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Justin Aug 2018
Hello again,

I think the proper way of starting this is with an apology
But it's already too late
For you are finally gone from my life
And from now on I'm gonna be honest with these emotions

I guess the saying "You never know how much something
means to you until they're gone" has struck me
And all I have left is to write before I break down

You were a sweet person, You were the one who always managed to make me laugh, even on those days where I felt like most of the world was against me, You stayed with me, talking to me until the sun comes up in the morning, sharing every little detail on those emotions your fragile heart has bottled up, but I broke that.

I've always regretted these memories, all the good times we had, all those those times we spent with each other, I always felt regretful for wasting those precious moments I spent with you, because all those happiness turns into a weapon that both engraved a deep scar in both of our hearts.

I tried to keep you within my reach for when the time comes until I can learn how to love properly, but how did that turn out, I found someone else who I feel like I'm incapable of loving properly as I still suffer from the damage I caused for the both of our hearts.

In the end I'm suffering, suffering from wishing I could hear your voice again, suffering from remembering all those moments I spent awake being with you, suffering because I ended up breaking both of our hearts due to my ineptitude of feeling love.

You were the one of the only ones who helped me, who stayed with me, who tried to help me find an escape in the darkness that lurked withing my mind.

I hope for the best that being away from me has helped you, cause even I wouldn't want to be with me too.

Sincerely,
The boy who couldn't love
I know you probably won't see this, But i truly am sorry for hurting you
Justin Feb 2018
I am the worst
I vowed to never
Ever hurt anyone

Yet I hurt you
I didn't mean to
But I did it

I lead you on
By accident
But who would believe that

Who would believe
The person who recieved
Your love

But never gave anything in return
I am the worst
Justin Jan 2018
I am a man
Therefore I must think and act like one
I must not show emotion
Nor weakness
Yet here I am
A living proof that we can be
Whatever we choose to me
Who are you to dictate
That I shan't show
How I feel
Who are you to say
That I can't be what I want to be
Just because of the parts I have
It is my life
And I shall live how I please
Judged yet unmoved
Justin Dec 2017
I have learned a lesson

To never find anyone

Who would attempt to fix

This broken heart of mine

But rather

Find the one

Who'll accept this heart

And only then will it be fixed
I have fallen for someone
Justin Dec 2017
I find it amazing
To find someone like you

The person who managed to fix
My heart that was broken through the years

In only one day
I love you
Justin Dec 2017
I get the same question from people
The question why
Why wont you give up on me
Or
Why wont you stop helping me
I love helping people
People who experience the same pain I feel
So let me help
Even if I cant see my own light
I can see yours
So for once
Let me show it
Justin Dec 2017
I want to see the day
When someone asks
"Are you okay"
I could muster the courage
To say I never was
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