a missed call notification lingers on my phone, taunting me in the small moments, reminding me of opportunities lost. A single minute voicemail replayed a hundred times. Your voice seeping into my marrow growing cold as it lingers. It's all I have left, all of you that remains. A notification, a reminder, a promise that just hours before it all, I was what occupied your mind.

A.C.

Dove dark chocolate
Black coffee with almond biscotti
Raspberries and Engstrom almond toffee
Oma I miss you
I’ll see you in 80 years, or so
Have a cup of mint tea for me


Rosemary and Malbec
Ginger snaps and lavender
Grandma why does my dorm room
Smell like old memories of you


I think I left my sunglasses on the dining room table
The last place I saw you
Dyed blond hair, gold necklace, and your sweet soft smile
You gave me your blue jacket
Perriwinkle blue raincoat
Oma it’s raining
I’m making you tea
Dove, deliver it safely to the clouds above me

How was I meant to know
Your last birthday would be the last
Day I would see you smile
Now you are miles
Away,and I miss you all the time

Time is cruel
I'm weak
I miss you
Do you miss me?

I still remember your tender embrace
Your words still linger in my brain
I see your face in my dreams
You never went away
I would want to believe
But

I would say goodbye
But they aren't good at all
Still I'll cry
For you
The mother of my mom