I mean we started with love
that followed up with hatred
I just wanted to talk
you said "I can't take it"
you pretend we were okay
I just couldn't fake it
I thought this was heavenly sent
you thought it was faithless
now I'm crying out loud
trying to write this sober
what's a harder pill to swallow?
that fact that you're gone?
or knowing it's truly over?
I had to bend over
and pick up what you left
haven't eaten in days
haven't spoken bout this stress
my heart beats slower
you can feel the pain in my chest
I would of given more
if I knew it meant seeing you less.
calling me crazy?
you use to call me baby
I can't stop thinking bout you
wonder how you've been lately...
and I know what your room look like too,
wonder if another man lays down and now replaced me...
what did I do?
what the f$%k is going on in my head?
we broke like skeletons, left two hearts for dead
I would love to speak to you, you just walk away instead
I thought you missed me when I saw a missed call...
but you **** dialed and it was all mislead.

You told me to speak,
so I picked up the pen
I didn't avoid you
the paper just always knew what I meant.
but I can't help but wonder
how long was it over?
Think about it over a glass of disaster
I don't know the last time I was sober...
last time I smiled
last time I could see straight
met a girl after you,
she was perfect but just couldn't relate
what do I do now?
suddenly I'm going out late
figured *** would heal the wound
but I just see your face
I just can't move on
your chains wont let me escape.
I tried to walk away
but our pictures always come back up in my phone
do I miss our bond? or do I hate the fact ill never find another you
and end up being alone.
maybe this is a dream? ****t, I'm just being delusional
my mind is going insane, my thoughts are institutional
but that's what love does...it takes your sanity for all it was...
why does nothing last forever?
why does that logic only attack love!

**** (on my knees)

picking up the pieces,
shattered thoughts and heart fragments
*trying to put this puzzle back together, but it's hopeless
sometimes you have to come to grips with it...
you can't always fix...(crying)
what's eternally broken.