A glorious sun
Hangs above us

He sits at the table
And laughs like his father

Scribbles a letter
To tell him the joke

Not wanting him to miss anything

I pretend not to notice
But the world keeps spinning

And I see you hanging on
Like I clung to the siding
Of your backyard pool

Terrified of the middle

Not living up to the beginning
This cannot be the end

It just feels like it is

I hated Grand Marnier
Before I ever tasted it
Because she knew you
In ways that I didn't

if you give me some time

i will draw you a map

we can get lost together

and then find our way back

or we can sit in the dark

and talk about life

and when you are ready

we will search for the light

this foundation
barely holds its weight
I pick up building where you left off

thankful to you
that it didn't fall apart

but there are too many walls,
not enough beams
to support

and so much undoing
before rebuilding can start

If the Big Bang could mourn
do you think it would wish it was born less explosive?

It hurts to become
when you grow up destructive

This was too much to carry

I am letting it go

It was always too heavy

I've decided to float