, it asked for me, and it got me,
Everywhere I go, is in my house. . .

When will I find someone who bring out the good in me,
When will I find a good luck charm,
When will I be so happy to wake up in the morning time,
When will I believe God is real and he exists,
When will I be the old me again,
When will i find happiness,
Will I ever be happy,
Will I be that inner child I always were,
When will I hav a chance to breathe again,
When will I have so much hope and faith. . .