Is there's something wrong with me,
I know I been through a lot,
But really, is something wrong with me,
Why would I let all those things happen,
Maybe I didn't or don't have no control of my life,
Maybe I don't want t have control over my life,
People always called me stupid,
So I ask this question, "Is there's something wrong with me?"
And there's no possible answer,
Am I living the right life,
Why did I get bullied from the start of my life to now?,
Why do people insist on bringing back those horrible times,
And do I deserve this ? Do I deserve to be hurt just because of one small mistake? I been asked this question a lot, "Are you slow?" And I just shake my head no.
It hurts being called stupid or slow because of my kindness,
People take my kindness for weakness and I hate it,
They think I'm in some medication but I'm not and don't wish to be. . . And this is the question I been needing the answer to

I woke up this morning and I felt a pain in my upper back,
And it wasn't a good pain,
It was a pain that couldn't be relieved,
It was a pain that couldn't heal,
A pain that stunned out of nowhere,
My back still hurts right this minute,
But when I don't move and stay still,
There is no pain, and my back doesn't hurt at all. . . .

Love is like having a serious crush on a guy for almost two or three years,
Love is wearing the same socks a love on gave you,
Love is saving someone who you felt ruined your life,
Love is when you get a shirt from your crush and you put it on and you never take it off,
Love is breathing in the strong cologne your crush has on,
Love is dying for someone you really love,
Love is the most strongest word in the world and love can be very dangerous and deadly. . .
Don't ever say the word "Love" unless you mean it and you know what it means,
Because if you don't know what it means or what it stands for, why are you saying it,
Love is like the pressure I'm feeling in my heart,
Love is like having a seizure because you see and crush or love one and they look so incredibly hot, like they're on fire

I wish I have a guy I can give my naked soul to instead of my naked body,
I want a guy I feel a strong connection with,
I want a guy whose willing to listen to my boring stories,
I want a guy who likes when I stutter,
I want a guy who is like the married men on movies,
I want a guy who doesn't have a problem listening to me complain,
I want a guy who can find me and not run me away,
I want a guy I can run away with,
I want a guy who wants to explore me,
I want a guy I'm not so desperate to have,
I want a guy who I don't need. . .

I want a guy to make love to me,
A guy to **** on my toes,
A guy who can be close to me,
Mentally, physically, intimately, romantically,
A guy who still makes me nervous,
A guy who still makes my leg get weak,
And make my legs shake,
A guy who's love is like thunder,
I want a guy who I can trust to lose my virginity to

April is my the month of my grandmother's birthday,
April is the month of the stupidity called Prom,
April is the month when we do things at school that are dumb...

Guys are delusional,
Guys are confused,
Guys are confusing,
Guys lead girls on,
Guys aren't loyal,
Guys are shy,
Guys are confident,
Guys are pathetic,
Guys are needy,
Guys don't love one girl,
Guys destroy girls,
Guys don't know what they want

She shed her tears on my shoulder,
She hugged me so hard,
She didn't want me to leave her,
"I'm going to go get my food", I told her,
When I came back to sit with her,
Her other friend was there taking over,
Her friend wasn't like her,
Her friend was mean and bolder. . .

I am not gorgeous,
That's too much of a word,
I am not beautiful, that's word is not strong enough for me,
A lot of people from my past called me ugly,
They told me because I will never be loved by a guy,
Because I look and sound like a guy,
None of the good words are for me, many say and I just believe them, but none of the good words describe me, only the mean and cruel ones, every who despise me says,
I feel the way they make me feel,
They call me all the mean words in the world and make me feel that way,
Never had I felt cherished and loved because I'm not loved. .

Why is the moon so far away,
Why is the river so deep,
Why is poetry so deep,
Why is the sky so blue,
Why is my heart racing. . .

My heart has not ever been broken before,
But it's still aches and hurts because
You won't cherish it, you won't love it, you won't massage it,
Because it loves you and cherish you.

The sky is crying,
While the sun and the moon
are are arguing and fighting,
The thunder is screaming,
and the lightning was steamy. . .

I wish to go to prom with you
I wish to be close to you
I wish to be yours forever
I wish to make you dinner
I wish you could massage my sore back
I wish I could sing to you
I wish you could hug me tight

My dreams are always about you,
Either you talking to me or about me,
My dreams are about you dancing with me at prom
and kissing on me, loving on me, and even giving me
a few love bites. . .

