In dreams
     i am respected,
In dreams
     i am honoured,
what then is preventing me,
     from never waking up?

I could think of a thousand reasons to be happy.
A walk through the streets,
A perfect sunrise, 
Think of my happiest dreams.
An ice cream on a sunny day,
A swim on the ocean,
A brief encounter with a good friend,
A good workout,
And a piece of chocolate cake.
I could dream, a wellness in my body.
The wind in my face,
A family embrace.
An aero plane ride,
With a great set of meals,

But all these things,
Amounts to nothing,
When I see a smile on your face,
When I think of your warm embrace.
When you laugh at my jokes,
And ignore all the other blokes,
You're one of a kind,
Whose truly blessed
With a great behind.
And I will always love you. 
Cause you're simply my kind.

Late in the afternoon,
The Sun blazed fiery,
I was strolling along the harbor,
Where a man stopped me,

My eyes watery, my mind at ease
Where do you go young man?
"...", the young man says nothing
I have no reason to speak,
For the world is unclean,
Where men, **** other men,
For the strangest reasons,

I knew this old man had seen it,
A time where compassion was heeded,
And people laugh with people,
And not at them.
A face will never lie,
And his, was plain but battered.
That wrinkled face, those pale black eyes,
They've seen a lot.

I carried on my way,
Armed with ideology,
And a will of a thousand men,
No worlds rest on my shoulder anymore,
For the world is weightless for me now,
When i knew hatred took it over,
I knew i had to do something.

I weep, for the lack of understanding,
It is not only us that are around,
Even the rocks are living,
And trees can feel emotions
Is it so crazy to believe this?

It seems that i find it now,
All things are mere shadows,
A copy of a copy,
Destined to make you follow,
Like ants, slaving away,
To their grand *****.

One can wonder though?
The mysteries that surround,
Of finding out the universal truth,
When The world we know and love,
Is nothing but a dot,
A tiny speckle,
Inside an infinity room.

.
I still see you many a night in my dreams.
Sometimes you are intensely amorous,
Sometimes out of sorts and filled with grief.
Other times you are just violent and mean.

When I awake, my heart is beating fast,
haunting feelings and tears due to our past.
My mind feels ridden with guilt and drained,
My soul completely devoured by torturous pain.

God please know, I regret wrong choices made,
I walked out the door with so much left unsaid.
I did not have heart or courage to watch their face,
I turned around simply disappearing without a trace.

Lopez ©reationz 2014