I promise that you will never be out of my mind,
I promise that I will always think about you,
I promise when you need me, I will be everywhere for
you to find me, I promise that I will never stop loving you

A guy who went to the same school I go to now,
Called me "Unknown Beautiful"
And most of the students in the class laughed,
It had hurt my feelings,
But I laughed with them and pretended it was funny but it wasn't,
I took offense to that because everyone in the class
Was laughing and having a great laugh at me,
And I had a sad sad feeling,
Ohh boy ! That wasn't a good feeling, that feeling didn't feel so good,
I was crying on the outside, because I was so hurt,
They didn't even feel or see the pain in me,
I don't want to be "Unknown Beautiful"
I want to be Gorgeously Beautiful,
The guy was basically saying my beauty was unknown,
But what I think is funny is that he dropped out of high school,
And I stayed there,
I hope to never heard "Unknown Beautiful" ever again because that's not a nice way to describe someone, in my opinion,
I don't want to be called hot because that's a word I hate too,
I was laughed at, called ugly my whole life,
Never called beautiful a day in my life.

When I was younger, the only word I was called was ugly,
So when a guy kik me and said I was beautiful, it stunned me,
Because literally every guy that was in my school, joked on me, made me feel unwanted,
Then there was a guy that called me "The Unknown Beautiful"
Even though I didn't know what he meant, I didn't ok offense to that,
Never was I called "Beautiful"
Never was I called "Gorgeous"
Never did I feel l good about myself and love every bit of myself,
Never did I ever smile in the mirror and say "You're so beautiful"
I thought that since they don't love me, then why should I love me ?
When people felt sorry for me, they were trying to I be funny,
Not supportive,
They didn't care about how i feel, nor if I screamed or killed myself,
My classmates ruined me,
A guy called me ugly and I said "That's the nicest thing someone said to me all my life" but I didn't cry, I just look away after that

You watched me shed my tears and cry and screamed,
You watched me struggle,
You watched me suffered,
You watched me wait for a better day to come,
You watched me starve,
You watched me sit in the dark with no friend,
You built my struggles I went through,
You went through the same struggles I went through. . .

Silence in which our hearts and wounds heal,
Silence in which thieves are afraid to steal

Roses are not always red,
Violets aren't always blue,
At first sight, I couldn't stand to look at you,
But now I can and I do.....

I wish I could sleep in bed all day and dream,
That's the only possible way we can hold hands in the moonlight
And the only way I can love you fully

He is the most hardest to talk to
He loves to eat all of his food
He only has friends that are cool
He loves playing basketball
He hate the idea of Fall
He exercise a lot
Never seen him fought
He is always quiet when he has nothing to say
One time, I thought he was gay
He gets depressed when there is no one to play
He is the reason why I smile all day
He is a tough cookie
Well, at least he's not a rookie
it's hard for him to just let anyone in
He is better off with just one friend

A old woman liking guys who aren't your own age,
You make me wanna burst and rage,
I think you're just going through a stage.

I wish I still had the chance to say, "I love you"
I wish I still had the chance to kiss her on her cheek,
I wish I still had the chance to say, "Thank You"
I wish I still had th chanc to hug so tight, because if I did, I would never let go,
I wish I still had the chance to say, "sorry for not being there with you all the time."
I wish I still had the chance to get to re know her. I wish I still had the chance to smile at her,
I wish I had the chance to tell her thank you for taking me in when I felt like no one cared. I wish I could spend a night with her and sleep in bed righ beside her,
Like I used to do when I was only so young,
I wish I had the chance to relive the very funny and special days I've had with her,
I wish I had the chance to get to know her again,
I wish I had the chance to shop with her, and do everything with her like I used to do,
But I lost all of those chances when she passed away in March.

When I look over my house,
I see thousands of beautiful, bright, and shining stars,
Those stars remind me of your eyes.
Because your eyes are beautiful, bright, and shiny.

A raindrop rolled down the window,
As of if had been raining,
But the sun was out and shining so bright,
I looked at the raindrop and thought, "Dang it must be about to rain."

You are the moon when there is no sun,
You are the flowers when May has begun,
You are the stars that glow in the night,
You are MY moon that shines so bright,
You are the baby that cries it mother's name,
You are the love that drives me insane.

I shed hair everyday,
Bumps popped up on my body,
Everyday,
I stretch my itch everyday

I stood outside in the rain,
The wind was blowing so smoothly,
I felt like the wind was talking to me, trying to tell me something,
I heard it's voice in my soul, in my heart

I made a stupid mistake by getting in that car,
And making the wrong decision,
But I didn't get in that car by choice,
I got in there by force,
And I wasn't happy and I didn't have joy

I dreamed of my grave,
I woke up terrified and afraid,
Ready to be awoken.

The wind frozen me,
The sun warmed me,
The wet and soggy ground tripped me.

The thunder woke me,
The lightning scared me,
The rain caused my tears,
The dark clouds inspired me

The wind calms me,
The wind settles me,
The wind cools me,
The wind clears my mind,
The wind unblocks my nose

The day my grandmother died,
I wasn't thinking about her,
At first I didn't cry,
But when people kept talking about how her life ended, I cried until this day.

I rubbed the ice on my arm,
The ice melted slowly on my arm,
Making me shake, uncontrollably

I saw a puddle,
I looked in the puddle,
And I saw my sad face,
I didn't know what was wrong
with my pitiful looking face

I feel like by the hip, we were connected
When you left me, I kind of felt neglected,
And you wasn't there when I was rejected and disrespected.....I felt like you abandoned me

I want to bow at your feet when you enter the room and carry you to your destination on my back, and massages and kisses await you.

Your eyes remind me of the Stars.
Your heart reminds me of the moon.

I love you more than the blood that's running through my veins,

i love you more than the air I breath in,

i love you more than the times my heart beats,

i love you more than the ground I walk on,

i love you more than happiness,

i love you more than I, myself,

im glad you stood up for me,

and didn't give up on me,

and that's why I love you.

I LOVE you more than anything.....Mom

Behind my smile is a girl that's screaming for help,

a girl that cries for her life back,

a girl that tries to have faith and hope,

the smile is lying to you, telling you I'm ok,

but I'm really not okay,

I want to feel wanted and needed,

i give fake smiles all the time and it's really hard to put a  smile on my face,

I cry for help behind my smiles,

my smiles aren't always real. Just look deep in my eyes

I had rain in my eyes,
Making puddles in my palm,
Flooding my soul,
After almost drowning,
You emerged as my life jacket.

Oh such a laughter ever heard,
As high and sweet like a bird.
From across the room,
And to end all doom.
Full of music and love,
As beautiful as a dove.
It'll spread from one to a million dots,
And'll make you shoot lots of basketball shots.
It'll make you feel greatness and successful
And'll make you sad, less and less.
Oh, don't tell me you know you need it,
But by bit
It'll be really great,
Like a game when you need a break.
If your heart has a hole,
You'll pay a million goals,
For such a priceless thing.

My stomach is weak, my stomach is cramping,
I'm on my monthly, that's why I'm crabby,
I've been feeling so grumpy and ******,
The only way I'll be calm and relaxed, is if I watch the pretty YouTuber, Bambi,
I need something to laugh at, so I go to vine and I looked up, "Young Papi".

My stomach is weak, my stomach is cramping,
I'm on my monthly, that's why I'm crabby

When i die,
Will people who know me cry,
Will they worry Why,
Will they even try,
Will they scream and cry for me,

She looks at the mirror but she doesn't like what she sees,
I told her that when she touches people, she stings just like the bees,
I also told her that she isn't an ugly dog with fleas,
I told her that she's an beautiful angel with bright sparkling wings,
I bet that one day a guy will appreciate her and not because of what she brings

As I open the door and tried to escape,

A voice in my head said "Wait"

So, I walked back in and on the table, sat a white plate.

i want a chance to feel like a trophy, as if you win that game, you get me.

I want a chance to feel needed in every possible way,

i want a chance to feel loved,

i want a chance to eat like I had never eaten before,

I want to feel like Beyoncé, when you see me, you go crazy,

I want to live my life being successful and not being lazy,

i want a chance to be told that I'm the world and that I'm everything and that I'm worth it all,

I don't want to feel like a stupid basketball,

i want a chance to be lucky and to enjoy life,

i want a chance to be bought everything I want,

I want a chance to be liked so much that everyone would write me poems.